I Support YOUR Dreams! (The Ultimate Secret Revealed)

I didn't forget about this thread, and I'll finish it sometime soon.

I'm in the middle of several federal cases and have been really busy lately.

I'll need probably 3 full days to invest into finishing this thread. My notes have been just sitting there untouched for weeks. I'll get around to it, whenever. I do want to finish this before I lose the idea completely.

Writing something on ATS isn't anywhere near as important as what I'm currently involved in, and I do consider writing these things to be pretty important but look at it this way : if I can win my cases, or at least 1 of them, I'll be in a position to write material several days a week for the foreseeable future. If I ignore these cases and let them slip outta my hands, I'll regret it the rest of my life and I may never ever get around to be able to write what I want online in any near-complete fashion because I'll be too busy consumed by intense daily slave-labor operations just to make ends meet.

a reply to: muzzleflash

When the time is right for you. Work is calling you in real time. That is important.

We/I have patience...

Des

I don't even remember what I was doing with this thing but I'm ready to finish.
It's been awhile, so I'm gonna review what I already posted and then pick up my extensive notes and try to get back into the flow of wherever this goes.

Not an easy task. Not only do I need to take into account a large amount of information but I need to find my niche and move with the Spirit and elucidate something elaborate yet intelligible, accessible, and user-friendly.

But I'm just tired of writing in regular plain old English, I wanna be bold and return to my roots.
I have to experiment and be unorthodox and radical, this has to reflect "Me".

It's ok that this will be initially unaccepted, because I need to be innovative.
This has to be totally




I'll point out how that's like a hidden Hexa-Sexagram ....



Or maybe I'll throw in the Caduceus...
Because I'm gonna make ya an aviator as we avail our iSight and avidly remove the veil from this Angelic Valkyrie.



Maybe the AV Yin Yang Star is a Swastika? It's hard to tell sometimes.
It's probably everything.


So let's hope the Spirit doesn't avocate and vacate.
I can't do this alone.

I'll need this Perunitsa Valkyrie charm for a lil Luck


And I'll

and


this


And She'll take us on a Journey into a whole new frame of mind, it'll be like


But I'd rather call this Voyage into the Unknown our

You know that Perunitsa charm keeps directing me to Dazbog ? Ain't that weird? Not really, because I ought to tell you about this Slavic deity.

See I'm a brave slave of that Slavic Ave that gave me this stave so I won't have to go to the grave.

It's probably because I behave, I'm not really a knave, though I put myself in some sort of Spiritual autoclave and cleave and shave into all manner and frequency of brainwave. That'd be alpha, beta, delta, theta and gamma all at once in this altered state of awareness I conceive.

You know, some people might believe this Angel is a thieve that deceive, aggrieve, and bereave - but I'll relieve you from that cuz I'm qui vive and here to explain this is all about our reprieve. He save the naive so just chill and breathe as I lay down this wreathe.

Don't grieve and leave, I'll sheathe my rhyming sword up my sleeve and retrieve it on another eve.

Anyways, this is some artwork of Dazbog - take note of the 4 faces in the 4 corners and some of the other symbolism to keep in mind for later on...







If you read the wiki linked above you'll see that Dazbog is a Sun deity and so therefore is the Light of Insight and represents might so don't have a fright. You need to fight that urge and demur from freaking out over the demiurge.

I'll define that real quick -
Demiurge = a heavenly being, subordinate to the Supreme Being, that is considered to be the controller of the material world

Rather than a "subordinate", I want you to think of the "Trinity" concept in Christianity, the "Parent Sun and Holy Ghost", and this "Demiurge" is the Sun and the Ghost. It's also the Parent, or was, but these are aspects of the same thing here.



Ok, think about this - I'm just talking Vishnu here in an interesting way.
One of the Hindu concepts of the Trinity, the Trimurti, is Vishnu Brahma and Shiva.

Ok so Vishnu is the male consort of Lakshmi, the Goddess of Fortune. He dreams the universe into existence, and is the original cosmic cause of all that is. Vishnu, or Brahman is genderless, all-pervasive, infinite and eternal and does not change yet causes all changes. It is the one thing that is the same through everything, and "binds all diversity through unity" thus is the concept of "Universal Oneness" or "God".





