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Originally posted by eeks4
So i kept hearing that im suffering for Christ...The suffering doesnt end...
Originally posted by eeks4
I have been fighting for about 5 years now for my life...I have seen the devil and his rim and many demons and aliens as well..This stared 5 years ago when i was anointed by the holy spirit...The Holy spirit carried me threw all the mind games and war..The devil ;and his rim came about 2 years ago and so did god...It is written that God will turn bad things to good..So i kept hearing that im suffering for Christ...The suffering doesnt end...Im about to giver up on God at this point know matter how much I love him...
God made the devil leave but didn't make the one i have been fighting for 5 years leave...Well i figured that was because if i went to the devil i would go straight to hell and with this spirit the suffering can continue and i wouldn't go to hell...I guess...Well the devil left and the spirit that I have been fighting with for 5 years is still here......I have written psalms and have rejoice threw this madness praising god the whole time but now im just beaten to a pulp and can barely pray...
Im lucky if i get to pray for 2 hours for the whole day...My bible just got thrown and ripped up last night by my own hands due to evil...The spiritual pelting s are unbearable and im always in pain...I know god has my life in his hands or i would be dead at this point..I have even prayed to die..No one will kill me and i cant die nor live at this point....
Now i feel like god has let me go threw this alone and no prayers are being answered at this point...I have been suffering for a total of 5 years,,why would God allow this to keep going and not help me..I feel like killing my self at times and going to the devil for help..But i love ;my god so so much i just wish he would help me....Why is this not stopping????
Originally posted by Frira
Originally posted by eeks4
So i kept hearing that im suffering for Christ...The suffering doesnt end...
Correct. Suffering rarely does end in this life for... the best ones.
I have already seen good replies to you, and really just want to underscore.
* Endure.
* May God's peace (not the world's peace) be with you.
* You are not alone. Rare, but not alone. You'll find that rarity is precious when you see it in others who are like you.
Christ said to Pilate, "My kingdom is not of this world." So, it seems you are not home- but a stranger in a strange land.
*****
Tricks I use when endurance seems thin and pain is great: I read very good books (great novels, poetry, etc.), I watch movies which tell important stories; I carve wood (other draw, paint, build, etc.); I get outside among nature (sounds hippy-ish-- but being around trees, birds, water and such helps), find a few people who-- like you-- "get it" (they are rare) and make sure you are around them at least once a week.
You know, I have heard it expressed many ways, but I explain it this way: A few people have looked into the abyss and not flinched and not looked away-- they see the horror and the pain. They know more, feel more, and it sets them apart. But because of it-- find they live more.
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Stuff those who haven't lived it say that does NOT help (but they mean well):
* "That which doesn't kill you makes you stronger." (No it doesn't, it makes you crippled.)
* "God will make it right." (Yes-- but not in this life.)
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Things that are true that hardly anyone says:
* This world is full of evil and for those who see it and know it-- life is painful, but more meaningful and purposeful-- and others find you behaving in extraordinary ways.
* The world has virtually no justice, but those who know that are the most just.
And most of all, someone needs to say to you, and often: "You do not deserve this! God knows you do not deserve this. It is WRONG that it is happening to you!"
I would add that I am sorry it is happening to you. On the other hand-- it has happened to all of my favorite people.edit on 22-11-2011 by Frira because: (no reason given)edit on 22-11-2011 by Frira because: i'm tired, lots of typos, fixed i think
Originally posted by DelayedChristmas
this is a cross for you to carry... i know you will not turn your back because you are a witness and partaker in the holy spirit.. you WILL endure and defeat the enemy...
put on the whole armor of God while you pray and for anything else throughout the day... it will really help in this spiritual warfare
Originally posted by eeks4
Originally posted by DelayedChristmas
this is a cross for you to carry... i know you will not turn your back because you are a witness and partaker in the holy spirit.. you WILL endure and defeat the enemy...
put on the whole armor of God while you pray and for anything else throughout the day... it will really help in this spiritual warfare
Thank you..I have the whole armor of God on...Some spirits the rebuking in Jesus holy mane or the blood does not work...Don't know what kind of spirit this is??I do know that it cant stand when i pray..Its OK kind of to listen to the word of god but not to pray...I cant beat it...Its so juvenile(acts like a child..A bad one)..I think im suffering for christ but not to sure.
For 2 week on the TV ministries ever other day i herd about the suffering of Christ.....I herd about 2 months ago in mass at church that god is getting all of my tears that i cry..cant quite remember how it was said....LOL
Originally posted by eeks4
Originally posted by DelayedChristmas
this is a cross for you to carry... i know you will not turn your back because you are a witness and partaker in the holy spirit.. you WILL endure and defeat the enemy...
put on the whole armor of God while you pray and for anything else throughout the day... it will really help in this spiritual warfare
Thank you..I have the whole armor of God on...Some spirits the rebuking in Jesus holy mane or the blood does not work...Don't know what kind of spirit this is??I do know that it cant stand when i pray..Its OK kind of to listen to the word of god but not to pray...I cant beat it...Its so juvenile(acts like a child..A bad one)..I think im suffering for christ but not to sure.
For 2 week on the TV ministries ever other day i herd about the suffering of Christ.....I herd about 2 months ago in mass at church that god is getting all of my tears that i cry..cant quite remember how it was said....LOL
Originally posted by NOTurTypical
Originally posted by eeks4
Originally posted by DelayedChristmas
this is a cross for you to carry... i know you will not turn your back because you are a witness and partaker in the holy spirit.. you WILL endure and defeat the enemy...
put on the whole armor of God while you pray and for anything else throughout the day... it will really help in this spiritual warfare
Thank you..I have the whole armor of God on...Some spirits the rebuking in Jesus holy mane or the blood does not work...Don't know what kind of spirit this is??I do know that it cant stand when i pray..Its OK kind of to listen to the word of god but not to pray...I cant beat it...Its so juvenile(acts like a child..A bad one)..I think im suffering for christ but not to sure.
For 2 week on the TV ministries ever other day i herd about the suffering of Christ.....I herd about 2 months ago in mass at church that god is getting all of my tears that i cry..cant quite remember how it was said....LOL
Remember what Christ said, some spirits are so evil and strong that the only way to cast them out is with fasting and prayer. Even the apostles encountered demonic forces they could not cast out.