posted on Oct, 19 2004 @ 01:12 PM
i feel like i am kinda free from the system... and i feel that the law is always on my case because of it.( for #ed up reasons that started long ago
possible connection??) and i have guns around my house incase of intrusion...i feel like some people around me are a lil nuts, n a way that i look at
em and think how the heck can they even think that way?? i have dreams of some crazy a** stuff, in some cases my dreams let me know lil things that
are coming up... for example:
i had a dream i was standing infront of my house on the sidewalk, i was juss standing there when i looked over and seen my grandmother walking from
her house to mine,(she only lives 5 houses down) she came up to me looking healthy and young. she started hugging me and telling me she was going away
because she was sick and needed healing. i remember tears and feeling sad. but she said she would be back. then i woke up.
the next day i didnt figure much about the dream, untill i was standing outside, ok this is the next day and im awake here, this # freaked me
out....im standing outside on my sidewalk in front of my house talking to a friend from down the street. when i turn to my right and here comes my
brother n law helping my grandma walk down to my house. ok it still didnt hit me yet, untill she gave me a hug and she couldnt talk she had started
crying when hugging me, at this time my brother n law started telling me she was going to a home/hospital to get better. and that she would be back if
she got well enough to come home...it all hit me asoon as i walked back in my house..it hit me even more when she came back home a couple months
later, as she said she would in my dream.(she only came home for a few weeks before she went back in and died a few months later).
weird huh? i wish i could control it to where i could tell the real dreams from the fake dreams?? some dreams i have are juss outlandish and could
never happen i dont think.... but some dreams i have i never know are true untill it happens..mostly lil things.. but i truely think some of my
dreams are trying to tell the future....like dreams of war and weather destruction!
anyway back to the point, whatever the system is, i have some sort of feeling for it, and lil things here n there catch my attention to it.. hell
maybe im linked juss like everyone else, and can never get out, who knows?? all i know is i feel like im sane and lots of people around me are
helpless to there thought of lies & insanity...