So all of these symbols are really representing the gears operating behind the scenes of our reality, it's like the atom (which is originally defined as the single indivisible component of matter). The word Atom in Greek means "Indivisible", and is thought to have originated with Leucippus and Democritus of Abdera Thrace. However it is worth noting that the concept of the Atom was widespread around the world not long after, and even found in India within years - so these guys could just be our first recorded instances of it being discussed in such a way.

Now, Adam is the original man, and Atman is the original YOU. Atman means "Self, Soul, Essence, Breath".

Ātman is the first principle,[4] the true self of an individual beyond identification with phenomena, the essence of an individual. In order to attain liberation (moksha), a human being must acquire self-knowledge (atma jnana), which is to realize that one's true self (Ātman) is identical with the transcendent self Brahman.

So you need to know about your Soul if you wanna be Free from this Prison we are trapped within (it's all in our minds!).

So remember earlier in the thread I discussed Ptah of Egypt breathing the Universe into existence? Well check this out:

It is related to the PIE *etmen (a root meaning "breath"; cognates: Dutch adem, Old High German atum "breath," Modern German atmen "to breathe" and Atem "respiration, breath", Old English eþian).

Atman = Atum = Atem ????

In Egypt the God of Creation is also known as ATUM and also as AMEN.

I'll explain the deeper mysteries of Amen later and how this is our Christian God for sure without a doubt easily provable in endless ways, and how modern Christians don't know anything they are talking about most of the time because they lack perspective and information awareness though they do have many of the tools at their disposal to come to this realization if only they would stop condemning all information they don't fully understand.

So AMEN is the indivisible fundamental Oneness of all things - the Brahman (creator) and it's Atman (creation / breath / Spirit / Soul).

Amen actually means "Invisible, Hidden" in the ancient Egyptian's original conception. Atum means "Completion".

Ok, back to the Trimurti - Brahma is the 4 faced one, the speaker and creator of knowledge (whereas Vishnu is Protector / Preserver and Shiva is Transformation).

So there are sects that argue over which one is the best, but for the purposes of this lesson I will explain that ALL of these are just iterations of the SAME thing - "God", so don't get lost in the different traditions and distinctions that people create and debate over so much. Let's simplify this so we can figure out the Universe together.

Ok so then we have Krishna, which is the avatar of Vishnu. This is a loose equivalent of the ideology of Jesus Christ in our Western thought. Krishna and Jesus both represent Compassion, Tenderness, Love and Beauty.

Both are considered Avatars of God, they are similar in many ways when we really think about some of the primary base aspects of their belief systems.

Anyway - what were we talking about here? Dazbog?

The most interesting passage about Dažbog comes from the Hypatian Codex, a 15th-century compilation of several much older documents from the Ipatiev Monastery in Russia. The complete passage, reconstructed from several manuscripts, translates as follows:

(Then) began his reign Feosta (Hephaestus), whom the Egyptians called Svarog… during his rule, from the heavens fell the smith’s prongs and weapons were forged for the first time; before that, (people) fought with clubs and stones. Feosta also commanded the women that they should have only a single husband… and that is why Egyptians called him Svarog… After him ruled his son, his name was the Sun, and they called him Dažbog… Sun tzar, son of Svarog, this is Dažbog.

Dazbog is literally translated as "Giving God", "God of Gifts", or the "Deity of Donations", something like this. The Donator, which is Fortune AND it is Donar AKA THOR. The Sun and Son of God. Donar Donates the Dawn K?

And remember, Thor's dad, Odin, was Woden and Goden, which is where we get the word "God".

So Dazbog's dad, Svarog, which the scholars equated with Hephaestus or Vulcan - is the Creator deity. That's because God forged all things, and is the Force and Fours. God is in the forefront and came before us. It means ahead and it's the a head (God Head).

So Dazbog is Helios of the Hellenes which most people consider to be a myth full of helium that will send you to hell because in their concept, Helios is the Devil, Lucifer of the Light.

