Confessions Of A Dark Sorceror

Summer is almost over, and school is already starting in some areas. Get out there and live those last days of summer!

I am not talking down to you, we are just people in different times of our lives. Adults tend to assume that kids don�t know half as much as they know, but I know better.

Don�t take it wrong when I say that it�s okay to just be a kid. That doesn�t mean being dumb or falsely innocent, it just means not worrying about things you don�t have to worry about.

Take advantage of not having to hold down a job and pay the rent.

Dude, just have fun!

There is plenty of life left for answering the bigger questions. All in due time. For now, I can say from the bottom of my heart that I wish I had taken more time out to just be a kid when I was your age.

Get out and play in the dirt. You�ll miss it! My mom is a lot older than me, and my advice to her is the very same: PLAY!

When you stop playing, you start dying. Never stop playing!

And remember: You belong to yourself. Let no one else ever be your master!

Edit: Oh, and what kode told you? Live by it!



[edit on 8/25/2004 by Majic]

Originally posted by A Random Person
Paul, I have been reading the solist website and am thinking on becoming a solist, though I must put more thought into it.

Oh geez! ARP, I just saw this. Again, I must apologize, I have been very into myself lately.

Dude, look, I am toying with the Solist concepts and such, but I cannot overemphasize enough that it would be very wrong for you to buy into some mystical school of teaching at this point. I am finding some things that the Solists say to seem true, but I cannot vouch for them! I may be selling myself down the river for all I know.

PLEASE BE CAREFUL!

You don�t need to choose anything right now, just be yourself.

I don�t know one way or the other about TSOL, and thus I don�t want to slam them unfairly, but I really don�t think it�s for you. I�m not sure it�s for me either, but I sense potential. There is some fluff that needs trimming in my view, but that�s my view.

I will go out on a limb here, and state an opinion: A true society of scientific mystics will adhere to the wisdom of Occam�s razor. They will seek the Truth, and will always endeavor to separate that which they see from that which they desire to see.

Again, I do not wish to seem derisive, I do not necessarily see TSOL that way, but I do have my opinions. I see a need for course correction. Satisfying the desires of self for power within the physical universe is not the Way, in my humble(?) opinion.

I am still studying the matter, so I apologize for what is, in effect, a bunch of mush-mouthed gibberish.

But ARP, I say again: Just enjoy life. Appreciate what you have, for it is all too fleeting! Savor it, and I pray that these days will be days that you will cherish!

There used to be a website, based around a web game, but in a small corner of the site was a story board, and on that I learned much...

The stories would start, many people participated, then as it became more defined people left, leaving a few constants and they lead the story...

That sight is gone now, it quite literaly vanished.

Majic, you started this to tell your story, but since it has become a quest to find yourself.

My life is small, to say the least, I have few friends, and outside of school rarely see them, one, who is uncanilly like me is busy a lot, so I stay home playing video games and surfing the web. For me, school starts Sept. 2, and then I have to deal with "normal" people... it sucks. Though I am smart, I do not wish to be in special classes or much above everyone else.

I have trouble living in the present, I think about the future. Though I know I must change this way of thinking.

Many say "Ah, to be young again!", I will not miss my youth as much as others... I have been gifted with an incredible mind, but I cant fully use it because of ADD. It is as if I have brain block all the time.

The name, it rings a bell...

The name you mentioned earlier, it seems almost familiar, but a block guards such knowledge, odd...

Right now I am on a spiritual quest also, but I am going in circles, conclusions come slowly.

I feel as though we are all being watched by something...though I dont know what...

As for religion

Shortly after my last post I watched an episode of Home Improvement, as usual, but it had a spirituality focus, I shall not be a solist, it is to far from my thoughts currently, so I will continue to ponder these conundrums.

I have already learned lessons the hard way, an event that started in March and continued until just a week ago will leave me with many lessons and scars, both emotionaly and physically...

Right now I am all over the board, stirring dark memories and happy ones, pondering both past and future, and reminding myself to remain ever vigilant of the words weaved on this thread...

