A poem i wrote 20 years ago

There's a demon lying by my side
i thought he was asleep but he opened his eyes
i saw terror,fear,hate, despair
And there was sadness everywhere
Failure,guilt and hidden lies
Feeding off me like a bunch of flies
He's draining my good, this evil bastard
ive got to overcome, got to try and last it
Bastard demon close your eyes
im not ready yet for my demise
Bastard demon go to sleep
My body's strong but my soul is weak.
But now he turns with outstretched claw
And freezes me with an evil roar
i am his prey there is nothing i can do
He sinks his claws and tears my soul in two
i thought i would be dead, but even worse, im hooked
i wish that i was dead, he's got me, now im fcked
Now he runs my life he's running through my veins
im turning into evil, i do whatever he says.
When i wake up every morning im violently sick
i have to go and get him and do it really quick.
So now the demon has me, im all his now
i want to get him out but i dont know how
He thrives on my sadness this i do know
If i start to love myself hopefully he'll go
im gonna go through hell over the next few weeks
i dont really care, i'll do whatever it takes
Myself, plus my girlfriend and beautiful son
This is my family, we are as one
i must have hurt them badly but i really didnt care
Because the demon had me my feelings just were'nt there
So listen everybody, dont let the demon in
You all know who he is, the evil Heroin...


i wrote this in one go coming off the demon 20 years ago.
i havnt looked back since
it was published in a police handbook for educating schoolkids
it means an awful lot to me. Secret Knowledge

reply to post by SecretKnowledge


Beautiful work. I can tell the poem means a lot to you. I'm glad you found your way out of the haze, friend.

A little comedy on the subject -


Regards,

-AA

reply to post by AsarAlubat


Thanks man
i can see clearly now the haze has gone....
Funny video

reply to post by SecretKnowledge


I always feel privileged when someone allows me to step inside their world in an intimate way through their poems or songwriting etc....truth be known I am a tad jealous of those who are able to express their innermost feelings in this way lol.

But I'm sure for those of us who can't, that through your poem there are many who can identify and thus it will become a tool to express their own feelings.

Thank you for sharing

Very well written, it holds the painful truth of addiction. You're not alone Secret many of us have had our demons to fight. It doesn't matter if it's heroine or gambling or cigarettes, when that demon gets his hold it's always real.

20 yrs! congratulations and my deepest respect.

reply to post by Logos23


Thanks logos.
Writing stuff down can be very therapeutic. It does'nt have to rhyme, it does'nt have to be poetic. Just getting it on paper any way one can can help clear one's mind

reply to post by 2manyholes


Thanks for the kind words 2manyholes
Yeah addiction comes in all manners and it is without doubt a demon

reply to post by SecretKnowledge


I have attempted on a few occasions to express my feeling's and experiences with pen and paper....although not very eloquently lol
And whilst I suspect they are probably not to be shared with the world ....it has been useful to look back from where I have come and how far on I am today

a reply to: SecretKnowledge

This is amazing - I expect to refer back to this poem time and time again - it's relevant and brings up things you sometimes can forget about this deadly thing...

Thank you for sharing this, truly struck a chord with me.

a reply to: AsarAlubat

Thats awesome man, well written and raw

a reply to: FamCore

Thank you very much

a reply to: Freeklord123

Thanks man