This is like a secret variation of Apollo - the Apollyon in Greek, or Abaddon in Hebrew :

The Hebrew term Abaddon (Hebrew: אֲבַדּוֹן‎‎, 'Ǎḇaddōn), and its two Greek equivalents Apollyon (Greek: Ἀπολλύων, Apollyon) as a person/being and Τάρταρος Tartaros as a place/time, appears in the Bible as name of a place, time, or personification/incarnation of destructive nature. In the Hebrew Bible, Abaddon often appears alongside the place שְׁאוֹל (sheol), meaning the realm of the dead. In the New Testament Book of Revelation, an angel called Abaddon is described as the king of an army of locusts; his name is first transcribed in Greek (Revelation 9:11—"whose name in Hebrew is Abaddon, The Angel of Death." (Ἀβαδδὼν), and then translated ("which in Greek means the Destroyer" (Ἀπολλύων, Apollyon))). The Latin Vulgate and the Douay Rheims Bible have additional notes (not present in the Greek text), "in Latin Exterminans", exterminans being the Latin word for "destroyer".

So in all of these cultures we have "Destroyers" that are interestingly associated with what look to be good guys. But that's because we misunderstand destruction, and that's why I pointed out Shiva represents Transformation. Change.

And check this out:

In contrast, the Methodist publication The Interpreter's Bible states: "Abaddon, however, is an angel not of Satan but of God, performing his work of destruction at God's bidding", citing the context at Revelation chapter 20, verses 1 through 3.[14][page needed]

Jehovah's Witnesses as well cite Revelation 20:1-3 where the angel having "the key of the abyss" is actually shown to be a representative of God, one from heaven, and, rather than being "satanic", is the one that binds Satan and hurls him into the abyss; concluding that "Abaddon" is another name for Jesus Christ after his resurrection.

So even the Jehovah's Witnesses conclude that Apollyon is Jesus ?!?!?!
Hey that's Apollo, Helios, Dazbog, Thor, Krishna, LUCIFER or whatever name you wanna call him.
The Angel of Light is also the Destroyer. Light destroys darkness and it burns matter.

It is Sol Invictus, which is the Atman, the Atom, Adam; it's the Sole Soul from Sheol. Which is the Angel of the Abyss. It's even the Sun in the sky.

In Roman myth Sol is a guy.
But in Norse myth Sol is a Sun Goddess. Also known as Sunna.
The moon, Mani, is a Man. Interesting isn't it?

Scholars have proposed that Sól, as a goddess, may represent an extension of an earlier Proto-Indo-European deity due to Indo-European linguistic connections between Norse Sól, Sanskrit Surya, Common Brittonic Sulis, Lithuanian Saulė, Latin Sol, and Slavic Tsar Solnitse

Surya

Sulis equated with Minerva/Athena and by extension Proserpina/Kore/Persephone or Isis or whatever you want really.

Tsar Solnitse = Dazbog btw.

Remember, though our mythologies split these into personifications with genders so they can tell us stories, this is an irrelevant distinction because they are conveying encoded symbolic information about the Universe and how everything works so that with wisdom and insight we can look back at these myths and legends, these works of art, etc, and derive complex information about our reality surrounding us and about who we are and where everything came from.

Oh yeah, and here's a pic of Krishna with a Peacock.

It's this really widespread motif.
Google "Krishna Peacock" and check images for thousands of artworks created by people worldwide. It's incredibly widespread and popular.



We'll get to the Valkyrie in a lil bit ok?
It's our

Oh and what's crazy is that NONE of that was in my notes, LOL.
I just came up with those above posts in the last hour or two off the top of my head.

I need to get to my notes, lol.
I just have so many ideas...

a reply to: Destinyone

I'm gonna go sleep for awhile.
I got started on continuing this thing.
I've got so much I can do here, lol.

So when I come back (tomorrow hopefully), I'll talk about Fortune, the

Don't be stupefied in this Stupa, just circle around the Vedi of the Zedi and let me show ya something magical.
(It might be important to note that a Zedi is a Stupa, or temple representing the Buddha - and the Vedi is the altar in the Vedic traditions).

I shall now reveal to you that YOU are the real


What you think I just made this up?
I do admit that last night I thought the whole "AV" concept sounded cool because it combined Angel + Valkyrie, but really I think I hacked the Universe and my own Subconscious and Unleashed the Force.

Check out what I found today:






Ok, and strangely enough, the dropship shuttles used in the film are called Valkyrie (which is a very common name for craft in various sci-fi stories, of which there are too many to mention).

