no compassion, no soul, nothing, just void containers for the evil

After my brother's death, I had to spend some years at home, helping my mother to recover from the trauma. We were coming trough with some translation work (I have a good command of German) and loans. After that, I could find a job. That was not by chance, I got this job with the help of one of my former lecturers and a colleague from my studies. Everything seemed ok, I drove to the interview and finally got the job. It was a good job, as a design engineer for car harnesses. So far, so good, but after some time I began to miss my home town and my former way of living - before I wouldn't have to work in such a regular environment, I was organizing my work more in a free manner. I was getting more and more uncomfortable, so after some time I quit the job and drove back home.

Now, back home, I began to feel guilt because of that decision and became quite obsessed with finding a job. I felt really ashamed and like having to compensate for that first job. So, after some months I got a new job, in a rural area (small village), in a door factory. The surrounding was very beautiful, foothills with forests and so on. So, this time, I began to have this doubts again, because it was at a village - what could I do there, I was all alone there and so on. I drove to my home town for a feast, and there it began - voices were saying things like "Dig yourself a grave", "Someone gonna die", "Oh my god, why is it him?". I became really frightened and quit the job, because it all began at this village (at least I thought so).

After coming back to my home town, the voices begun to be really aggressive, saying "He has no rights anymore", "Kill yourself" and so on. They just wanted me dead. They tormented me for two weeks, night and day, I couldn't get hardly a sleep, it was a horror. My mother was just looking, as if everything were alright with me. After some time, I couldn't make it any more and got to the hospital. There were this two guys, who wanted me to begin believing in god, they were sometimes aggressive and sometimes nice, basically they played the good-bad cop game. One time, one of them smoked some nasty stuff and blowed the smoke in my direction - I felt dizzy and like being a subject to black magic.

I must say, that before I got the second job, I had that dream: a guy looking like a gypsy (long coat, hat) took my salary and gave me some small money instead, then he showed me a black card.

So, after I got out of the hospital, I was relaxing some time at home. After half a year I found a new job. That was the direct hit - I think, there I met the guy with the black card and his colleges. The guy was very aggressive towards me, he actually played god, like he wanted to have absolute power over me. He and his colleague were constantly on me, they were bullying me all the time. He said something like that: "I have played with you like with a mouse" and other things, that would make everyone a little scared. His colleague showed the cut-the-throat gesture to me, he was quite a pain, too. Even people from neighboring rooms were active, they were saying things like "He already is at shooting range". One time I was at a choir concert in a church, the guy was there too, going by he looked at me like "You have nothing to do at this place, that's my place". This nut was playing god!

After almost two years of the ordeal, constant arguments and almost-fights, I couldn't stand it any more and got into a serious argument with the %$#@, which resulted in firing me from the place of work. It is strange, that the head of the office reacted first at this time, before he "couldn't see" what was going on or belittled it - anyway, the just was always on their side, no matter what they were doing.

So, again, I came back home, with some knowledge of what was really going on. This "people" were thinking they were some sort of god here and could do anything they desire to, snatching ones soul included. They were incredibly arrogant and were treating me as their property, to whom they could everything.

I sat some time at home, but something began to change - the people I met on the street and in shops became increasingly aggressive towards me, like I was some human being of inferior type. I think, they were surrounding me and wanted me to feel more and more terrorized, in order to make way for the soul snatcher.

Now I have a new work, I am on probation time. It is not in my home town. Now "they" openly manifest themselves, at the place of work and outside, too. They look at me like I was an animal and they were the owners, they don't want me to evolve and to feel e.g. pride of doing my work good. Repeatedly "they" wanted me to believe they are reptilians, one time I was ski-walking and a girl walked by licking the tongue with an angry facial expression. The tongue thing happened to me more times, the last time I was to Berlin, so they aren't hiding from me or want me to believe they are reptilians. You wouldn't believe, but they know of my every thought and my whole life. E.g. if I say the word "door", they laugh at me in a derisive way and make some comments. At the present place of work, this "people" are not so aggressive, but more sophisticated. One of them is constantly talking about god and making order, very philosophic being I must apologize, but "they" are very into the asshole, they make constantly jokes about it and have a good fun doing that. They smell horrible from the mouth, an incredible smell, it's like a latrine, almost causing vomits. They even have a calendar with an atomic bomb hanging on the wall! To say it short, this beings are incredible evil and have no emotions, only basing upon cold reasoning, no heart, no compassion, no soul, nothing, just void containers for the evil.