Originally posted by A Random Person
Many say "Ah, to be young again!", I will not miss my youth as much as others... I have been gifted with an incredible mind, but I cant fully use it because of ADD. It is as if I have brain block all the time.

ARP. I am terribly sorry! I know all about what we call �ADD� these days. It is not a disease! It is simply boyhood. I lived it. I know it intimately. It is madness to think that a boy your age can sit still on command!

Before the Internet, I was left to draw pictures and build models to express myself. The Internet is great but it still will not satisfy the need to be yourself.

People who know me know that I am not a �crier�. I find myself crying a ridiculous amount since I started this thread. There is irony here, somewhere. I am crying now.

It is because I am speaking to myself, thirty years ago, wishing I could make my point, but fearing that it will be lost.

ARP, you are not random, you are unique! And not just unique, but special, and I don�t mean in the �short bus� sense of the word.

You need not look outside yourself to find what you seek. The kingdom of God is within you!

I beg you, please do not be misled by my rantings!

I know you also are on a quest for self. I will share a secret with you: I am looking within myself. My quest does not lie within the opinions of others.

My dearest ARP, I urge you. No, I beg you to cast all this nonsense aside. This is a thing that is meaningful to me, but you must not let it poison your soul!

Do not discard the �real world� just yet. To do so would be to short-change yourself.

Drink deep of life, my friend, it is a far more exotic pleasure than any of us might ever know.

Just remember: Don�t let others define who you are. Rise above the petty silliness of other kids. They are as scared, probably more scared, than you are.

ARP, there is no greater path to happiness. My friend, Be yourself!

You have reached a spot where I must stop,I cannot easily answer that without saying things I wish to keep to myself. I look back on this thread and still am amazed at what has all happened in a short period of time...I always leave an impression,but not like this,I saw the possibility of this happening,but never thought that my short posts would leave such an impact...

This was all set in motion by a single psi ball,my first and only psi ball, what irony that a little ball of energy would throw my whole world off balance, but is that a good thing? Maybe what I need is a revolution...

Much to ponder...

[edit on 25-8-2004 by A Random Person]

ARP, do not let your heart be troubled. Pondering is a good thing, but you need not borrow trouble.

If you do not already have a safe place to be alone and think, find a safe place, where you can be alone and think things over without fear of interruption. Everyone, regardless of age, needs such a place.

Don't be misled by the noise of the Internet.

Do not run ahead of yourself. My motto: No hurries, no worries!

Relax! I realize life may not be a bowl of cherries for you, but I (yet again) urge you to appreciate what you have.

Don't let all this talk lead you into darkness. There is light within you. Make it glow: Be yourself!

Hi ARP,

Glad that my input helped you fend off demonic forces. Them trying to stop you from pursuing a spiritual path is very much characteristic of a Group Entity. The Soist path is a highly disciplined, individualistic focus while Group Entities represent the common collectivistic focus that does not require much principle or discipline.

Paul, I have been reading the solist website and am thinking on becoming a Solist, though I must put more thought into it. Also, are you the Paul Richard mentioned on the site? Just curious.

Avadar/Paul Richard are one and the same person...me.

We have no membership fees. Strive to live by The Golden Rule and do the Chakra Radiance daily as we have outlined it, pray for Guidance/Accuracy, Protection and Healing daily and allot time each day for receiving guidance in meditation. Then just go with the process and be patient.

There...you're in...

Feel free to e-mail me to make it official and to get on our distribution list.

Majic, from reading through the website I have a theory on what you saw, could it be a Secondary Godhead Sun?? Just a theory.

I feel the need to weigh in on this issue...

According to Solist Archangels, only a true Ascended Master can create (with projected thought that is amplified by The Light) a Secondary Godhead Sun. Designs for them reside in the Higher Realms within The Society Of Light, but a fully operational SGS is still something that has yet to occur.

They tell me that what Majic actually saw (and I know he is waiting for me to comment on this or channel about it) was The Society Of Light in the Spirit.

As stated above I have changed my mind on solist mysticism,I will wait for quite a while before deciding,it could be months,could be years. There was something else I wanted to type,though I can no longer remember it,oh well.

I am going to sleep now, goodnight.