Now, the Avatar story was inspired by:

Cameron said his inspiration was "every single science fiction book I read as a kid", and that he was particularly striving to update the style of Edgar Rice Burroughs's John Carter series and the deep jungles of Pandora were visualized from Disney's 37th animated film, Tarzan.[39] He acknowledged that Avatar shares themes with the films At Play in the Fields of the Lord, The Emerald Forest, and Princess Mononoke, which feature clashes between cultures and civilizations, and with Dances with Wolves, where a battered soldier finds himself drawn to the culture he was initially fighting against.

Ok so the Brazilian rainforest is an important source of inspiration, but so is John Carter by Edgar Rice Burroughs which is unbelievable to me personally because Burroughs books (especially John Carter) are already in my notes as one of the themes I will pick up here in a bit and expound upon! It cannot be a coincidence! All of this is intimately related and whatever the source of my inspiration is, it wants to blow my mind away.

I didn't even really know anything about John Carter until I started researching this thread, and I just discovered the Avatar reference today.

And, drum roll:

In a 2007 interview with Time magazine, Cameron was asked about the meaning of the term Avatar, to which he replied, "It's an incarnation of one of the Hindu gods taking a flesh form. In this film what that means is that the human technology in the future is capable of injecting a human's intelligence into a remotely located body, a biological body."

He actually stated that this is about the Avatar of one of the Hindu Gods (of which Krishna is an example and was actually what got me to look into this film this morning because I saw parallels).

It's mountains were inspired mostly by the ones in China in various locations, and I have to say that my favorite mountain range in the world is the Zhangjiajie National Forest Park which is unbelievable and breath-taking.

The film is also a critique on war and imperialism, and of course the world the story takes place in is Pandora.

Cameron is currently working on:


which he said he was going to do but actually put off so he could do Avatar instead. What is all of this a magnificent coincidence?

Ok, in the film, the natives of Pandora worship a Goddess named Eywa, which I immediately think of Aiwass, the Spirit that communicated the Book of the Law to Aleister Crowley, the central sacred text of Thelema, his occult religious philosophy which took the world by storm. Note that the names Aleister and (Battle Angel) Alita are actually very closely related.

In Japanese Alita is called Garry, which means "Battle Spear", and in this sense I believe it is like "Spear It - Spirit". Might as well be, being we are talking about a cybernetic Angel.

Back to Aiwass and Crowley - now, he claimed that Aiwass was basically the messenger Spirit of the Holy Guardian Angel, and that this entity knew way more information than he ever could. This is strangely similar to exactly what I am experiencing in conveying information via this thread.

In the later-written Liber 418, the voice of the 8th Aethyr says "my name is called Aiwass," and "in The Book of the Law did I write the secrets of truth that are like unto a star and a snake and a sword." Crowley says this later manifestation took the form of a pyramid of light.

Crowley went to great pains to argue that Aiwass was an objectively separate being from himself, possessing far more knowledge than he or any other human could possibly have. He wrote "no forger could have prepared so complex a set of numerical and literal puzzles".[4] As Crowley writes in his Confessions: "I was bound to admit that Aiwass had shown a knowledge of the Cabbala immeasurably superior to my own"[5] and "We are forced to conclude that the author of The Book of the Law is an intelligence both alien and superior to myself, yet acquainted with my inmost secrets; and, most important point of all, that this intelligence is discarnate."[

Read the Aiwass Wiki section "Identity".
Basically Crowley explains that this deity represents "Force and Fire", Horus or Lucifer, and that "The Devil" is what people call a tradition of God that they disagree with or dislike. In other works Crowley asserts that Aiwass is most definitely Satan.

And we'll get into deeper discussions of all of this later sometime, but for now I want you to keep in mind that "Lucifer" in Biblical tradition is an Angel. In fact, he's the Angel of Light and Knowledge, Music, and Beauty.

The symbol of Thelema, Crowley's inspired religion from Aiwass (which is the Goddess in Avatar Eywa) - is the Symbol for AV!



The symbol is called the Unicursal Hexagram. It is composed of an A and a V.
I totally just realized this and I'm freaking out now because I was clearly destined to write this today, and there is something significant about all of this. I've got tons more coming too.

