Posting this here as figure It'd be moved to Gray Area or Skunkworks.

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Oh right I see your sig.. very funny

I know what your saying about the mind set I can observe it and I can even switch of thoughts if I have to, I am actually in a state of meditation all the time and you probably know what I mean by this -- super-conscious no subconsciousness or consciousness but all layers and modes of consciousness happening simultaneously... I experiences synaesthesia all the time.. hear colours see sounds...of coarse the overlapping senses are not emphasised more than the primary sense but its there more or less all the time to some degree... it comes in waves as the cycle of the day rides on.

its not so much the mindset but the associations, and where that leads a sensitive state of being, for instance most people now-days of my generation are steeped in allot of crude innuendo and that's just not a nice place to have ones awareness taken when you experience holographic imprints of any suggested notion. I quite the mind when I find that im getting stressed i can do it almost always on command within 20 seconds.. I can get into a "sleep" trance day-dream for about 20 mins and focus on anything that makes me feel pleasant...

during proper sleep state (not meditative) I do have some dreams where these daily mental issues are present, but most dreams the issues don't exist at all... so i am left to conclude that they are a bi product of this waking world and not something that originates from choices of my own accord (in other words its not the typical Karma that people think of -- there's allot that I have experiences to confirm this for me)

Some techniques that I use to help silence the mind is to try not to speak/think and or write on web pages with first person terms like I, me, mine etc. to think of ones thoughts as unique perspective of a collective train shared by the world which does not actually belong to anyone but uses every bodies tracks... It enables one to de-personify the content...

And yet I still have issues that most cannot even begin to comprehend which are due to association not beliefs -- not saying I never had issues due to beliefs but beliefs I had have been weeded out now.
I can see a pattern occur that is a bi product of an old belief but I don't actually believe it any-more... get my drift? its just residual stuff like "oh yeh that, (remember that I don't want to remember that) it passes with a bit of focus on letting go...and it is literally letting go, thoughts are a tangible process for me, so a thought can actually feel like a hand (metaphorically) clasping at something (a topic) and letting go is like a feeling of the head-room (and its sometimes beyond my head) that it occupies as information dissolving into little specks... A better way to put it is that awareness can be like a container and catches all sorts of stuff that might be projected by others...The trik is knowing that it doesnt belong to any of us as individuals

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I agree with you
and i desire to do all these things, but there are some things that must be delt with before I can actually do those things...

All accept eat well because that something that is different for all people, I remember I tried so hard to eat well and I ended up with stomach issues and paranoia of what i was putting in my mouth... it started with the car accident tho my liver was lacerated by about an inch long and cm deep at first... and the more I tried to eat "well" the worse it got because I was stressing ,,, they said to not eat much sugar so i didn't...guess what now I live on sugar (not completely) but most food i eat is sweet my metabolism is inverted compared top most a small bit of sugar goes a long way and allot of savoury makes my gut grumble...

And this is actually where most of the original association's issues occurred because I had people judging my change in diet and projecting their own ideals and assumptions regarding health toward me like "what you eat 3 times much sweet than savoury are you crazy you'll die" well Im still here no fillings and I haven't been to a dentist or had a tooth ache in over 10 years ..my accident was 6 years ago.. but for some reason people are just envious when you can eat all the "crap" you like and not have any adverse affects (due to it)... I will say tho that its to do with kundalini... or whatever you want to call it...

sugar is a crystal so what you put in you get out (irrespective of the mental problems) my core intent is resonant with crystals... So i tend to get along with them well. Its sad because most restaurants or hosts to a house will expect one to fit in with the norm of diet etc. Its amazing how much people are steeped in a rigid mind set where food of all things is the most controversial topic that can spark a debate... I even had moments where the anger and resentment of others caused my changed diet to create stomach issues as well simply because I felt interrogated and enveloped by the projected venom (be it intentional or not )... I do get some minor skin conditions due to sugar like eczema but only if I eat it without giving gratitude first.