Majic,

Just as a point of clarification, the goal of Solist Mysticism and The Society Of Light is to improve upon the basic human condition spiritually, culturally and physically. To say that we just want a tropical planet to live in idleness is a gross misjudgment. But I can see why someone might think that.

Sometimes the best path is also one that is relatively peaceful and one that ends in a remote land. This was the desire of the early colonists who came to the Americas, to live in the freedom of their own church and their own government, unencumbered by the oppressive societies and institutions from which they came.

Additionally, if the subtle subjugation of this planet and its peoples by the Zetan-aliens is real, which many independent Ufologists as well as governmental insiders, members of the military, etc., have concluded, then it is also a very good idea to seek refuge on a world that is not used as a large-scale harvesting community for spiritually indifferent and self-serving aliens.

Spiritual pursuits are fine and dandy but the avoidance of being used as farm animals also has its merits!

ARP,

Alas, Solist Mysticism is not for everyone. Better to bail out now than to get that sinking feeling that one is over one's head.

We are like the US Marines in that we believe that "quality is more important than quantity."

You have made the right decision.

Originally posted by Paul_Richard
They tell me that what Majic actually saw (and I know he is waiting for me to comment on this or channel about it) was The Society Of Light in the Spirit.

My working theory as of today was that perhaps I was experiencing a melding with �Yahweh� in a previous life. Your statement leaves me with many question marks over my head. Let�s see, where�s that smiley? Ah yes, here:

Questions, Questions

I am grateful for your patience, Friend Paul, but some significant questions are upon me. I request that you answer each of them as you are able.

First, this would seem to suggest that TSOL is indeed a group entity, unless I read these signs awrong? Again I ask: Is TSOL a group entity? If not, what is that ball of light and the Joining all about?

Secondly, I do not believe I have chosen to join TSOL. Am I mistaken?

Thirdly, you seem to consult TSOL as an oracle. Again, how can a group of �individuals� speak with one voice? And how are you that voice?

Fourthly, why is a society ostensibly devoted to spiritual causes so focused on physical manifestations, such as telekinesis and creation of paradise planets?

Fifthly, I know you have explained this matter privately, but I remain skeptical that, if they exist, the �Zetans� cannot be approached by mystical means. They have souls, as you yourself have said. I find it impossible to believe that Zetans cannot have a single mystic among them!

Sixthly, by what means do you consult with TSOL? Are we talking email or something more spiritual?

So Here It Is

Now, and I do not wish you to misread my thoughts, Friend Paul, but my working hypothesis at this time is that TSOL is a group headed by a charismatic visionary, you, and guided by your visions.

I think you have insights into fundamental concepts of the spiritual realm, such as your observations about spiritual colors and the �spiritual food chain�. However, I think such objectives as attaining sufficient personal power to create and �minister� upon a �tropical planet� are fantasies borne of desires for personal empowerment.

I present these thoughts for your consideration as feedback, not as charges from the Accuser. That is someone I would just as soon not associate with!

Answer or not as you see fit. You have indicated by private correspondence that you are busy at the moment attending to �real world� matters, and I have no reason to doubt that. Even Elder Masters have to pay the bills!

I do not wish to bring my doubts as indictments, but I do believe, in light of your contributions to this thread, that more on these matters is forthcoming.

Again, I ask these things from a perspective of skepticism, but not cynicism or derision.

I simply want to know.

dude you people need to relax. sort of like lay off the 'realm' talk. i mean what givies you what God can? such small 'powers?' maybe at times yes, the spells will work, but you'll never gain the such READY conscience that Christ can give you...

its too bad some start roots off with just mud in their faces. Let alone be washed up in Forgery for the upcoming times. Talk about traps set for your own self...

Reach for the Light kids!

topsecretombomb: In the supermarket of the soul, it is traditional to say "Eeny meeny miney moe!" before selecting fruit from the produce department.

Excuse me while I examine the mangoes...

My imaginary Rousseau repeated the name �Etevon� (phonetique) several times during my imaginary conversation with him. It was clear that �he� wanted me to remember that name.