Ok so the Unicursal Hexagram represents what?
The FORCE!

In Aleister Crowley's Thelema, the hexagram is usually depicted with a five-petalled flower in the centre which symbolises a pentacle. The symbol itself is the equivalent of the ancient Egyptian Ankh, or the Rosicrucian's Rosy Cross; which represents the microcosmic forces (the pentacle, representation of the pentagram with 5 elements, the Pentagrammaton, YHSVH or Yahshuah) interweave with the macro-cosmic forces (the hexagram, the representation of the planetary or heavenly cosmic forces, the divine).[2]

Here are some further illustrations:


So that's the Tree as Caduceus...
Which is the World Tree - You.
Check out Kabalah- that's exactly what it's all about - YOU.



Also note that in most languages the V = W, so Eywa/Aiwa is A-V- in terms of enuciation, so to speak.


AV

Now this


informs me that we are amidst a Spiritual War, and this here is


and as I'm the Knight running this Academy, you might start calling me something like


but I'd prefer you refer to me as the Doctor


What I'll teach is something like the much-upgraded version of Wiki and


where we'll learn a lot about


and the mystery of




This ain't just a silly cartoon students, this is that Angel from Heaven AKA


We can ask her any questions and get some answers.
The Angel can take any form, but in this sense it's probably something like


Now did you know Korra in Tibetan means "Circumambulation"? It means to "Walk Around", generally in a circle. To rotate or revolve around. And of course every religion, every culture on Earth does a variation of this ritual:

Ambulatory passageways for circumambulation are present through which worshipers move in a clockwise direction, starting at the sanctuary doorway and moving inward toward the inner sanctum where the deity is enshrined. This is a translation of the spiritual concept of transition through levels in life into bodily movements by the worshipers as they move inwardly through ambulatory halls to the most sacred centre of spiritual energy of the deity.

And of course, even the secret societies like Freemasonry do it ritualistically.

You can do it Sunwise (clockwise) or Widdershins (counter clockwise). Shins-sinnes means 'travel, journey, or venture', and widder means 'against'.

This is the premise of the Swastika - Svastika and the Sauvastika.
It's the Circle Dance which everyone worldwide in every historical era knows so well.

So grab my hips and let's do a Conga ring around the rosey cross and have a lil Ghost Dance with Korra in this silly Stupa.

Might wanna check some backstory information for a moment about The Legend of Korra the Last Avatar just so you'll catch my reference.

Now, did you know that in Japan, we have the Kora taisha Shinto shrine? It's name, 高良大社 seems to translate to "High Good Big Society".

And this is the Kora Masonic Temple in Maine.

We have two languages, Aka-Kora from the Andaman islands of India - and !Kora from Africa.

And Kora of Sicyon is credited with inventing modeling in relief, because she drew the outline of a man she loved and her father modeled it in clay.

The term is quite prevalent, such as with the Kora Pilgrimage and several ships in India are named Kora. There is even a film in Japan naded Kora.

The manga series Ai Kora means "Love & College".

In Greek philosophy we have the Khora:

The term has been used in philosophy by Plato to designate a receptacle, a space, a material substratum, or an interval. In Plato's account, khôra is neither being nor nonbeing but an interval between in which the "forms" were originally held; it "gives space" and has maternal overtones (a womb, matrix).

So what the heck is Khora ???

neither present nor absent, active or passive, the good nor evil, living nor nonliving - but rather atheological and nonhuman - khôra is not even a receptacle. Khôra has no meaning or essence, no identity to fall back upon. She/it receives all without becoming anything, which is why she/it can become the subject of neither a philosopheme nor mytheme. In short, the khôra is tout autre [fully other], very.

If, as one contributor concludes, KHÔRA means SPACE, it is an interesting space that "at times appears to be neither this nor that, at times both this and that," wavering "between the logic of exclusion and that of participation."

How's that for a Mindbender?

As there are tons of references, like the famous Kora Awards which are for the best artists in African music, I'll just pick out a few:

Cora (also known as the Queen of Hearts), a fictional character from the fantasy-drama series Once Upon A Time.
The African musical instrument the Cora-Kora.

