I am living on borrowed time

Hello ATS.

I've had a strange feeling now for around six weeks, and this feeling has not left me, or diminished in any way.

Around six weeks ago, I started to feel "off". I can't say that I felt ill, or that I was "coming down with something", but I know that I didn't feel quite right.

Even now I cannot put my finger on just what it was that prompted me to start feeling like this, but I know that something must have triggered it.

I have noticed that the feeling has increased somewhat over the last two weeks, and after reading this thread : www.abovetopsecret.com...
I felt I had to share my experiences with everyone here.

I can only describe the feeling as "living on borrowed time". Despite giving the feeling that description, I feel that the words do not accurately describe it, and yet, I can find no other way describing it.

When I think about the feeling, it gives me the emotional reaction of being frustrated, and impatient.

These two emotional responses are somewhat surprising, and rather shocking to me. I cannot imagine what would cause me to feel frustrated or impatient at being on borrowed time, especially as I hope to live to over 125, as a minimum.

I do read about doomsday scenarios, and similar things on ATS, and from other sources, and I regularly enjoy them. However, I always balance out with more "positive" things, in order to remain balanced. I also like to have a healthy idea of how I would survive any sort doomsday-like event just so that if it ever did happen I could still reach my 125th birthday.

I rarely feel down, or upset, as I have a very positive and happy outlook to life - usually.

So, I'm posting this here, and wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience. Or if anyone else can help shed some light on this feeling of mine.

If anyone has any questions, please post them, and I'll do my best to answer.

reply to post by dampnickers


You may just be hyper-aware of you're own mortality. All of a sudden every little thing feels like it could be the final stretch. I know, I have had it myself, to where I think my time on earth is short...truth is that it is short for everyone, it just differs in you're own perception.

Might be because society as we know it is crumbling and we "are" on borrowed time. Most people feel something is seriously wrong but may not fully realize how far gone were are.

This knowing may be on a subconscious level and is manifesting or coming to the surface. Also could be a subconscious knowing of coming earth changes. If it makes you feel any better I have felt that way for years

[edit on 11-5-2010 by hawkiye]

Funny you write this. This has been my exact feeling for the last 4 weeks or so. Today in particular, I was walking around, and everything looked really weird and "fake" if you will. Strange times for sure.

reply to post by dampnickers


You may have your first shared emotion.. Or as some would say empathic feeling. It is not of your normal thought patterns and is very powerful.

Empathy when first encountered is confusing. Have you recently been shocked by the life circumstances of another being?

If so, your actions from this point may well determine if you are in service to yourself or others. In other words a crossroads.

Choose that which will make you comfortable in your skin and go for it.

Originally posted by SmokeandShadow
reply to post by dampnickers

 

You may just be hyper-aware of you're own mortality. All of a sudden every little thing feels like it could be the final stretch. I know, I have had it myself, to where I think my time on earth is short...truth is that it is short for everyone, it just differs in you're own perception.

Agreed

With every adult and sometimes younger individuals it really depends on their intellectual awakening as an adult, we become very aware of our own mortality. Those of us who have served and have seen action/combat become very aware of this before our time at a much younger age before we should and are ready. Many cannot deal with it!


It's quite normal. DO NOT DWELL ON IT!
This too shall pass.



You are just maturing and growing in awareness.


Semper Fi

PEACE

Slay

That's just perfectly normal paranoia. Every being in the universe experiences it.

You have considered that, right?

Originally posted by Tearman
That's just perfectly normal paranoia. Every being in the universe experiences it.

You have considered that, right?

I have considered this. It was actually one of my first thoughts... but as I have no past experience with which to compare this, I'm at a loss.

Thanks for the suggestion though.