A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Chaos, just call me Ceri. Much easier to try to spell. ANYHOO, I tend to be the same way, and I have to consciously control my face and my emotions. People tell me I look angry when I am just concentrating on something or thinking about something. It is an ongoing process to learn to control it, trust me, I know. That is why I asked those questions. I ask them of myself when I am getting overloaded with the negativity surrounding me. Like Tragic and Cags, I sing. I also tell jokes, off color if necessary, dance a jig, or do something bizarre to shock those around me into smiles, so that I can smile as well. OR, I just make them think I am weird in some way, so that they aren't paying attention or are distracted from the negative. If you cannot make yourself respond in a positive way to others' negativity, then make them change their behavior and that will help. Give it a try and let us know what happens. (BTW, show tunes work well when in company of others. They usually find it amusing if you break out in OOOOOOOOOOOKlahoma, or I feel pretty, oh so pretty, or I want to be in America. Last two are from West Side Story and yes, I did just seriously date myself. Oh well. I like them.)

Originally posted by XxRagingxPandaxX
My daily meditations help but i'm 16 and my highschool is so full of ignorance, everywhere around me I see inflated ego's stupidity and ignorance, they could tell you who's going out with who and who did what at a party, but they couldn't tell you one thing that happened in the news, none of our politicians, or the name of our vice president.

To view others as 'less than us' or finding ourselves in judgement over the thoughts of others is something incredibly sinister that I would call "The Mystical Ego".

Always remember, it takes ego to recognize ego.

People are living their lives.

The news is propaganda, meaningless dribble. Our politicians lie, cheat, steal and are set up from stage one of their allowed public office. Politics is an arena few care to spar in, because they can no longer relate to the members of it. Does this make them "Less Than" ?

Meditation is a good practice. I offer you another - Observation of the self outside of Meditation.

Carry the practice into every second of life and you may see the beautiful flowers that every member of the human race is, brimming with potential.


-G

Originally posted by Ceriddwen
Chaos, just call me Ceri. Much easier to try to spell. ANYHOO, I tend to be the same way, and I have to consciously control my face and my emotions. People tell me I look angry when I am just concentrating on something or thinking about something. It is an ongoing process to learn to control it, trust me, I know. That is why I asked those questions. I ask them of myself when I am getting overloaded with the negativity surrounding me. Like Tragic and Cags, I sing. I also tell jokes, off color if necessary, dance a jig, or do something bizarre to shock those around me into smiles, so that I can smile as well. OR, I just make them think I am weird in some way, so that they aren't paying attention or are distracted from the negative. If you cannot make yourself respond in a positive way to others' negativity, then make them change their behavior and that will help. Give it a try and let us know what happens. (BTW, show tunes work well when in company of others. They usually find it amusing if you break out in OOOOOOOOOOOKlahoma, or I feel pretty, oh so pretty, or I want to be in America. Last two are from West Side Story and yes, I did just seriously date myself. Oh well. I like them.)

edit on 9-12-2010 by Ceriddwen because: Spontaneous yoga poses make people smile and try it themselves. Just as a thought.

After I look at it a few times it might stick but I am really bad with remembering double letters and things like that...even in words I have used a million times...so Ceri it is.
I may have to try some of these things. I just never seem to think of anything positive when I feel a wave of negativity that I can't identify. Sometimes I guess I feel I just might make the situation even worse.

I don't know. I guess I will see how it goes tomorrow.

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Chaos - In your last post you stated that you cannot seem to think of anything positive while being bogged down with the negative. (Hope I got that correct) There is an old trick that I have implemented at times for myself and others in my life for situations like this.

It's as simple as some sticky notes (post-its). Write something positive and uplifting, then place them in places you are sure to see them throughout the day. Something that will remind you to take a deep breath, relax and focus on bigger better things. The more you focus on the negative, the more power and life force you give it. I understand that some things just cannot be shrugged off or ignored. That is fine. Difficulties build character, take it as a learning lesson and handle them to the best of your ability. But to allow them to take over will do you nor anyone else any good. It's hard but remember that you're strong enough to overcome anything.

