Am I A "sensitive" of Some Kind?

I ask this with the precursory statement that if any of the phenomena I experience are real, they're most likely a gift from God, or a natural born human skill - thus of God as well.

Otherwise, they're of the Enemy, or just something that is a natural part of being human that is rarely used/known.

If I have some sort of ability, I have to decide where it comes from - as I have a slight case of OCD that sometimes makes me obsess on things such as whether I have the mark of the beast or not (which I do not, and OCD is characterized by the brain conflicting on things it already knows the status of), and so I need to decide whether to keep developing/using it or not.

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Some history:

I'm one of those people who as a kid was fascinated enough by crazy anime shows that I did research into ki/psi. Back in middleschool I was making "psi balls," but I think that they are quite possibly nothing more than muscle tightness, and the ideomotor effect. I'm still not sure, and am fascinated by psi, the idea of flaring psi balls if it's possible to make one in the first place, levitation, and telekinesis. I've had unconfirmable successes in the past with psi wheels, though I'm not so sure about those. I really don't think there's much of a physical aspect to psionic phenomenon, at least from my experiences so far.

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Possible "abilities":

I think this one to be the Spiritual Gift of Discernment as mentioned in the Bible - I think it comes from when I first became a believer in Jesus. I've almost always been able to read what people's true thoughts behind something are... I can tell whether they are sincere or not, and I generally am just inside people's heads sometimes. It's strange and hard to describe.

From there, I can look at situations and objects and somehow my brain either generates, composites, or just "knows" how they got to the point they are at, I see the big picture. I know this one is hard to aptly describe, but I've done my best.

I've also participated in remote viewing experiments here on ATS. One in particular was pretty interesting:

My RV'ed guesses:
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The results:
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I'm also really good at finding things from time to time. One example that strikes me well is when I was driving down the road past a comics and toy store and something in my head "pinged," and I knew they had a certain toy line I collected that was pretty rare to see except on eBay. They don't advertise, I hadn't talked to anyone about it, and I very rarely go in there. Anyway, I went in and walked out between that day and the next with hundreds (way more than I should have ) worth of the toy line I collected.

I also sometimes recreationally dumpster dive, because of the thrill of getting free stuff (I'm a computer nerd, so I end up hacking electronics, and playing with junk computers), but I sometimes skip certain dumpsters because I just know nothing good is in them. I've confirmed this by doubling back after the OCD to check them kicks in - and then sometimes I get thoughts about where to go look, which are spotty, but accurate from time to time...

Finally, I have strange dreams, and I will transition into my dreams from what I describe as my own little worlds...I am not sure if I'm out of body, or am remote viewing, or what, though I sometimes try to RV while laying in bed...I also have strange dreams that are either exhilerating enough to make me go back to sleep because life is less interesting, or dreams that are so terrifying and real that I fear going to sleep the next night, even after forgetting the details of the nightmares...

Whatever the case, I still get that magnetic feeling in my hands from time to time and start "playing with psi," if that's even possible.

I'm totally skeptical on lots of this, minus the Spiritual Discernment. You can't pry me from my faith or shake it, so don't even try - but tell me, what's going on with me?

If I have something here that isn't evil, I should develop it. The question is, how?

[edit on 13-7-2010 by joesomebody]

hmm....can you tell my real name?

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Hi, Joe, being sensitive is difficult - welcome!

People give you a hard time - lets get over it.

Yeah, OCD doesn't make you sensitive. It just makes you anxious as hell all the time and it's a pain in the backside.

There are many sensitives in the world. Some are called emphathetics. I can find anyone. You asked how to develop your skill. Keep a personal diary or a blog. You could keep a dream diary which will probably be more productive than you think. Keep a diary of your successes. Study the Bible. Pray. Use your gifts for the betterment of mankind. Remember that we are in a minute by minute battle of good versus evil. Good luck grasshopper.

I can appreciate the fact that you're not exactly sure what it is - if anything - that either is or isn't manifesting around you. I've had this very troubling issue with terrible things happening to people who have really caused me social or emotional harm. And when I say terrible things, I mean suicides, murders, car accidents, grand mal seizure deaths, sudden shifts in their metabolism that pack on 60 lbs that will never go away (that one was pretty funny, since it hit an ex-girlfriend who always defined herself by her hot slinky little body), and even public psycho meltdowns of people who had always been masterful at the public image thing (media types) until running into me.

