posted on May, 14 2010 @ 01:43 AM
...has kind of come to an end of sorts.
Maybe with some help it could really take off again. There was a point in time (about a year ago) that my spiritual and paranormal interest was off
the scales. I'd looked into psychic vampirism, basic energy work, and I was really looking into totally crazy and awesome things whether or not they
did have any validity.
Shortly after I looked into it, I had three deaths in my family not very far apart from one another. I took it as a hint to get out of that subject
and to just continue with where I left off with my "old" life. So, I had for a while...Got back to the same old shtick. I played PS3 quite a bit,
looked into music, and shooting from time to time. Hang out with my lady friend and even my family. Somewhere, though, deep down inside me wants to
get back to a paranormal life. It intrigues me...though, I wonder if there really is any reason for me to go back. Which is why I feel like maybe I
should just take time away from it.
Another problem is that I am really the only one in my location that really is into it (that I know of). When I'm the only one who I physically see
that shares the interests I feel kind of alone and I question my mission and purpose.
If anyone can offer up any help, that'd be great! I just want to get back into it but can't for whatever reason. I need some inspiration or some
reason to carry on with the journey. Ugh, sorry to come on ATS begging for help like this but it might be my only hope?