Love you all to pieces!

Panda - Welcome to the thread hon. You're only 16? hehe Honestly, if I were you I'd be thrilled if I was 16 and already knowing the advantages of meditation and such.

Originally posted by XxRagingxPandaxX
My daily meditations help but i'm 16 and my highschool is so full of ignorance, everywhere around me I see inflated ego's stupidity and ignorance, they could tell you who's going out with who and who did what at a party, but they couldn't tell you one thing that happened in the news, none of our politicians, or the name of our vice president.

Panda, I work with a lot of people your age. It's just the nature of the age group. To make things more interesting, and I dare say bareable for you, observe how your class mates interact with each other and the adults out school. Having a understanding of others and why they do the things they do will be a helpful tool for the rest of your life. It may even help with the frustration you have with your class mates. Best case scenario you might even get to know some well enough to become friends.

I promise you, in a few years the days your living now will not seem so bad.

Originally posted by amc621

Originally posted by XxRagingxPandaxX
My daily meditations help but i'm 16 and my highschool is so full of ignorance, everywhere around me I see inflated ego's stupidity and ignorance, they could tell you who's going out with who and who did what at a party, but they couldn't tell you one thing that happened in the news, none of our politicians, or the name of our vice president.

Panda, I work with a lot of people your age. It's just the nature of the age group. To make things more interesting, and I dare say bareable for you, observe how your class mates interact with each other and the adults out school. Having a understanding of others and why they do the things they do will be a helpful tool for the rest of your life. It may even help with the frustration you have with your class mates. Best case scenario you might even get to know some well enough to become friends.

I promise you, in a few years the days your living now will not seem so bad.

A+ advice AMC.

Panda, things will only get better as you progress. I was known as the "all around friend." I felt very much the same way as you in high school, through the ignorance of not only students, but teachers as well. I decided to be proactive and start making friends with anybody within my reach. I was friends with the jocks, with the cheerleaders (who invited me to many of their parties), with the geeks, goths, etc. By the time I graduated from high school (almost 10 years now), I had many friends, who I still maintain friendships with. They may not be as "open" to the ideas and thoughts I have on many things, but there are still many more things to talk about and enjoy about with my friendship with them. It's just part of growing up, and we'll all try and help to give you advice whenever you need it, whether it's about the paranormal, or your daily routines. Sometimes collecting data on people (as AMC has suggested) can be just as useful. If there is indeed some underlying cause for everybody to be putting the proverbial blinders on, maybe by observing them and their behaviors, we can come closer to a conclusion. Stay tuned for me and Klain's project. I'm hoping the data that we're compiling might be of some help. If you would like to help, I would suggest watching your peers at school. Observe their behaviors, their actions, and reactions on certain subject matter. Arm yourself with knowledge, and maybe someone might listen. Record dates, times, subject matter, reactions, etc. See what happens and perhaps pass the info onto myself or Klain. Any bit of info from your age bracket will be of great help.

Ceri- I'll respond to your query when I have more time later in the afternoon. I'm surprisingly busy this morning.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

Originally posted by Caggy
Nobody else paid attention to the weird symbol I posted yesterday :'(... halp please T_T!?

-Cags

Hey hon, I think you must have glanced over a reply to your symbol question. I will quote it for you here.

Originally posted by Gradius Maximus
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Caggy,

The cresent moon is a powerful symbol to many cultures in regards to occult mystery.

CRESCENT MOON: A symbol of the aging goddess (crone) to contemporary witches and victory over death to many Muslims. In Islamic lands, crescent can be seen enclosing a lone pentagram.


When dealing with the power of the crone, mistress of time and space you need to be careful. The crone doesnt have to play by the rules.

Thats just my interpretation. But all in all I would say that you are remembering an old ritual as I've seen many altar cloth that look very similar to your drawing.

