Originally posted by Ex_CT2
My head hurts, my feet stink, and I don't love Jesus. Does that count?
My wife always tells me I complain too much. I tell her she's wrong: Too many people, including her, don't complain enough. It's not healthy to NOT
complain....
Yours too? Guess I'm not alone.
I have something called borderline personality disorder and I often feel like crap. People on the internet piss me off but they're the only people I
get to talk to outside of school and aside from the professors, everyone hates me there... Probably because they're all socially conservative
Christians and I'm a socially liberal agnostic, and the nerds at school don't seem to like me because I'm a college student who has children and
listens to music like ICP and metal, even though I LOVE video games and EVERYTHING science and I'm actually an engineering major with a reasonably
high GPA ( especially for a high school dropout that waited 5 years before going to college... )
I weigh about 250 lbs now and though I'm a broad guy who isn't overweight at around 200 lbs at 5 foot 11, I'm about 50 lbs overweight right now and
feel like crap. My 5 foot tall 110 lbs wife keeps complaining about being fat ( not me, her, she keeps telling me that I'm not fat... so I'm married
to a chronic liar ) but she keeps bringing junk food and soda into the house when I already have a problem eating too much crap when I'm stressed out
( which is ALWAYS ).
I would exercise but I damn sure ain't walking around here, I live in a crappy poor people neighborhood where people like to literally throw things
out of their vehicle windows ( glass bottles mostly ) at me when I walk down the road, or shout rude things, and like I said, I have borderline
personality disorder, so I don't always think before I act when I feel threatened so I think it's wise just to try my best to avoid such situation
so that I don't punch an idiot in the face and go to jail.
I really would go to the gym/ track so that I could lose this weight ( I REALLY think that would make me feel a lot better ) but my car needs a $1400
( that I don't have ) fix before I can trust driving it any more than I absolutely have to. Speaking of my car... My insurance was actually due the
other day and I haven't paid it yet because they wanted over $900 for the bare minimum on a 98 POS Ford escort that needs a $1400 repair and I
couldn't sell the damn thing for what they want for 6 months of insurance... Oh and we still owe my wife's dad $2000 that he let us borrow to get
that car...
I live in a crappy apartment complex around A LOT of worthless POS drug addicts but it's the only thing we can afford. My fat POS neighbors who are
leeching of the government because they're too goddamn lazy to go to school or get a job b*t*ch, fight, and complain very loudly for the entire
neighborhood to hear... because I guess we all really give a flying f**k about their problems. Oh yeah and they have cars that are A LOT nicer than
mine because selling drugs brings in A LOT more money than being a full time student who builds/repairs/sells computers and repairs and mods video
game consoles for a living. And judging by how much fatter than me they are, I am assuming they get to eat A LOT more junk food than me too.
My apartment is way too small for what I pay and the recent next door neighbors ( who could at least learn English if they're gonna live here )
brought some pet roaches with them and we started to see A LOT of those damn things around the place within a month of them moving in next to us...
My wife and I both bust our @sses far too hard to put up with this sh*t but what choice do we have? We really don't like that our kids have to grow
up in this hell hole, especially when were college students who outperform the "average" middle class offspring, her GPA is 3.8 and mine is 3.4 but
I'm pretty sure I'll be bringing it back up to my goal- 3.5 before I graduate ) I found Japanese to be a tough language and an F in that second
level class wasn't good for my GPA
Speaking of that... I can't retake that class til the second semester next school year, so I wont be
replacing that F on my GPA for a while, which really bugs me.
So yeah... As I was saying. We hate that our children have to be raised here when my wife and I are both MUCH more responsible than the majority of
the scum around here who act weird towards us because we don't want anything to do with any of them so we stay to ourselves rather than getting
involved with any of this crap, MUCH more intelligent than them, and MUCH better people than them. And it sucks to have your child beg to go outside
to play with other kids and not be able to explain to him in a way that he will understand, why you don't want him playing with those kids.
I'm running out of space and still need to go to Wal Mart which I hope is open to get some crap my wife wanted me to pick up but then I'll be p*ss*d
that they're making ppl wor