Googling for that word doesn�t turn up much, except that some guy Michel Etevon associated with sailboat racing died a while back. I suspect that there may be a village in France associated with this name, but that means little or nothing to me.

So the name remains a mystery. Etevon and Rousseau, what was this imaginary memetic construct trying to tell me?

There is a major fire burning in northwest Nevada today. It is filling the air with smoke. An Ill wind? I wonder.

But I will go out on a burning limb and posit that my nocturnal notion of a poisoned wind was not a reference to fire, but to chemical weapons, perhaps. People are now, or very soon, going to die from poisoned winds.

Or so the Germans would have us believe.

lol yes and worship the god of the grass, the god of the wind the god of the trees and the god of every shoelace you have! ROFL.

The thread is at a strange place, with me pointing a benign but nonetheless accusing finger at dear Friend Paul and TSOL, and my feeling pretty crappy overall for maybe leading ARP down the primrose path. Sigh.

All this drama notwithstanding, I feel it strangely apropos to tell the tale of what I assume to be an imaginary character named �Lukas of Andromea�. I am not sure if the name is right, or if this is a truly a past memory of mine, so, as ever, caveat reador.

I have mentioned that I have issues with the word �master�. I postulated that perhaps I had lived a life as a slave in the American South during the time of slavery, but no, I have no such memories.

Rather, as I drove though high winds today, heading into and out of town, and contending with the major rerouted traffic from a major wildfire, the tale of �Lukas of Andromea� built up in my mind. I think it is all fantasy, but wish to share it anyway.

Lukas grew to young adulthood in the village of Andromea in ancient Greece. They didn�t call it �Greece�, all I get is �Andromea� (no, not �Andromeda�). Like many young bucks his age, his passion was warfare and battle.

Over time, he became a great warrior and leader of men. He wielded spear and sword of bronze and brass. �The spear is for piercing, the sword for chopping.� I have images of his men hammering their swords back to sharpness between battles, with the aid of young helpers and smiths of great musculature.

Lukas was a captain of men, and fearless in battle. I think he was a captain of Alexander�s men, but I do not know. His company, which varied in number from 30 to 100, was known as the �Lions�, for they were fearless in battle. Many good men had died under Lukas� command, but those who survived loved him, for he was shrewd and cunning in the ways of warfare.

One fine, sunny day, in a land far, far from home, Lukas and his men, numbering nearly a hundred at the time, pursued a band of marauders who had harried the royal camp. They chased the enemy for two days, stopping only briefly in the night to rest. Finally, they caught them, but it was a trap.

The Lions were greatly outnumbered by the barbaric enemies, strange dark-skinned men who tanned their leather with the hair remaining on the hide. They carried spiked shields and weapons of wood, and had a foul and pungent odor.

The Lions fought bravely, indeed, it was a battle fit for song, but no song was sung, for the Lions were defeated utterly. They were slaughtered to the last man and boy, for even the squires were slaughtered. But Lukas they took alive, at the orders of their captain.

He saw all his brave men cut down, chopped and beaten before him. Brave men, valiant sergeants and veterans of many battles, men of strong arms and keen eyes, men he loved. They slaughtered them all. Even the young helpers, they killed them all. All his beautiful men, he saw them killed because of his pride, thinking them unbeatable.

I cannot recount the agony of Lukas on seeing his men laid low. There is much sorrow in the memory, seeing them lying cut, beaten and bloodied in a dry wash in bare mountains. The red of blood and flies upon them.

To be left alive broke Lukas, and left him unfit to fight to the death.

They led him away, bound at the hands, a rope around his neck, Lukas the Fearless, led away like a goat.

A valiant and brave leader of men, his enemy saw fit to make him a slave. And so it was that Lukas the Fearless served a mongrel man as his slave for three years before falling again into shame.

For Lukas was beheaded by his master, for consorting with one of the master�s wives. In the end, the master took pity upon him, who had otherwise served him in honor, the fallen captain, and granted him a quick death.

But Lukas died on his knees, begging for his life in the end. He died in utter shame, he who had been a great captain of men, died as a slave in shame, with no monument to mark his grave.

I do not know if this man�s memories are within me, but, real or fictitious, I think he has much to teach.

