posted on Sep, 19 2011 @ 01:19 PM
reply to post by Serizawa
Yeah, thanks for pointing out this thread to me. It's definitely along the lines of what I have every single night all night long.
As I mentioned in a different post - I used to have nightmares all night long for 6 years straight. To the point where I hated going to bed. I
changed everything in my life...from diet, exercise, jobs, stress, religion, even sleep habits (going from normal to nocturnal)... nothing helped
them... until the day I decided to get a divorce. I wasn't in a horrible relationship by any means... and I'm not going to go into why I got a
divorce, but I can't deny my subconscious. Well.. the nightmares have come back.
And again, I'm in a place in my relationship where I need to get out. So that is obviously the correlation for me.
However... once, I had a good friend (we only knew each other online...so pen pals I guess) who told me she has been able to enter other peoples
dreams before. I decided to go with it. She told me, to project in my mind her photo and say her name over and over as I fell asleep. I did.
The next day as we were chatting, she proceeded to tell me my entire nightmare that I'd had. Which had been interesting, because she was IN my
nightmare. I assumed that morning that thinking about her is what made me conjure her in my nightmare...but she was able to tell me everything that
happened. And she said it wasn't just bad dreams...It was a bad spirit. This was back when I was still married... so who knows. Maybe just the
negativity alone caused an attraction to something dark that has been able to reach me.
None of my nightmares are the same.. but there is ALWAYS a dark figure causing pain, death... sometimes chasing me, sometimes raping me (I
know....it's freaky waking up when you dreamt you were being raped). It is almost always killing people I love though. I can control my nightmares a
lot better now a days, to the point where I almost "restart" the parts I don't like. I can't control the fact that it's a nightmare...I can't
make it happy... but I can change the negative outcomes to ones that I feel my mind can handle. Usually if the thing kills me, I think "I didn't
like that"..and set my nightmare back a couple of minutes and do it over until I get away or I actually wake up.
I don't even know how my mind comes up with some of the stuff it does. I've woken up sobbing and screaming...sweat dripping down my back... and
many times, it's my boyfriend who will wake me up because I'm wimpering or thrashing in my sleep. Most often I wake on my own though. Id say I
have a "healthy" dose of nightmares and night terrors combined every single night.