-G

I personally have no idea what it could mean, so I stayed out of it. Best of luck *hugs*

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Thanks for the compliment. When I read it I almost fell out my chair that you said something nice to me.

hahahahah, just kidding.

Originally posted by Tragic
reply to post by ChaosMagician

 

Chaos - In your last post you stated that you cannot seem to think of anything positive while being bogged down with the negative. (Hope I got that correct) There is an old trick that I have implemented at times for myself and others in my life for situations like this.

It's as simple as some sticky notes (post-its). Write something positive and uplifting, then place them in places you are sure to see them throughout the day. Something that will remind you to take a deep breath, relax and focus on bigger better things. The more you focus on the negative, the more power and life force you give it. I understand that some things just cannot be shrugged off or ignored. That is fine. Difficulties build character, take it as a learning lesson and handle them to the best of your ability. But to allow them to take over will do you nor anyone else any good. It's hard but remember that you're strong enough to overcome anything.

Love you all to pieces!

Panda - Welcome to the thread hon. You're only 16? hehe Honestly, if I were you I'd be thrilled if I was 16 and already knowing the advantages of meditation and such.

I might try that as well. the first thing I did was call my mother to ask her about some things concerning work but I couldn't get a hold of her. After I finally did get a hold of her she told me she was going to make me some pies for Christmas.

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by truthseeker1984

 

Thanks for the compliment. When I read it I almost fell out my chair that you said something nice to me.

hahahahah, just kidding.

Those words were completely forced. Or farced, depending on how you look at it. Just kidding. It was great advice. But we'd better get back to fighting, or else people are going to think something is wrong....

Ceri, still working on a response to you. I'll be back on later to give you some stuff to "chew on."



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

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I'm interested in this work you and Klain are doing, What does it entail?

Makes me curious!

Originally posted by Gradius Maximus
reply to post by truthseeker1984

 

I'm interested in this work you and Klain are doing, What does it entail?

Makes me curious!

I really don't want to go into too many details, but let's put it this way: it is the culmination of the purpose of this thread in the first place. Once we're done with it, we'll link it so everybody can see. Think of it as a late Christmas present.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

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Think of it as a late Christmas present.
Peace be with you.
-truthseeker



OM NOM NOMS I WANTS IT NOW!!

No...I can wait...I look forward to it though.

You and I will be working on more cases soon I think.

Something always comes up during the dark time

TS, don't worry about a response to me. It's no biggie and if it is taking that long to come up with something it is not worth the effort. You are busy and that's ok. I look forward to the project info.

I had an absolutely fulfilling day today.

Met three new spirit animals in an out of the blue shaman journey.

Had a bunch of other things "click" into place. Like I literally felt the click.

Plus, I got TWO special gecko lullabies sang to me tonight from the geckos at my house.

I'm feeling positively excited for this weekend.

Good luck all.

Originally posted by SolarE-Souljah
I had an absolutely fulfilling day today.

Met three new spirit animals in an out of the blue shaman journey.

Had a bunch of other things "click" into place. Like I literally felt the click.

Plus, I got TWO special gecko lullabies sang to me tonight from the geckos at my house.

I'm feeling positively excited for this weekend.

Good luck all.

As I've said before I am not lucky enough to experience things you have. Can you tell me what the gecko lullabies sound like?

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Nice one Solar E, from reading your posts I think you and I would have great experiences if we were neighbors.

Are you using music or drum/rattle to journey or are you using a meditative state of mind?

Quite often I am able to journey without any exterior stimulus or even just from tapping my foot or change in my pocket. Do you ever dance or sing while you journey?

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You should try hearing the song of things around you sometime Amc. I am on the path of plant spirit medicine, which involves using the spirit of a plant. Firstly you find a plant that just feels good to be around, make sure its not poisonous. Eating a small piece of it, sit still for a time and listen for the new voice in your tangle of thoughts. It should manifest as a feeling, which translates into a song. Singing that song while holding the plant physically in your hand is a powerful form of plant spirit medicine and it can be applied to many instances, although I'm not sure how your clients would feel if you started singing and rubbing a piece of cedar leaves on their back, I on the other hand would think thats awesomely normal.