There is another who comes to mind, but I do not know his name, or at what time he lived.

I remember him as a maker of music, but those who lived with him may only remember him for the working of wood, as he made many tools, devices and household appliances.

He was a gifted craftsman, capable of shaping wood into very intricate and clever machines. He made tools, and items of household worth, but his passion lied in toys and musical instruments.

These he fashioned as time permitted, for his tools and appliances were well-received by the people, and demand kept him busy, replicating his most clever innovations.

But his heart lay in the fashioning of toys, for which he received little compensation, and musical instruments, for which he received even less.

It was in the making of music that he excelled, devising melodies and harmonies previously unknown to his people. He taught them to friends, and enjoyed many fine nights hearing his minor symphonies take to life in the twangs and beatings of his fellows.

He died peacefully in his sleep at an advanced age for the time. He was remembered for his skill with wood, but I like to think that maybe, somewhere, people still play his songs.

I find all the controversy in this thread about whether or not to �join� The Society Of Light to be humorous, for two reasons. One, I never intended this thread to be a �recruiting ground� and second, most or all of you seem to be missing the point entirely.

It makes no difference whatsoever if one joins us officially, as most of the people that use Chakra Radiance and who have progressed to a high spiritual level are what we label �closet Solists.�

In light of this, all the debate and controversy about joining The Society Of Light (which is not a Group Entity) is largely irrelevant.

We have learned that people who wish to evolve into God Realization must learn to use the innovative approach of Chakra Radiance daily (while living by The Golden Rule) and slowly increase the time each day with which one does it. Not only are there no membership fees, but there are also no shortcuts in growth. The benefit of membership is spiritual camaraderie. But we already have that � on both sides of the spectrum.

There have been some interesting people in our midst over the years.

Let�s see�

There was the wealthy business and family man in Pennsylvania, on his second marriage with children, who was the director of a Catholic fundraising organization (and may still be), who The Society Of Light identified as the soul of Luke from the New Testament � which apparently struck a chord with him as he came to accept that past life awareness without question. Luke was part of our official group for a time but left because of our stance that Jesus was only an angel prophet.

Then there was the man in France who The Society Of Light identified as the soul of the ancient Greek philosopher, Aristotle, as well as John the Baptist. He was a very intelligent man but had political issues centered on his resentment of American power and influence in the world (a common European stance) and French egocentrism.

Then we had the Hindu monk in America that was one of us officially for a time, who stated that he was the soul of the Indian Sage, Ramakrishna, a past life awareness which was also confirmed by The Society Of Light.

Then there was the Australian man who had his own metaphysical practice and who claimed to be the reincarnation of the old Indian Sage, Shankara � again confirmed by The Society Of Light.

These are several of a plethora of people who have learned about Chakra Radiance and who, at least temporarily, learned to embrace a high spiritual level.

The vast majority of those who use Chakra Radiance do so in anonymity. They wish to avoid the public spotlight of direct affiliation. That is fine by us and they are known by those on the Other Side by their Radiance and by their Dominant Aura Color.

We�d rather have people use the Radiance daily and discreetly spiritually evolve than get all wrapped up in the �gee, I wonder if I should join them� syndrome. It reminds me of when medieval theologians used to sit around and speculate as to the number of angels that could dance on the head of a pin � another relatively pointless topic of discussion.

I admit that I have an ulterior motive in coming into forums like this one and explaining all this. I have found that whenever I offer constructive spiritual advice freely and selflessly, I considerably increase my own growth on the Higher Stages.

The Light is not a respecter of persons or groups and it certainly doesn�t give a hoot about anyone joining any religious or spiritual organization. All it cares about is The Golden Rule, selfless service, the cultivation of Humility, Purity and Compassion, one�s daily Radiance, and one�s sacrifice in service to The Light.

Bonjour Majic,

Yahweh was a Group Entity. Enough said on that issue.

First, this would seem to suggest that TSOL is indeed a group entity, unless I read these signs all wrong? Again I ask: Is TSOL a group entity? If not, what is that ball of light and the Joining all about?

