posted on Dec, 19 2012 @ 05:03 AM
I'll just state, first off I'm a Vet, so I'v faced the Threat, only it was a time of innocence, a time of upheaval, a time when many were
unaccustomed even the premise of War, but it was thrust upon us ...............
.....And now to Modern times. When you'd think all we had learned from the previous confrontations, one would hope it would temper our Lust for war.
Regardless the politics, there are those who will take up the banner for our country, and Bravely serve.
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There has been much planning on my Old Hometown for His return, there will be literally thousands lining the streets, of that you can be sure, even
amid the faltering economy there, even amid cultural tensions.
This is the Story of one such Man. His sacrifice..... Life Changing..
Support for Jordan Sisco · 2,467 like this
Yesterday at 2:19am ·
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Dec 17, 2012--
I apologize for being so late to post. You guys deserve to hear what is going on in my life. It has been quite a tough couple of weeks as of
late. I have been pushed mentally and physically. Ive had to deal with a lot of stupid people, and tried to keep my mouth shut...but that never works.
And Deal with the fact that I have been given this new life.
Lately, my doctors have been tapering me off medicine for the past week and a half and my God, does it suck. It has been so hard for me to move
around lately. Sometimes, I cant move 2 feet without throwing up. I get dizzy at times and feel like I am about to pass out, cry at random, and want
to throw things at people that don't deserve to be hit with anything. I don't need to explain the symptoms of withdrawals, because some of you can
imagine or some of you have experienced such a thing. However....a lot of you dont understand one thing: I was dependent on all these medications. I
was dependent on them, and they were killing me at the same time. And now that my body is forced to change, it doesnt like it..and it hurts. Hopefully
this will all be over with soon.
However there has been some good in all of this. I am finally being given the chance to go home back to Corona, CA for a little over two weeks.
I am stoked, and I can't wait to see friends and family. AND Last Friday I was able to get casted for my right leg! Although, they are shorter legs,
called "stubbies." They need me to master my balancing first, and its easier to do that when you are at the lowest possible to the ground. So I am
very excited to be able to stand. It doesn't sound like much of an achievement, however I have learned in the past and have been reminded, that it is
crucial to be appreciative of the little things in life. It's been so frustrating since I have moved to the barracks. I am trying to use my old life,
and fit in with the new. For example, when I get hungry, any normal person would go to the kitchen and open up the cupboard and grab a snack. Well, I
go to the kitchen, and I see the cupboard tower over me while I sit in my wheelchair with every emotion you could think of. So now I'm pissed,
because I have to get my dad or mom to help me. I'm a very independent person, and tend to keep to myself. So its hard for me to ask help at times.
I'm trying to do things on my own, and I cant.
When I was in Afghanistan, all I wanted to see was the new batman movie-The Dark Knight Rises. When I woke up in San Antonio, Texas in a
hospital. I had a poster of Batman in my room. I would stare at it every day while I lay in my bed. Every time I looked at it…knowing someway,
somehow, I was going to see it. And this past Sunday, was that day. And I loved the movie. I loved the message. I can't call myself batman, but there
was a certain person in the movie that tells him and asks him "Why do you protect these people that hate you and try to hurt you? Why do you do it?"
Well I won't ruin the movie for you. But I could relate to Batman. When I went to Iraq and to Afghanistan, I fought and a lot of other military
personnel fought, for their country. So both the people of Iraq and Afghanistan can have better lives. And you know what, they all hated us. I dealed
with this especially in Afghanistan. I lost my legs not for my country, but for someone else's country. I truly believe that. And I didn't sign up
for that. And hearing that quote in that movie made me have a flashback. I am no hero, however I can relate to Batman in that sense. I encourage all
of you to see this movie if you haven't.
It was a hard day for me yesterday. I was throwing up every ten seconds. I was crying to my psychologist because of what has been going on in my
life. I was freaking out and so fed up with why I was shaking. The withdrawals were at their worst today. Eventually I gave in, and took some pills to
prevent the nausea. The downside to taking this pill, is that I will go to sleep within at least 10 minutes or less. As my Dad was wheeling me to the
car, he mentioned that my Grandfather had passed away. I didn't know what to think. During the earlier part of my life me and my brothers never
really never talked to him. But as time progressed, all of us threw aside our differences, and became a family again. I started seeing him a lot when
I joined the Army. I felt I could connect with him more and understand a little bit of what he went through as a soldier in the Vietnam era. Whether
he went to Vietnam or not, doesn't really matter, he did his part. Now he was a doctor and he was one of the healthiest senior citizens I had ever
met. Every day he would walk the stairs up to his office. He would never take the elevator. He had a healthy diet, he traveled, etc. However he was
diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's Disease. I was told this when I was in Iraq, so I was already hot-headed then, and the news threw me over the edge. It's
the last thing I needed to hear about, nor worry. In case you don't know what LGD is, its a disease within your body that effects your motor skills
and will eventually kill you. You will slowly start losing function of your body.Theres two forms of LG's Disease. PLS and ALS. PLS or Primary
lateral sclerosis, is a slow acting form of LGD. ALS or Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, is a fast acting form of LGD and will kill you within the next
couple of years of being diagnosed with it. It is in my opinion one of the worst things to ever happen to you. When I came back from Iraq, he came to
Corona, CA and visited me. The first time I saw him since coming back from Iraq, I saw him walking around with a cane, and he was able to eat and talk
except he was to weak. Months passed and then I came down to Corona again and I saw him again. And then when I saw him, he was in a wheelchair this
time, and was only able to eat certain things. His throat was getting weaker, so it was very difficult to swallow food. Then the last time I saw
him,before I deployed to Afghanistan, he looked like death. He admitted that death would be an easier choice however he was going to fight death the
best he could. After lunch, he told me something. Something I will never forget. He looked me in the eye and said "Jordan, when my grandpa was in the
hospital and he was dying, he told me one thing. He said ""Sandy(My grandpa's name), it doesn't matter what happens in life. It doesn't matter
who you are, but something or someone is gonna kill you." And my grandpa stared into my eyes and said, "Jordan, I'm going to tell you the same
thing" my Grandpa told me. "Something or someone will kill you ...............