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Thanks GM, I will try that over the weekend. Sounds like a fun experience.

Originally posted by Ceriddwen
So, you all know that I have had encounters with something on and off again while I sleep. It has been a while now, but it happened again last night. I was in a dream that involved a place I have visited several times in my dreams, though I have never physically been there. I laid down to sleep in the dream and was blanketed from behind by something that was heavy and felt very dark to me. I kept saying in the dream, I can't breathe, I can't breathe, and it was true, I was suffocating from the weight and the darkness of it. As soon as I realized it was truly happening and that I wasn't breathing, I, both in the dream and in reality, made myself stop and take a deep breath. Then another and another until the panic passed and I was breathing normally again. The pressure lifted from me and the darkness disappeared and I opened my eyes to see the dawn in this reality. I felt triumphant and powerful, and I felt that I accomplished something important. I controlled the situation entirely, as soon as I realized what was going on. Within five minutes, I was back asleep, without the amulet, and nothing else happened, other than that I returned to the place I was in before and finished up the dream. If TS or Seeker or GM has any idea what this thing is that keeps testing me, I would appreciate some insight. Sometimes it looks demonic as I have written here, and other times, like last night, it is a dark heavy presence. Does that sound familiar to you? And for the sleep paralysis folks, it wasn't. I was thrashing like a caged animal. I could move just fine, just couldn't get it off of me until I controlled myself.

I always answer inquiries, Ceri. You know that!

Well, after meditating on the topic quite a bit, I think it might be safe to say that you need to get some power stones, as everybody else was talking about. Quartz and Garnet are your friends as well as Obsidian (any shiny black volcanic rock). This thing is obviously not leaving you alone, and it's disturbing your sleep patterns. I've woken up some nights with the feeling of trying to breathe through a wet blanket. I'd be hyperventilating, and have no recollection of the dreams prior to the incident...only the feeling of something in my room with me. This has happened to me roughly four or five times in the past two months. I stopped wearing my garnet ring shortly after the last disturbance, and they seem to have gone away for the most part. I placed it in a small locket box in the shape of a bronze elephant. I've permanently charged this locket box with energy to cleanse and heal, and I routinely put my stones in it for a good cleansing. I chose the elephant because:

A) An elephant never forgets (which helps with the permanent charging).
B) An elephant is a very powerful animal, and has the ability to fend off an entire pride of lions through sheer strength and strength of will.

The brute force of this trinket is enough to ward off and cleanse any negative energies from the stones that I use.

I would recommend firstly getting a dreamcatcher if you don't already have one (they seem to work very well to ward off negative feelings), and then I would recommend doing a full cleansing of your living areas using either a bundle of white sage, or through your intent. If and when this thing comes back, fight it back. Swear at it, rage at it, scream at it. The more energy of intent that you put into fighting this thing, the less powerful it will become.

It may sound extreme to use anger, but anger is a very powerful emotion, and when focused with intent, your energy raises to a level that scares certain lower level entities (as this one sounds like to me). This is your home, and this thing doesn't belong. You may think you're crazy for shouting at the darkness (and perhaps your neighbors will too), but this is the best method to getting rid of pesky little things. Of course, you always run the risk of having it be something greater than a lower vibrational energy, but those things are far and few between, and aren't usually bothered with "regular people." They typically go for those that are "asking for it." You're not "asking for it", so I don't think you have anything to worry about.

That is about all I have on the matter without writing a book, so remember: Quartz, Garnet, and Obsidian, and possibly a dreamcatcher.


Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

I have the stones covered, and the dreamcatcher. I haven't used any stones other than the garnet, but will take care of getting the others out. Why do you think this thing might be doing this? Any clues? It has just started this year. Thank you for the input!