I think, that they want to fire me after the three months of probation. That is, because they want to apply trauma-based mind control on me - after I come back again after loosing a job, they would want to stalk on me until I break down. I think, I can make it, but it will be a tough fight.

Please don't take this as an insult, but your post screams 'mental illness'. Perhaps you should see a real doctor (not two religious nuts in a hospital).

As a former social worker and a person that has lived with a mental illness for 34 years, I have to say I agree with XeroOne. You really should see a psychiatrist. Wish you the best.

I'm not saying evil doesn't exist or anything you are experiencing isn't happening but have you given thought that you may be experiencing the effects of a brain tumor? Your visual, auditory and smell interactions could be also explained by such. To you it is real because your brain interprets it as such.

Originally posted by sad_eyed_lady


As a former social worker and a person that has lived with a mental illness for 34 years, I have to say I agree with XeroOne. You really should see a psychiatrist. Wish you the best.

edit on 7/23/2012 by sad_eyed_lady because: spelling

I completly agree. No insult in anyway shape or form. But it does sound like paranoid delisions (on the surface). And it would be awesome if you popped by a reputable psychologist (or your GP for a referral).

Good luck with it all.

We are making our own karma
did you ever sold your soul to the devil
or did any big mistake when you were young ?
you have big negativity in you ?

if not then both side are battling for your soul
dont be deceive by evil .. they are testing to see if you will fall in the trap
trust your guts because 2012 is the tipping point
you must choose who you are NOW

that was my 2 cents
thanks for sharing op

If you had a digital recorder and carried it in a pocket, you could record what these people are saying.. This could really help show people what is happening..

Originally posted by alienreality
If you had a digital recorder and carried it in a pocket, you could record what these people are saying.. This could really help show people what is happening..

That would have been quite entertaining as well, watching a bloke with psychotic delusions and religious manias muttering to himself.

Originally posted by XeroOne

Originally posted by alienreality
If you had a digital recorder and carried it in a pocket, you could record what these people are saying.. This could really help show people what is happening..

That would have been quite entertaining as well, watching a bloke with psychotic delusions and religious manias muttering to himself.

speak for yourself
i find your delusions of omniscience to be ridiculous in the extreme

especially the online diagnosis shctick you and some other folks have going

reply to post by Enderman


i, for one, believe your story

But i think that there is an 'entity ' like " hoovering above you " , which is making you to see the things in the way you described.
And it seems that this entity came to you, when you first started to hear those voices.

It may happen, that there was a entity connected to other members of your family - especially through older generations before you. Many times, these entities ' jump ' onto those of the next generation - you mentioned your brother died -

...and up to that; yes it can be, that this entity is ' steering you ' to meet certain people - people, who are álso under an entity. Something like ' the rulers of the host bring their hosts together '

Im sorry if it sounds a bit cold, or nasty - i dont mean it that way.
Sadly, the above - the dynamics of entities and their hosts - are true.

but yes fact is, that this entity will Isolate you, isolate you from other people who might share with you some sanity or truths still, isolate you - to try destruct you.
'They ' always follow that pattern.

This is the reason why i believe your story...see. Because i do feel, you fight.

Forget what everyone tells you about the Bible - or the false prejudices about it -
just read it, and ask Him to show what is going on.

Promise ?

I'm going to assume from you OP, that when you stated you went to the hospital, they likely cleared you from the common maladies denoted to explain away such experiences.

As to the more senior members on this site, they feel entitled and often it is more about the pecking or pack order. Many responses have little to do with actually contemplating your situation, and more to do with impressing one another. Gotta love clicks, huh? Don't be discouraged - just recognize it for what it is. Opinions.

Spirits and ghosts and often many elemental forces are usually attached to the land it originated in/with. I don't think this is what you are dealing with.

