Jesus spent 40 days in the Desert. I only spent 21, but here's what began to happen;

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how do you perceive yourself now, one year after your get away? have you noticed you can return there without leaving your own home or job or everyday life? i'll bet you have and it feels good doesn't it.

Yes. many things gained there, have stayed with me here, now. Here are a couple:

1. Most things are trivial, yet people's minds make big deals about them and attach to them
2. No matter where you go, there you are, the same person.
3. Calmness & stillness in the midst of change, chaos, storms, etc
4. Like an Onion, I've peeled away quite a few layers off of myself, there in the solitude. This process has continued even after.
5. Constant self inventory/self reflection. Just checking on myself constantly to see what state im in.
6. THIS ONE, is probably the biggest. I've shed a ton of fear since then. Not sure if all of it is gone or not, bit I can muster up courage pretty much whenever. I dont really know if there is anymore fear.

gregorykennon
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thank you for showing this, i am going to try this myself but i will try and make the 40 days make it possible i may not be able to the first time but i will attempt this but i already see most of these things without having to do this so the entire 40 days will help me

I would recommend a number of good books on self-work, surrender, letting go, and stripping away many layers of the Onion that is yourself before you go.

If you already have a ton of realizations/insights/lessons that you have with you now, that's good. But that time in the wilderness will always teach, humble, strip you down no matter what you currently know. On the most instinctual level, there will be initial fear for a large portions of the time at night for the first few nights, which means you can examine, work with, and let go of it.

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How does this experience sound? I've felt the beauty of nature's rythm as well and seen through all the commercial ego idea bull #

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The experiment where an amoeba consistently finds the shortest way through a maze to a food source like the double slit experiment of quantum physics poses more questions than it answers if it answers any at all (perspective). From my experiences on different levels of consciousness starting on an atomic all the way up to universal and beyond I can tell you that everything possesses MIND and WILL. From an amoeba finding its way around a peatree dish to a star and any and all matter it all has a purpose driven desire and experiences the world around using whatever senses nature has endowed upon it while always seeking harmony and homeostasis.

Everything is relative, nothing in this universe exists in and of itself. The conscious desire of God was to have split his consciousness due to feeling lonely(notice ONE). On the highest plane of "existence" there is Christ consciousness which is observed as a sphere of pure white light and orbiting around it similarly to Saturn's rings are SHARDS (Like broken Glass) of pure energy light particles glowing and pulsing radiant energy same as the sphere. After transcending this plane there becomes nothing, one is all alone and in fact one doesn't even seem to exist as if there isn't even ONE. There is a deadness, a quiet like nothing you could imagine. Then, one's mental visions return suddenly, and reappear from nothing like a hologram in dead space and you then realize all of the universe is your projection, that everything that has ever happened to you that you willed it, asked for it, wanted it. That you create what you want to dream, that pain and sadness, joy and ecstasy keep you entertained. That you are eternal, infinite all knowing. And it feels amazing, you can move a star at will; make it zig zag blink at you whatever, change the colors of the street lights, set off every car alarm in the neighborhood with your mind, anything and its a pure state of joy and love. And it feels sad. Sad to know what you are, that you are alone, that this is just an illusion. And that you always will be.. forever and ever and there is no one to save you, no one can kill you and no one else is there to hear you. All there is, is you.

On the spirtual or mental plane( My ego is still young 23) I encountered an entity that many would call Satan. He was a sharp looking black man with a nice fade and short curly hair in a shimmering black old school gangster business suit a in a huge hall with a checker patterned black and white floor. He showed me my various existences in other worlds/universes. I had a feeling like I known him forever. A lot of this was filled with tragedy, close calls, and very emotionally strong experiences. He showed me all the riches I ever could dream of some of the most amazingly cool and beautiful things that far transcend all the riches of this world. We came at last to some golden gates. Everything in these scenes was more fiery, more intense and brighter than anything of this world. His eyes burned red with fire but i was not afraid of him at all. But at these gates which were to me the gates of heaven and I could see paradise within (which was empty fyi there wasn't anyone there) he said "WE HAD A DEAL." Then my visions instantly changed to scary things. Rag dolls that oozed black blood and primitive weapons like axes and dark lines crawling through my vision. I stopped wanting to see it and it went away and that is when I saw the Ginormous sphere of pulsing white light.

Interestingly enough when the devil was showing me visions I saw Chris brown as a half red REPTILIAN demon like entity (it was like i could see beneath his skin) as well as a few other actors that aren't famous enough for me to know their names. I also recall seeing a futuristic planet with huge skyscrapers like new york except they looked metallic and were different colors like blue and red and shaped kind of like space rockets. On this planet they had different alphabetical symbols on their ipad like devices but so much better, transforming flying cars that looked like the batmobile from the new movies, and tv screens that had nothing solid to them and seemed to hover in the air and unlike projection screens the picture didnt reflect off the wall. The image just stood by itself in thin air razor thin like you could walk around it or through it. The picture clarity of the movies was suuuuperb the sound was penetrating deep inside you like you were there when they filmed transformers.

