What are you scared of?

reply to post by Spiramirabilis

define tiny

:-)

just so I have an idea about what size bugs should no longer creep me out. While they're in my ear that is

Very good point Size doesn't really matter in this instances does it? I guess I was trying to capture the horror of something small enough to pass beyond the eardrum. EEEEEEEEEK!

Another good point. I think that's what she would want also. I know I'd wish it of her, exept if she was very alone and wanted to just go on. Yes. Love wants the best for everyone, even if the "best" is outside of societal convention. I've never in my life been suicidal. I can imagine a situation, many, many years from now, with one of us alone and feeling like it was just passing time, no real contribution to the fabric of society, and not really enjoying the buzz of a person's late night thoughts against the lonely background of the relentless surf. Society and culture would say that it was cowardly to take one's own life, and yet....... Taking one last boat ride out to greet the sun, rowing toward a point where one cannot return from...... perhaps there's a certain poetry and justness in that.

I forgot to mention another thing, and it's kind of embarassing. Every since my earliest memories, I've had a visceral sorta reaction to whiteface. I can remember a picture of Geo. Washington in our Encyclopedia that gave me physical chills. I don't care for clowns or dolls or any of those other similar things. I don't enjoy mimes with whiteface makeup. In fact, they annoy the crap out of me and creep me out just a little. No particular reason for it. Interesting to me that the doll thing seems to be semi-universal. What is it about those flat snake eyes and puckered faces that touches some of our awareness? Maybe it's some sort of tribal memory, deeply embedded in our DNA. Beats me.