who I am

Hi guys im Jo

I'm a 21 year old almost 22 now and I live in the Netherlands, I always had the feeling something is odd in this world I am a man with great fantasies and im to lazy to do spellchek so sry for the spelling Im not that good with English. anyway since I was a litle kid I had lots of lucid dreams and visions and I still have, this has pushed me into a way to see wats going on. I wish I was normal people other teenagers I wish I had a normal life I got bullied as well sux man^^ im fine now well healthy as I can be and supersexy but I feel empty I feel depressed and I had it all my life. I always tried to become a great man and 1 day I saw the opportunity I tried it and I am still on my way was blocked I saw even the devil to try me get to his side but a good person I am. im in love now and I have a good job I want to marry the women I love and have a happy life. but I noticed to love or to follow my dream I guess I failed at following my dream or maybe 1 day it will be in my grasp again the thing is it sounds so simple but its not. I worked really hard and studied because of it. I knew there is truth out there and to get to it I had to work hard and I think I failed at working towards it or maybe I dint get the support. just want a happy life with the women I love. I may sound like a nut job I mean I cant believe im typing what I'm typing right now but I am. there is so much out there and I saw it with my own eyes the darkness in this world the evil that surrounds us and binds us. I only feel hatred towards it and I would be ruthless if I get the opportunity to strike down the people who cause the suffering on this planet.

I am raised Muslim my family is Muslim

anyway I had a great depression when I was 16 and lost my faith in all religion and everything I learned that most of it was lies and that most of the people who call themselves religious don't even know what there religion is about may sound normal teenager stuff probaly is lots of peeps have it I guess anyway lost my will in everything I had when I was 16 I had determination to become something I wanted to try things out and learn yet my life was blocked by my parents or maybe I was just stupid I dint had anyone dint see anyone don had friends not a social person. people take advantage of gentle people kinda sux. I lost a part in myself I.
didnt see anyone doing anything I guess nobody tried to become something nobody tried to be good it was all about money get your life started I had a troublesome life when I was a kid and I still have maybe but I still try to be good and yet I have this emptiness hatred towards the system we live in. I just do what I have to do so I wont hurt my parents I go to work because I love and to be together with my girlfriend. that's the only reasons I have and I know that I have been given the opportunity to change the world and I still feel I can do it but as time passes by like the sand on a shore my dreams slip away. and who am I without my dreams^^

anyway this website looks awesome lots of information and probably kind people who try to spread the word looking forward spending time on the forum. maybe I'll learn something while having fun.

I just had to write this man kinda feels good to get it out^^

I realized the things I typed is so stupid but I'm going to do it anyway.

May I be the first to Officially Welcome you to the "Nut House"!

Welcome aboad Squire.

reply to post by Just Chris


tnx happy to be here

Welcome to the looney bin.

Welcome Padisah/Jo Hope you find what you are looking for See you out there on the boards!

Welcome!
A mod will visit shortly and provide you with a member packet.
Your English is very good and easy to understand.
Jump in and post away. After 20 posts you may start your own threads.

reply to post by Padisah


Welcome. Hope you like our quixotic group, its interesting to say the least and most you may find are reasonably rational. Oh you may not agree with everyone (you would be a little to weird, I prefer the term gullible if you did). But all opinions if decent and not vulgar or just insults directed at others are welcome here. I will bitch about things and points of view that I find way off, but I try to be polite and do try to respect the ideas and opinions of others, even if a few have no idea about what there talking about.

As for your depression earlier in life if that returns do seek help, there is a lot out there. We all go through periods of disillusionment be it with religion, or any aspect of life. Not to worry to much. Shows your thinking and reviewing aspects of your life many don't have the courage to do. All the best.

He landgenoot welkom, laat je niet gek maken hier !
Don't let anybody drive you mad !

reply to post by Padisah

Welkom bij ATS. Heb je koekjes bij je? Tis wel een beetje verplicht als inwoner van Nederland he?
(Welcome. Did you bring cookies. It is kinda customary as a resident of Holland)

I don't like Dutch cookies, in fact I'll even go so far to say they suck worse than the cheese here but opinions vary. Be welcome and see you around.

reply to post by Padisah


Welcome to ATS...nice introduction you posted. I can tell it took a lot out of you.

You might find you are not as alone as you think here. We are a varied gathering of kindred souls, you'll fit in nicely....


Hope you find what you are looking for. You haven't lost your dreams, you are just growing into them..time is on your side....

Des

Welcome to ATS... no worries for all you wrote. You did need to get it out and Im glad you did. (((HUGS)))

As for the evil people.... they will get it done to them sooner than later.... so no worries there.

Be happy... smile... its a choice. Even in the darkest of storms you can find light if you look hard enough.

Welcome to the brotherhood.

thank you guys for welcoming me.

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