reply to post by seabhac-rua
Interesting story,thanks for sharing.I know it very well,that feeling of being stared at,from earliest childhood memories.I used to feel watched from
the sky too,but that was something different altogether-the watching that made me afraid,was inside the house I grew up in.I was adopted as a baby,by
people who lived in a really creepy old house,which stood on a graveyard,right up next to a deconsecrated church.From earliest memory,I felt an
invisible presence/maybe several presences, lurking around me,watching-and I actually got a physical feeling from it.In all my time on the net,and in
all the books on I've read(concerning the subject of real people's experiences with the supernatural)I have never come across someone who felt it
the way I did-i am always hoping that one day I Will come across someone who experienced the same physical reaction to a malevolent spirit,just
because it is an interesting thing-i would get this really extremely weird physical sensation in my throat,not an itch,or a scratch or pain-just a
weird but very strong physical sensation,like a pressure,almost.When I was a few years older than a toddler,I started thinking of it as the
"hysterical" feeling.
Because I had to live in that house,I guess I could'nt go around screaming,weeping or making a fuss every time I sensed this thing(s) near me,that
would've helped me none+i knew that,even as a small kid.My parents were never gonna move from there because the rent was so cheap+they liked that the
house came with enough space for veggie gardens,a poultry run,etc.This house was on the property of my father's employer,in an area that had become
industrial,and they liked the fact that the previous tenant was a lifelong friend,the Freemason who facilitated their adopting me,incidentally.So I
jolly well had to put up with the unseen presence(s) that terrified me.When I felt it near,I think my terror and aversion concentrated as that
physical "hysterical" pressure feeling in my throat.Also,I just somehow knew,to pretend to ignore this thing was best,it was what I should do,and I
was a funny kid in my own way,I would never,never give it the satisfaction of acknowledging it or letting it see I was afraid.When my mother sent me
for instance,to the lounge to fetch something for her,even in daylight hours,I would sing to myself,walking down the hallway,into the lounge+back
again,though
I was crap scared,I could feel the weight of that stare-it felt Heavy,if you can imagine what I'm trying to describe.
No matter where I lived,I have always had strange+sometimes extremely frightening things happen,though the truly terrifying experiences which almost
drove me to a nervous breakdown,was thankfully confned to one house,in a certain city in my country.There was an old lady who died in the room I
picked for me+the hubby,and my oldest daughter would often hear shuffling footsteps in the kitchen at night.I felt the old lady's spirit staring at
me from the doorway of the bedroom on occasion,too-but she was never a problem for us,just a lingering presence.There was a lot of satanism+satanic
activity in that neighbourhood+i was targeted for tormenting+frightening,maybe because my hubby was almost never home(contract work) and i was alone
with 2 young girls,idk but there was a campaign against me to terrify me,and make my life a misery,from the satanic folks,there was the old lady's
spirit,the least of my worries,and another aspect of the metaphysical which I'm not going to include because it has nothing to do with ghosts.So yeah
that was a hellish time of my life,that I would be very hard
pressed to wish upon Hitler even.
In the house where we live now,out in the African Bush,I have felt that entity(ies) that cause the hysterical throat pressure-feeling,but I have
always ignored it.Well,I would stare straight at where I sensed it to be+settle in more comfily into my couch,as if to say:'Well stand there,then,I
am watching my show,watch me till you're tired of watching,I just don't care anymore" It has'nt been back for more than 3 years
now,incidentally,maybe who knows,it Did get bored of watching,or maybe I have become really boring even to a spirit
Other things that happened here is groceries items throwing themselves off the kichen table,cutlery jumping out of the drying rack while my hubby+i
were right there in the kitchen,my silver rings have a habit of dissapearing never to be seen again,so although I love silver+gemstone rings,I never
get attached to a piece anymore,after being heartbroken over a lovely chalcedony ring that my hubby bought me.I think it is the person that is haunted
sometimes,not the places.If "haunted" is even the right word,but for this specfic thread that word will suffice.And in places,for instance,the old
graveyard house+the suburb where satanic activity was rife,it amplifies one's personal haunting.Well that's my theory,anyway