People that have a DAC of Sky Blue or better avoid combining their souls into a Group Entity but that is not to say that they can't occasionally Radiate a projection of how it feels and looks to be in the Higher Realms of Spirit. The Sun projection and the spiritual feelings and harmonies were a good way of presenting this to you.

Secondly, I do not believe I have chosen to join TSOL. Am I mistaken?

If you strive to live by The Golden Rule and use Chakra Radiance on a regular basis, you have already joined TSOL unofficially.

Thirdly, you seem to consult TSOL as an oracle. Again, how can a group of �individuals� speak with one voice? And how are you that voice?

It is easier to convey information with one speaker at a time than to have hundreds of voices/messages come at me and through me at once. A single voice is for the purpose of efficiency but I often have had more than one Archangelic energy come through but still represent the same order. They often have heated discussions on relevant and controversial topics.

Fourthly, why is a society ostensibly devoted to spiritual causes so focused on physical manifestations, such as telekinesis and creation of paradise planets?

This is to clearly explain the nature of God Realized development and the need for an individualistic focus. Many people on the lower levels are of the mindset that "unity is the goal� and most people join a Group Entity after they leave their bodies. Many of them claim that the ability to create matter is already achieved from the unified energies of large Group Entities. If the Archangels are truly more spiritually advanced, then why can't they manifest matter?

The answer is that they are closer to being able to manifest matter on an individual basis than anyone in the Mid or Lower Realms can manifest by themselves.

The path of The Original Creator is a highly disciplined path of Radiant selflessness and one only grows on the Higher Stages by largely walking down the same path as He did.

As a soul progresses into The Light, its thoughts become more powerful. When one's thoughts become powerful enough to manifest matter, that soul has become God Realized. The reason why The Original Creator could manifest the physical universe is because He was on a rarefied level of God Realization. But He did it on His own within The Light, without being part of a group consciousness.

Fifthly, I know you have explained this matter privately, but I remain skeptical that, if they exist, the �Zetans� cannot be approached by mystical means. They have souls, as you yourself have said. I find it impossible to believe that Zetans cannot have a single mystic among them!

Hitler had mystical inclinations and had a Gift of Prophecy and Charisma. Sai Baba of India is a mystic too and he is well-known to be a sexual predator of young men and boys at his ashram. He has other karmic problems as well. Evil mystics are of no use in furthering The Light. Sai Baba will face oblivion after he leaves his body. Hitler, Stalin, Mussolini and millions of others from that era, are all long gone. To just be a mystic is not enough. You have to be on a spiritual path.

Sixthly, by what means do you consult with TSOL? Are we talking email or something more spiritual?

*L*

I often take dictation. They would give me an impression of the topic and I would take it from there, revising the message for clarity and succinctness as I finalize it. I usually ask for confirmations and am always open to them improving upon the message. Right now a couple of pages on the Solist site are being revised...again.

Now, and I do not wish you to misread my thoughts, Friend Paul, but my working hypothesis at this time is that TSOL is a group headed by a charismatic visionary, you, and guided by your visions.

Actually, I am guided by their visions and to a certain extent they are inspired by mine. However, as with the case with most of the scientists, visionaries, theologians in the past, the innovations were worked on and studied at length beforehand. I knew of the innovative approach of Chakra Radiance before entering this life. It was just a matter of relearning that which I have forgotten.

Thanks for the compliment of "charismatic visionary."

I think you have insights into fundamental concepts of the spiritual realm, such as your observations about spiritual colors and the �spiritual food chain�. However, I think such objectives as attaining sufficient personal power to create and �minister� upon a �tropical planet� are fantasies borne of desires for personal empowerment.

One cannot exist on a spiritually indifferent world such as this one and also be God Realized and Ascended. One's compassion and the sense of justice would come into play, resulting in one of two scenarios manifesting:

A civil war and the overthrow of the current governments by the new Ascended Masters.

or

The new Ascended Masters eventually and quietly leave this system and start new colonies, new progressive governments and new societies.

Which path do you think is better?

Even Elder Masters have to pay the bills!

Quite true.



[edit on 26-8-2004 by Paul_Richard]