We even have Cora Crawley, which might be a reference to Crowley, a wealthy English-Jewish aristrocrat in a popular TV show Downton Abbey. The actress portraying her even looks a lil bit like an older version of Korra in my estimation.

And get this, "Cora Cross, fictional character from the United Kingdom soap EastEnders".
It's no coincidence above I said we'd Ring-Around-the-Rosey-Cross (referencing Korra being the center and also being represented by a Rose-Cross as in Rosicrucianism).

Cora Munro, fictional heroine of The Last of the Mohicans, by James Fenimore Cooper

and of course
Cora, an alternate name for the Greek goddess Persephone

Because Korra = Cora = Kore = the Sun Goddess.

a fair young man, Muzzleflash, became the Ghost Writa, and started going a wee bit crazy.
He figured he could communicate with the Spirit and take a big bite out of the proverbial fruit of knowledge. He then became consumed by an obsession with finding out all sorts of cool stuff and started writing the weirdest threads ever on ATS his favorite website.



He even thought of his esoteric threads as types of schools or universities where he imparted his arcane learnings. In one of those lessons, he talked about the character Cora and thought it was really funny she became "The Queen of Hearts" and even died and went to the Underworld just like the Goddess Kore-Persephone, and then after atoning for her mistakes she finally went to Olympus because she's totally a Greek Goddess and the hilarious self-styled real-life Jedi Knight Muzzleflash pointed out that it was proof that the writers of the show knew and intended for him to connect Cora The Queen of Hearts with Persephone the Sun Goddess of Greek Myth. She met Hades in the Underworld AND went to Olympus in that TV show? CMON now!!

And she was played by Rose McGowan???
Speak of Ring-Around-The-Rosey-Cross!

Gowan goes back to Norse and means "Golden" by the way. So she's the Golden Rose.
(You know like the Dawn, which is the Golden Light that Rose up a-cross the sky aka Kore-Persephone?)
And it's probably no coincidence that she was in the show Charmed that was mentioned earlier in this thread because Witchcraft and Trinities are so key to the motifs being presented.

And in addition, it's probably no coincidence that poor Muzzlelfash thinks she's incredibly gorgeous and has even spent 20 years chasing after a woman in real life that looks almost exactly like her (and even married another woman that looks very similar to them)!

What are the odds huh?
Queen of Hearts is an Understatement.

That Golden Rose has even won a Spirit Award, a Sundance and a Saturn award, she's a Scream Queen to die for, and her first ever appearance (according to this wiki?) in film was in True Colors as "Suzanne" - which is the name, coincidentally, of the woman ol Flash knows in real life that looks just like her and he tried everything he could to win her affections for decades.

This is so Spooky, like that film adaptation she was in...




Let me tell ya, you do not wanna mess with her!

I thought I'd be able to make a few more posts today but I'm truly very exhausted and will just try to come back tomorrow and keep adding more.

I heard that I have notes but for some reason I haven't even used them yet, lol. I just come up with stuff on the spot and get carried away. If I don't post it while I'm thinking about it in the heat of the moment than it's really difficult for me to go back and take old thoughts and put them into writing.

It's because of the weird energy I guess.
I have like 50 threads worth of stuff like this I haven't really written in public so it's nuts. It's really frustrating actually.

Today my energy levels dropped really quickly and I bottomed out again. Can't say I've been feeling so hot. I'm really really exhausted. Doing this drains my energy in a very powerful way and I need inspiration and rejuvenation to push me onward.

I'll try to make it back.
Sigh.....

So I got really distracted there by the whole alien thing for a few days.
I had planned to keep adding to this but had to devote my attention to the other thread.

In the upcoming week I'll try to make more additions here and continue this, because this is actually what I want to focus and work on. I didn't plan to lose track again, but stuff happens!

I'll get back to this soon.

I'm working on where I can go and what I can do with this.
I keep coming up with great ideas, lol.

I'm going to try to add a few posts tomorrow, let's see what happens.

Oh, and if anyone here was thinking this is turning into like the Sha Dojo 2.0 or something, it's not. I already have plans for that thread, and it'll actually be titled that "Sha Dojo 2.0", but that won't hit the streets until like a year or two from now (at this rate). Got a lot of ideas for that too.

This thread is the Djedi Academy beta test.