And I saw the future developing through the many stages of cycles and each cycle spinning off another cycle from itself like an exponentially growing quadratic equation in patterns and revolutions however as different parallel universes. I saw evolution and technology continually advancing like this until everything reached an apex and at this point saw a golden flash appear off the apex of the cycle in my mind and then it was time for the cycle to finish its circular revolution and RETURN to where it all BEGAN. I saw where my location was in this cycle and it was near maybe about 15-20 degrees from the peak or apex of the cycle where the golden flash had occurred.


I also encountered another entity that looked kind of like a NORDIC HE MAN Super saiyan with bluish aura

Words, symbols, gender, masons, history, biology and the bible all came into clear focus.
I saw myself as a father disciplining a teenage son and giving advice (which is what im used to getting instead lol)
A troublemaker in some futuristic police state being desperately asked why I did something by a detective type who knew me personally. They had a room full of cameras video taping everything in the city and I had led police on a wild chase that ended up revealing a sick truth that they were actually leeches to society or something like that
A Paul Walker looking guy in a badass whip looking at myself on a sunny day along a strip with palm trees in the side view mirror smirking
and more

There was a background feeling that the older generations of people (or whatever race there's more than humans but they are similar) hold on to controlling things (like politics or businesses) for too long and in extreme fear of change instead of allowing succeeding generations to take over as if they're too scared to let that happen and it creates serious problems and unnecessary misery.

On different planes there are different forces. Duality is HUGE on this one like the serpent eating itself -vs +
I also noticed things become more complex/advanced to satisfy the desire for change, but also require more energy to sustain, and reminiscing being a simpler organism with simple desires is less intense and relaxing.
I can sometimes read people like a red blood cell recognizes a white blood cells function in the body and understand everything in their nature as it relates to their organic function

Most profound was my experience that I could be any creature, organism or the like at any point in time of the cyclic universe whenever i wanted like I could just leave this meat suit but I exactly where I wanted to be

bumping.

The flow seemed to keep stopping at the "I am" the corpse you left out there but hey as far as dead bodies go? It is turtles all the way down and all the way up in that grasping of intention. "I have obligations" to this government/coporate artifical scheme?

Really? When did this occur... when you were fed it and then grasped it? Those obligations were made your obligations in this whole let's pass this monpoly money around called anothers debt that can never be stopped in this slave holding system.

As said turtles all the way up and down... so who or what is walling this "self" in? Grasping.

Recall the flow... those "animals" showing up; were returning your spirit to your form over and over, first spiders as the weaving, then the bats that just hang out, then the animals that ate the way you ate. Then on return out of that Plato's cave? Here is the "Human" form you kept grasping at before you left, then here is a "friend" have a slice of life...

Well, when did you ever lose it?

Concider this koan: “The myriad things return to one: what does the one return to?” That one is awareness... the myraid of things is the senses that the one can be attached too carried off and called a self; but this self does not exist it is just an attachment that carries the so called "mind" off.

Where does this so called "mind" get carried off too? The storehouse of knowledge; called memory and concepts. So what grasps at those memories and concepts? The craving, the desire, the tastes...

Clear seeing is seeing things in their nature as they are. Who's nature is it to grasp? The mind taking concepts as knowledge as reality, as being.

This is just called simple awareness. Consciousness There is one for each of these: an eye, an ear, a nose, a taste, a smell, a touch, a mind, then leaping off... none of that is a self a being it just is.

Awareness of this? Guess.

strange replys of coarse he began to feel the world is artificial . It is one the day a man took two rocks hit them together to make a spearhead the art of things unnatural become .
Of corse if you got away from all the bussel you deflate .
I was homeless twice for years . And even now have to stop my self from just moving back to the woods .
Yea i wasn't a city hobo I stayed away from towns out in woods close enough to walk to a store .
Its the closest thing to being truly free you can get . You own no one nothing no one wants a thing to do with you so no pressure to conform to there ways of living .
Really miss it you have no clue what freedom is you say your free but live as a slave .
A slave to what others expect you to live as .A slave to what ever boss you have ( and no such thing as self employed btw your boss is just in a big white house in Washington go head you think your own boss short him his demands find out just how much your the boss .
Anyway its all fake of coarse no different then the green paper your so fond of .
On the day everyone decides that paper is just paper it will be because it is just paper .
Its a unnatural as it gets .
and yet you would demand thous who dont have it be forced to get it .

a reply to: midnightstar

How is banging two ricks together un-natural? It occurs in space all the time.

originally posted by: dominicus
I hugged the trees

Fail

I'm just a newbie here, having lurked for years and have my own experiences to share, perhaps more in the paranormal realm.

But OP, please do keep on posting stories like these without being too bogged down by the antagonists. There was plenty of information there of value for this mostly city-dweller that in no way inferred that you were "comparing yourself to Jesus". Nor do I feel the need to blurt out credentials in order to minimize another person's subjective experience.

Where is the MUTE button when you need one?

a reply to: dominicus