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Originally posted by psyko4570
reply to post by Dragonskrye
Well, you fooled me. And I dont mind. Welcome fellow criminal. Question though. When a ville was naped and innocents died, how did you compare that to a rougue soldier butchering innocents up close and personal? Was there a difference to you? Pervertedly there is to me. An airstrike seems 'humane' if there is such a thing. Thats how i know I am screwed in life and do not deserve the wonderful things i experience daily. How can I condem one and not the other? I do and always will condem the rougue butcher. But How can I do that? And be justified? Im no judge. Or is that just another one of the morals sacrificed by men and women of war?
Originally posted by Dragonskrye
Originally posted by psyko4570
reply to post by Dragonskrye
Well, you fooled me. And I dont mind. Welcome fellow criminal. Question though. When a ville was naped and innocents died, how did you compare that to a rougue soldier butchering innocents up close and personal? Was there a difference to you? Pervertedly there is to me. An airstrike seems 'humane' if there is such a thing. Thats how i know I am screwed in life and do not deserve the wonderful things i experience daily. How can I condem one and not the other? I do and always will condem the rougue butcher. But How can I do that? And be justified? Im no judge. Or is that just another one of the morals sacrificed by men and women of war?
You have touched something I've spent years looking at and spent two long term inpatient PTSDT (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Treatment) sessions in a VA facility working through. At the moment of the events, I was able to justify my behavior, any behavior, and actions with no difficulty. It was while laying in a hospital out of Viet Nam for four months, that I began to question my personal actions, and felt that I had let loose a monster that, in some ways, enjoyed what was done and that monster scared me. You ask me to compare my experience to that of the pilot who "dropped ordnance" and I cannot because any comparison would be filtered through my life experiences.
From my experience, to those in the 'ville' the source of the carnage does not change their personal response. To me, nothing about war is "humane".
I will suggest you seek counseling through a VA facility (I know that takes a long time to work through their bureaucracy) or private counseling