I was busy all day and then when I got a chance to open my laptop, sit down, and do some ATSing I foolishly got drawn into a few other threads (I tend to always check the stories for anything interesting first thing).

I will sometimes compulsively check ATS from my phone but very rarely will I write anything from it, I just don't like any form of writing on the phone except basic texting as the app is made for that and it forces me to make short posts. So it's very rare I'll post on ATS anything more than a paragraph or so from my phone.

In terms of writing in this thread, posting links, copying quotes, uploading and posting illustrating pictures, etc?
No way in hell I wanna do that from my phone, it's not fun. It can be done but omg what a pain.

Using the laptop is sooooo much better for doing all of this, and way faster.

Tomorrow I will most likely have plenty of time to actually write.
That's what I wanna do, and I will try to not get absorbed into other threads or arguing with anyone because that really will kill my flow and knock me outta my vibe. I gotta stay focused on showing you guys some of the crazy stuff I figured out and following through with this thread here.

I probably have 100 posts worth of material to show what I've come up with just for this one thread.
And in my other notes and in my mind, I have several dozen other threads sorta like this but about other things from other angles with whole different themes that teach all sorts of totally remarkable stuff, and I find impossible patterns and synchronicity that I know will leave anyone who reads my esoteric threads scratching their heads saying "Whoa WTF this is nuts!".

Why wouldn't I share it?
I truly love writing stuff like this.
I love being creative and just making up some # and then watching it turn into a weird reality that even has me saying "Um how the # did I write that??"

I think about writing something in this thread every single day. Here today, I had maybe 8 hours of free time to actually sit down and post a few additions to it and continue my stream, but I didn't do anything.

I think of all sorts of great things to add here (and put in other future threads) but it's like I simply can't decide how exactly I want to do it.

Anytime I write anything like this it is spontaneous to a large degree. Yes I'll create a list of notes (which consists of just names, words, maybe a phrase, or some links) but those notes are by no means in depth. 99% of everything is stored in my memory and the notes are just to jog those memories and then I'd write something totally outta nowhere based off that.

Also an issue is that it's like this - you'll think of 100 things to say but once you get up there to speak you end up saying something totally different than anything you planned. That happens a lot.

This has become a really serious existential crisis for me and is very deep. I need to post stuff and add to it. It is my nature. And to actually end up not posting things, to not do what I must do, it's ripping me apart.

A lot of times I think about what I want to write and then I will tell myself "but I need to be in the mood and really get into the flow, but I'm not feeling it right now". I know how to get into that flow but usually it's a 2 or 3 day (or longer) event. For that period of a few days, nearly everything I think and feel has to surround that experience and so my focus is only on that 1 thing (the material I'm writing about).

So not having half a week to just pour myself into it causes me to be very reluctant to "get into the Spirit" and actually do it.

There are also several other factors involved in me not writing this stuff right now. Of course I always mention physical reality and that I'm busy or distracted by other things. But one that I don't mention often is that I need a source of inspirational motivation. Like I require a need to "show off" to impress someone. If I feel alone I will lack that feeling and it will cripple me usually.

When I write this stuff I always feel like I'm showing off for a particular person. I guess in a weird way relating to an earlier topic in this thread, I am spreading my feathers and doing a little dance. If I don't have a focal point, an individual I want to show my thing to, than I don't get into the mood to show it.

If someone is actually out there and has been patiently awaiting for me to continue, I'm sorry that I'm so screwed up psychologically and physically that I haven't actually accomplished this.

How many times have I actually said that in this thread? A dozen so far maybe?
Wow, I'm so screwed up.

This whole 'writing the mystery' thing has totally obliterated me.

I'll be 100% frank about it, I need help.
What I mean by that is - that I need a stable living condition and to stop worrying about money for awhile so I can just write this stuff and at least catch up. I'm over 3 years behind on putting this stuff into threads and it's built up to an insurmountable wall that I feel oppresses my Spirit and overwhelms me in despair.

I just want to unleash...
It has been fomenting for too long and the only purpose left in my life is to unleash it. I feel like I'm going to explode and none of it will come out right and it'll all be screwed up and then I'll regret it and not like it. I'm awash in so much inner turmoil and conflict over this.

I NEED to unleash....