posted on Jan, 22 2011 @ 04:24 PM
Dunno where to put this post so I'll put it here.
Maybe the mods will shift it elsewhere if they see fit.
So I have this weird situation and I'm wondering if either I've been hypnotised, am re incarnated or just have mental problems.
It all started in 2001, I was pretty stressed due to business and family problems and I was working and BBC radio 4 were broadcasting a play that I
was listening to, I got a strong feeling of deja vue and became convinced that I had heard the play before and that the first time I had heard it,
something of great significance had being in my mind. Try as I might I couldn't think what the significant thing was or what the out come of the
play was, but as it went on , all these triggers to some memories that I couldn't remember, like words that are on the tip of your tongue (you know
how frustrating that is right? were tripping away in my head. I was really confused, it was like there were events that I could't recall, but
that I knew were there.
Time went by and I analysed what was happening time and time again. A thought, would appear and dissappear a split second later, leaving the
knowledge that it had existed, but know way of knowing what the thought was, nor what had instigated it. Example, someone smells flowers and
remembers making love in a meadow and how wonderful that experience was, all in a split second and then cherishes that memory. I was finding myself
not knowing what the trigger was, the memory was or why it was significant, only that the memory existed.
This went on for months and then I went to the doctors and he gave me anti depressants, the thoughts went away almost. Occasionally they broke
through though. I kinda got hooked on the meds because when trying to come off them I could feel my mind sort of slip/jolt, slide sideways, thats
how it felt. But eventually last year I ran out and was too far away from the docs to get anymore easily, I went cold turkey and came off them
completely, actually without any problems, no side slips at all. Since then the thoughts went too.
Was I insane, was my mind bruised, what was it? never seen anyone mention feeling anything similar.