Demonic influences not housed in a human body, would be directly attached to you, and can follow you. However, some of the more trademark signs of demonic haunting, which usually happens in the house, your family is often a target and will recognize it and often are terrorized by it also. I'm not so sure that fits either.

What I do think may be happening is psychic vampirism. Which are humans, often run amok with their occult research. So I have a few questions for you. Ever studied the occult and metaphysical in a group? Are you enemies with anyone you know to be involved with the occult and metaphysical?

Well, anyhow. I can give you advice. Bind the SOB's. A simple binding prayer given to us by way of the bible, is the Lord's Prayer. That's a quick, immediate need to repel negativity. If you don't already know it, well, why not? It's rather a beautiful bit of script and it is a protection chant. I'd learn it, and not be afraid to use it.

A simple binding prayer - to be said before you start the day...

"Father God, I thank you for sending your Son Jesus to die for me, and resurrecting him to sit at your right hand in Heaven right now. I thank you for bestowing upon Him all power and authority over evil. In the name of Jesus Christ, I speak to any evil spirits, especially spirits of ___________ (fill in the blank), I bind you from attacking me now and throughout this day. Leave me now and go straight to Jesus Christ who will deal with you. I am covered and protected by the blood of Jesus Christ. Amen."

If your not in par with Christianity, don't worry - all religions have binding prayers. Or spells, or scripture, or whatever it is you wish to label it. It's a simple google search away from your finger tips. It is where I would start. I wouldn't wait. Take back control - it is your life - not anyone elses.

Good luck and Blessings
Cirque

Hi OP,

I have worked in mental health services and psychology for well over ten years and what you are describing are classic symptoms of paranoid schizophrenia... I know that sounds like a scary label but it really isn't, it doesn't mean you're bad or dangerous or anything, it's just a name for something so that doctors and others can understand broadly what is going on, it's like saying a person has diabetes or asthma or something. Things like causes etc can vary from person to person but the name is there to guide the kind of help you receive. Please don't take this the wrong way, I am not doubting your experiences or that you have experienced the things you are expressing, only that the explanation is one that is well documented, widespread and, best of all, treatable. I urge you to see your local GP as soon as you can, tell them what you have said here, don't be afraid or worry that people won't believe you or will judge you harshly. Your GP will have some understanding of the experiences you describe and will be able to refer you to some specialist practitioners who can give you the help you need to deal with the things you are going through. You're not alone in this experience, I currently work with several people with similar experiences to you and have worked with probably hundreds over the years, and there are plenty of people that want to help, you just have to speak out and let people know how you're feeling.. If you want any more info let me know, I can provide you with all kinds of information and can probably answer any questions you might have. However, this is no substitute for speaking with your doctor, I urge you to do so as soon as you can...

Good luck and take care.. Let us know how you're getting on....

Originally posted by DerepentLEstranger

Originally posted by XeroOne

Originally posted by alienreality
If you had a digital recorder and carried it in a pocket, you could record what these people are saying.. This could really help show people what is happening..

That would have been quite entertaining as well, watching a bloke with psychotic delusions and religious manias muttering to himself.

speak for yourself
i find your delusions of omniscience to be ridiculous in the extreme

especially the online diagnosis shctick you and some other folks have going

Delusions of omniscience? Please explain.

I haven't given any diagnosis, except for pointing out the obvious - something's definitely wrong with the dude, and he/she really should see a doctor.

Face it - voices telling him to do stuff, irrational religious delusions, and the loss of more than one job because of it. I've seen a few lives go to the wall that way. The dude needs professional help, not more people feeding those delusions.

reply to post by Enderman


If you don't mind can you tell us what the doctors diagnosed you with at the hospital, what they did for you, and how long were you there for? I think this will give people a better understanding of things.

I know exactly what you're talking about. The division between good and evil is becoming more & more apparent by the day. Whenever I go in public I also get the same type of treatment. In the past few weeks.. one person has bumped into my shoulder purposely, one person spat at me outside of a bank, a teenage girl "hissed" at me with prosthetic vampire teeth at the mall (they looked hella real tho), and numerous others have been shooting these weird hand signals at me. Feels like black magic or curses they're trying to conjure up.

Really weird stuff going on lately.