Questions about our ideas of thing

Now I believe time-space is the a field where we observe consciously through phenomenon the three dimension field of material or thing. We as humans all have a sense of self which we project from our knowledge of matter. We learn to love objects and things because we know through sense-perception that some of these objects will fulfill our pleasures. In order to know these pleasures exist there must be a dimension of pure goodness to define it. If we want to define the whole material world as being a constant state of material being then we cannot validly prove that anything really exist other than through our own perception of the material and our ability to rationalize with it. If things are infinitely comprised upon one dimension as the three dimensions of space-time are do we not see a dynamic shift within space time to the absolute value of self in our conscious behaviors unconsciously reflecting off the perceptions we have of other things. If we see an object as good for us does it mean that we then see ourselves in the same light in a metaphysical way. If good is a thing that only surrounds our own knowledge of it then good or evil do not exist and it merely a invention of our human mind to distinguish those things of nature which bring us pleasure or not. So essentially the material world is free of itself and essentially not itself through its own material being but that it exist because of the quintessential being of thingness which is the infinite mode of thought which defines with actuality what makes a human a human and what makes a plant a plant. That our order of operations is not the end all of being at one with the universe but the moving force of essentially what can be defined as the unification of being and nothing to be the essence of our own definitions of our happiness and pleasure. So essentially if God exist he must exist as material and spirit of material he can't be one but he could definitely choose to define himself as either because he essentially exist. Maybe this is why we can't prove why he exist because essentially for us perceive he exist we will only be mistaken because thingness of material for us only is defined as good in so far as we consciously wish to know it does as it extends in our human spirit. So God in all things as all things through all things because in order for us to consciously perceive something and mistaken its meaning for what it is there must either be a truth to define these sense identifications as being wrong. God can only be known through our own misidentifications and it is necessary to know him through a common spirit that is that none of our laws bind him nor does he create these laws. We essentially create our own laws of self perception logic and reason in space time and everything else is essentially an illusion. He exist as the fundamental knowledge and proof of his own existence there is nothing to deny he exist but himself and this is self contradicting with our human knowledge of self. So essentially God cannot be perceived through consciousness or matter nor through our understanding of the dialectic of object but merely as the concept surrounding the laws we place upon ourselves to identify through our consciousness of our material world through self perception to actually exist as a thing related outside of our mind.