My impression of the gunshot could be related to Kundalini,? I guess you're familiar with it ..
I came to this thread through your (OP's) note on a Charles Darwin thread in regard to you considering Darwin was Pyroluric! I've read a bit about
this recently yet think I may under-methylate in my brain chemistry that has lead to Psychiatric interventions.....
I relate to your experience as have had anxiety or vivid symbolism of death, i had once interpreted as my own demise but days later found out my 1st
cousin had committed suicide and bereavement led to sleep-deprivation over indulging in my university study, against the paradigm... It was a rare
experience with death symbolism and anxiety panic....
I recently mis-interpreted panic for an imagined scenario of my ex-girlfriend in danger based on internalized fantasy around her abuse of road rules
when she suits. I thought there was going to be an accident she was involved in (I taught her to drive when she got her Probationary license in her
late 20's)... I even called '000' in australia when overcome by a sense of dread that something terrible was going to happen.... So I got in trouble,
wasn't sleeping... wound up having the cops come around to get me to get a psychiatric assessment..the drugs distorted my sensitivity and spiritual
truth etc, messages (aka voices grr), self awareness, understanding my psychic experiences. ... la la.. yeah ..so
Came to the conclusion it related to an incident in my sub-conscious about a time almost 10yrs earlier when I was a passenger of a car driven by a
drunk probationary license driver on a country highway, tail gated a caravan and attempted to pass with an oncoming truck...... I took the wheel just
before the truck plowed into us, cut off the caravan and car which jack-knifed and plowed straight into the truck.... Killed everyone and we recovered
from the skid when I gave the control back to the drunk driver and drove off..! (I guess I still have bad feelings about this, nobody knows about
it!... interesting though a book of ancient text appeared in the back seat, turned it down after they suggested I was inclined to like things like
that, would like to know how to get my hands on in wondering what significance it has to a car full of workers avoiding certain death by a few
centimeters and the death of those in the other vehicle)..
This was implanted in my memory yet had no recollection of it almost instantly (only to remember it with a rush of emotions and anxiety which
misinterpreted as linking to an accident with my ex),--- Back in time, the incident was covered up (driver only got a broken tail light) and I was
later was a victim of Psychiatry that neither I or them were aware of the psychological trauma(although I admit was relatively minor compared to PTS
disorder of war verterans) that had happ-ened....
I mean more recently this in my sub-consciousness initiated panic attacks and anxiety and feelings of dread yet it was related to my ex-girlfriend or
family, I felt like something really bad was going to happen or it was my fault, or karmically from bad breakup with my ex the was pushed over the
edge from a traffic incident when I was responsible for her since she was a learner, so we broke up among other on-going issues, never talked since,
left me homeless basically but had a rich uncle with a spare house by the beach and she was jealous, so I had lots of resentments...
Good that you can find some peace with your ex-girlfriend and remain friends , even if it took a psychic experience to initiate you intervention that
she may be in danger...
Hope my story was ok, I can relate to vivid psychic experience, that I'm under the conclusion can be from a dark source fallen angel or such.... and
can relate since your concern was justified once, gives it more credibility (maybe your will for not wanting the premonition to come true, maybe you
did all you could and it helped even on an astral level---- In my case it only fed a delusion, since I didn;t understand what the panic really meant
and was receiving all sorts of delusion)
you are doing well to stay on top of your emotions and sound mind with it
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