posted on May, 25 2010 @ 09:20 AM
Ok, So first off, I am not the paranormal kind of person. I am spiritual though, So I don't know how far the two are related from each other.
About a week and half ago was my first experience with sleep paralysis and it happened about 3 in the morning, and I immediately knew what it was from
all the testimonies I've read and what not. It did feel strange, and I did have that sense of a "presence all around me" and I was filled with an
uncontrollable terror, but I wasn't afraid if that makes any sense at all. I just felt the goose bumps and couldn't move and my vision was blurred.
I naturally didn't bother looking around, because I know that when it is dark and your vision is blurred your mind plays tricks on you. So I wasn't
about the play that game. The whole time my hearing was obscured with a intense static-like electronic sound, and my body was vibrating intensely at a
pulse of every one second. - This is the only time I felt vibrations.
It happened again at about 5am that morning but this time I said, whatever, and tried to slowly move my arms out from underneath like with palms open
raising towards the sky like some holy experience out of a movie. I could feel my arms rising, but about 10 seconds later I came out of it, and
realized my arms never moved and were tight against my body under the covers.
So I did some more looking into as to why, and found out that one of the causes is irregular sleep or dramatic changes in lifestyle, both of which I
had. So I again thought it was a strange phenomenon, but I was reluctant about trying to experience it again.
Also for both times it happened, I was on my back, which it happens roughly 70% of the time in that position.
This morning it happened again. I've been slowly getting sick (fever) from a lack of sleep and irregular sleep schedule over the past 2 days. The
whole night I could barely sleep, I was constantly thinking about positive sceneries and analyzing the concept of onenesses. I had took a nap earlier
that night, so I was naturally not tired.
So at about 6:30 am, my room was not dark, there is plenty of light, and I can hear all thats going on from my next door neighbor getting ready for
work. This time I was laying on my side in the fetal position, NOT ASLEEP, I was just laying there relaxing. and for some really strange reason, I
felt my thoughts were flowing through me. Not generating from me, but through me, directly from behind me. I instantly was thinking, hmmm. It would be
bizarre if I got sleep paralysis right now, considering I have this new superstition about "presences",but it was a subtle thought. Within about a
second later my hearing was starting to fade out into the same electronic-static overtone. I could feel my entire body getting that presence again and
I was loosing feeling slowly until I was paralyzed. I didn't even bother trying to get out of it. I felt almost a subtle blow of wind around my body
and head, until I could hear things going on next door that I picked up on, which snapped me out of it, brining circulation back to the rest of my
body.
This time was much different. I had no feeling of terror, although my heart sped up. But overall, my thoughts flowing were positive, re-affirming what
I was thinking throughout the night.
In my own opinion, Sleep Paralysis could be dysfunction in the brain that allows you to go out of body. And it can be caused from a lack of sleep. The
presence and images are tricks of the mind from paranoia from losing control, but I have heard some rather frightening testimonies that say
other-wise.
I am an extremely positive person, and rarely have negative thoughts in general, I would say since over the last month, although I do battle
conformity to go on with my own lifestyle, in spite of status-quos and typical life goals people have.
If there is anyone that has had any positive SP experiences, I would love to hear them, I know it is terrifying for most people that have had them
haunting them a large portion of their life, with strange instances occurring, but I feel there is more to them.
[edit on 25-5-2010 by juveous]