My rational side tells me that this is completely impossible, and that it's got to be coincidence, but then when another disaster befalls a person who lined me up in their sights, I get a rash of phone calls from friends that make me feel that "we all know what's up here", as it's put to me at times. This has been going on since the mid-70s, so most of my older friends already know about this.

The real hell is that some of these people - the ones that are still alive - have become good friends since their falls, and yet the curses are still active and ongoing with most of them.

A couple summers ago (2008) I did some 1099 recruiting of charity volunteers work for a large catering firm (rounded up over 600 volunteers donating their time to 22 organizations) to man concession booths and parties and all the food and beverage services for 2 annual back-to-back ATP tennis events. The project went well until the catering firm tried to squirrel out on the 2nd half of the contract (long story). This occurred between the 1st event and the 2nd event (each involving a week and 2 weekends, and an entire week break between them) since I'd already gotten the 2nd event completely scheduled with workers by then. I suppose they figured I could be shorted or pro-rated if they took it from there and managed the on-site effort with their own in-house folks once they got the shifts covered.

They'd successfully pushed me off the event by the time the 2nd event started, and it just so happened that Michael Phelps was going for his 8 Gold Medals that week in the Summer Olympics, rooting most sports fans to their livingrooms every evening. No one showed for the tennis (it was a Women's Open and the Williams sisters weren't showing anyway) and the caterer ate tens of thousands in uneaten food while paying for shifts of volunteers who had nothing at all to do but stand around. I was told that the owner of the catering firm was wandering the grounds on that last Sunday afternoon as though she'd been bombed out of her home or something.

Then there were the legal squabbles between the caterer and a number of the national level charity organizations I'd landed for the event (such bad press) over significant "inconsistencies" between the volunteers' time sheets and the caterer's (inexperienced and half-assed) on-site crew management's time sheets (at 40 bucks a shift), which ironically was part of what my "third-party" on-scene management strategy (which they "didn't require anymore, thank you") was designed to prevent. That caterer doesn't exist anymore, and they came into that project as area standards with a quarter century of solid performance behind them. So, it's affected entire organizations at times.

My wife just looked at me when that 2nd week imploded on them and said "What is it with you...?" So, I know how it can feel to not understand what the hell is happening around you, especially when it seems to happen because of you.

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Hi Joe,

It's always nice to meet others of like faith: Pleased to meet you!

Interesting thread post. As far as the Psi, I know nothing about that..Have always been a bit curious about it though. I saw some guy on tv that knocked someone down with his psi ball *without physically touching him..a curtain was in between them.*.. Pretty Wild stuff IF true..

Yes, imo, you should develop your skills. I agree with Aviatrix's advice.
Always pray for discernment..I do believe He gives us this.

HE won't lead you astray as long as you look to Him for direction.

Good luck, Bro!,
S-Lou

Thanks for the replies everyone.

I'm still not convinced any of it is anything - I mean, the psi thing could just be a leftover interest from childhood - every young man (even grown men, to be honest) wants to somehow be a superhero.

That said, the RV stuff and the "sensitive" stuff could just be good intution of some sort... I do belive that Spiritual Discernment is a gift of the Spirit, but I don't think that it would necessarily be behind all I experience. I think it is more to deal with sensing the HS, and sensing posessed people (I think I've done that once before, in a mall...that was crazy...dude was later trying to touch the Bibles in a mall bookstore but would pull his hand back like they were hot or something) ...

Anyway, the other stuff, there is still more of a chance of great coincidences than me having some sort of extrasensory abilities...

I try to remain skeptic but some things just leave me thinking "Can this really be a coincidence?" ... It's possible, though in some cases unlikely...I just don't know.

I'll just try to live for God's will, and be a positive influence on everything I come in contact with.

Que sera, sera.

[edit on 13-7-2010 by joesomebody]

Maybe this is something for you?

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Peace love and light,
let u guide by higher i


Jim