posted on Feb, 4 2013 @ 08:18 AM
CH. 1
The duty watchman scanned the skies above the line of trees before him, his widened eyes darting rapidly, seemingly fearful of what might materialise
in the darkness before them. The sudden flight of a lone bat, swooping from a nearby pine branch, caused his heart to drop a beat - but there was
nothing else, save for the cold shimmer of light from the distant stars. He relaxed a little, admiring the heavenly canopy, mesmerized by its
glittering array of twinkling jewels - blue, pink & white-hued diamonds, jostling for the attention of earthbound observers. To the East, the
Moon’s silver halo had diffused widely since cresting the horizon a few hours earlier, blanketing the nearby stars in its glow, subtly usurping
their share of the wonderment of mankind. The watchman turned his attention downwards again, to the shadowy outline of his cabin up ahead, barely
visible as a dull smudge against the canopy of blackness - situated just in front of the deep forest whose border flanked this side of the road,
perhaps a mile up ahead - only his knowledge of its position allowed him to see it at all, in spite of the sheen of moonlight casting shadow upon
shadows.
The cabin was set well back from the road, amidst the first trees of the forest, for a particular reason - the casual pedestrian or motorist would
almost invariably fail to notice it as they passed, precisely as had been intended by its subtle location. Stepping through the undergrowth,
familiarity placing his feet well in spite of the apparently wild tangle of weeds & bracken, he breathed steadily and listened cautiously - nothing
but the ordinary sounds of night greeted his ears, and his clouding sigh of relief cut through the frosty air with dramatic pomp. He knew he had to
stick to the tree line, away from the eyes of the occasional truck drivers - the road’s only regular users – anything less than absolute caution
would be insane, given the night’s events.
In anticipation of nearing the entrance to his humble outpost, he paused and drew a large bunch of keys from the pocket of his waxed overcoat. As he
fumbled to find the correct Yale, the various keys rattled dully and slipped through his frigid fingertips, causing him to curse silently. He
realised with displeasure that far too many of them were entirely unnecessary these days, just memories and echoes of former responsibilities, when he
had been active well within the inner perimeter of the base. The locks they had once turned were long since been replaced with electronic access
systems, even retinal scanners in some cases – and now the clunky metallic relics haunted him, a sign of his increasing redundancy, his efforts at a
semblance of control taunted by their staunch non-complicity. A creeping and most unwelcome epiphany was unfolding in his mind, and he dropped the
keys entirely as the weight of realisation grew. Leaning down slowly to paw the undergrowth, he retrieved them, and with the all-too-familiar
physical pain arcing in his lumbar region on standing, he found he was also pained by a more acute, more intensely present awareness of the trend of
his decades served as a man of the establishment: A steady reduction in duties, relegation to minor work details, the descending upper limit to the
chain of command above him – whilst others he knew, and thought he had known well enough to rely on for support, seemed to sail past him, upwards
and beyond, never to acknowledge him again, uncaring as they ascended to the highest echelons of this most mysterious of projects - which they had all
given their lives to so long ago, and as equals, he had thought. Why him? Why not me? Thoughts of envy, bitterness - of anger - had come every now
and then, but eventually the flicker of virtuous resolution had crept into his heart, somewhat resignedly: He would simply care less than naught for
the seeming death of his prospects, allowing his time to pass, finding contentment somehow - even in the face of overt rejection by former colleagues,
former friends. It hurt, but the years had softened the pain, and he now found pleasure in simple things, comforted by simple routine, still in love
with his wife, appreciating the gentle changing of the seasons - occasionally buoyed by the oddity of minor surprises that life threw up as they trod
their path.
Now though, on this particular night, the awful reality pressed in upon him; he had been deluding himself. All his former self-assurance, his
acceptance of the limits of his status within - or rather, on the outskirts of - The Project, well, it evaporated. He had wanted to be deeply
involved, had been promised a central role – and yet, he had eventually been utterly excluded – with no good reason, as he saw things. After so
many years, this night, he found himself faced squarely and coldly, by what amounted to the total and abject failure of his life’s ambitions… The
brutally sharp outline of these thoughts had surfaced with a vengeance, and the thrust of their implications unsettled him more than he would have
imagined possible. Strangely, they stirred the beginning of some inexplicable fear – even the faint, creeping omen of some inconceivable terror,
lurking just beyond the horizon of his awareness…
He shook himself from the trance induced by bitter memory, dazed, and inspected keenly the luminescence of the figures on his wristwatch – several
seconds passed, as he sought to ground himself in Actual Reality. Seeing that the hour was late, he stepped forwards once more towards the safe
haven of his cabin. Ridiculous! Undoubtedly, these feelings were ridiculous, and he began to tell himself thus, over and over again – his
imagination wasn’t used to such excitement as the night had offered, and now his brain was proffering some childish fear response, probably
evolutionarily designed to make him creep into a quiet place, to settle himself down until the perceived threat had blown over.
The night’s events had certainly warranted strange subconscious reactions, if nothing else. After all, the sheer – well, what was it now? Was it
the perceived impossibility, or the simple unexpectedness of it all? Regardless, the magnitude of what had taken place, the high strangeness of it
all, had led to unavoidable conclusions regarding the potential for personal jeopardy - for such thoughts to be actively in the forefront of his
consciousness, let alone in the depths of his dreaming mind, was entirely understandable, therefore. What a strange hodge-podge the human psyche was,
he remarked inwardly. With the momentary detachment of a third-party observer, seeing his own thoughts and feelings from some other vantage point, he
calmly foresaw, and was able to name his deepest fear, that which lurked beyond the pale of ordinary thought, and thus control it - though this was a
short-lived, and thus useless state of mind. Crashing back into himself, he found that his moment of calm confidence had been replaced by a cold and
savage sense of fragile mortality, which he wasn’t at all equipped to deal with. Mortality - now there was a thing… Rarely had he allowed
himself to consider death, given that until this night he’d fully expected he had long to live; never having taken up bad habits, having lived
sensibly for all of his fifty-five years, there had seemed no point in contemplating matters of the soul, even as the years had begun to quicken in
their passing as time went by.
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