A Strange Feeling as of Late...

Originally posted by klain

Originally posted by Gradius Maximus

Originally posted by nivekronnoco
reply to post by truthseeker1984

 

You have a brain tumor...
It is killing you...
Best of luck.

Not true - It is more likely tension in the shoulders and neck area that blocks the flow of blood to the brain temporarily causing pain. In all my medical interactions, no one with migranes has a brain tumor.

Shame on you for claiming to know a medical condition and deliver a death sentence without medical information.

Heres a list of symptoms:

www.nhs.uk...

I know headaches and migraines are not the same things, but I suffer from migraines and had to have some tests done to test my reflexes, if they were off I would of needed to have a brain scan.

I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong I'm just putting the information out there.

scary stuff. I have had some of those symptoms...pressure headaches, nausea, stiff neck, variety of nerve symptoms, difficulty speaking and more. There was a time when i actually thought i could feel a brain tumor in my head. I could feel the nerves going up from the roof of my mouth... always aching... on top of general pressure. it made talking difficult and sometimes it felt like I could just start crying at the drop of a hat from the pain in that area... that area you feel when you are about to speak or about to cry. It felt like those nerves were in a state of triggered suspension. It was painful. To deal with it I used to pretend there was a diamond in the center of my head... or that it was turning into a diamond. Getting smaller and harder the more I would keep my mind focused....as opposed to some lump of icky stuff. I would imagine it rolling like a ball... a blue diamond sphere... and it would ease the pain. It seemed to relax something inside my head.

perhaps it was placebo effect... for all i know I could have been dehydrated and just having a bad headache among other symptoms. Focusing helped me to concentrate though. helped not despair and look for solutions to improve my general health instead of feeling helpless.

I believe that even things like terrible medical problems can be resolved without drastic measures, though. If I found out that i had a brain tumor, I would doubtfully let them remove it... especially if it were in certain areas that don't have a very good prognosis. Some doctors may be trustworthy but some doctors only trust themselves and they will take huge risks because they have no faith in any other answers outside of their practice. Many people who are told that they will die soon have lived a long time without doing what the doctor recommended. In the case of brain cancer, they seem to be more inclined to take drastic measures to try to get it out before it spreads.

anyway... not to ramble, just had some thoughts on brain tumors.

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not sure if your being sarcastic or not, you can't tell for sure by looking at typed words. Since I know I have been misunderstood here I did not want to be a hypocrite.

What makes you come to that conclusion?

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where did you nice shiney red warn badge go?

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I don't know what that was, I didn't put it there. I have no idea how it got on and got off. Do you?

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When can we expect to see that project you've been working on with truthseeker?

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by klain

 

When can we expect to see that project you've been working on with truthseeker?

It's going to take a while. The data I'm compiling is going to take some time for me to put together, and with my limited schedule this time of year, with playing Christmas gigs with my brass quintet, substitute teaching, and working at the community center, we probably won't be able to release our findings until early January at the soonest. It's a work in progress, so I'm going to ask everybody to be patient.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

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Understood, it is a busy time. Do you know what the red thing Klain is referring to was?

amc -
It was refering to your little red warning badge over on your profile pic.
Seems you've behaved yourself long enough to come out of time out
Seriously though, I'm glad things have calmed down and we can all speak to each other with no hostility.
Happy to have you here amc.

Love you all to pieces

Right as I was drifting off to sleep last night, I heard a very clear voice in my head say the following:

"Fool Landon Byes." The last word may have been "lies"

Anyone get anything out of that quote? Didn't really resonate with me, but I decided I should write it down.

Originally posted by truthseeker1984

Originally posted by amc621
reply to post by klain

 

When can we expect to see that project you've been working on with truthseeker?

It's going to take a while. The data I'm compiling is going to take some time for me to put together, and with my limited schedule this time of year, with playing Christmas gigs with my brass quintet, substitute teaching, and working at the community center, we probably won't be able to release our findings until early January at the soonest. It's a work in progress, so I'm going to ask everybody to be patient.



Peace be with you.

-truthseeker

Working in schools is so demanding sometimes, I work in a school as a technician but you never run out of things to do, I'm also studying a full time course in the evening with coursework piling up. I'll make sure "The thing" is set up by Sunday in theory.

Originally posted by SolarE-Souljah
Right as I was drifting off to sleep last night, I heard a very clear voice in my head say the following:

"Fool Landon Byes." The last word may have been "lies"

Anyone get anything out of that quote? Didn't really resonate with me, but I decided I should write it down.

Do you live in the Maryland area? There is a Landon School. Fools of Landon lies would make sense. The name Landon is of English origin, Landon means "from the long hill" Do you know someone who lives on a hill?

The only other thing I found is Landon homes. Do you know someone in the housing market? Maybe someone you know is looking to buy (i/o byes) a Landon home and there is something wrong with it.

Originally posted by SeekerofTruth101
reply to post by Rishiana

 

Dear Rishiana,

What you are describing is only a 'natural' phenomon common among mankind - sleep paralysis. Our infantile stage of comprehension in science is still far from complete, even though many in the scientific field claim that it happens when we are absolutely fatigue, which is not conclusive evidence till today.

Me, an insignificant nobody, can only share my own experiences and hope that it may help you overcome such situations.

In my younger and egoistical immature days, where I believe I am the greatest with no one above me, I had never listened to advices, much to my regret in my wasted youthful years, which I can only attribute it to a greater learning experience in life itself, for in only making mistakes does one learn on a personal basis on several issues of life.

More so on 'sleep paralysis'. I suffered much in those younger days and feared sleep for like you, I exhibit such behaviours. But fortunately, I was made known to greater powers that exists other than me, and that is our Creator.

I realised that each time whenever I suffered from sleep paralysis, only by calling upon His name does the paralysis disappears, no matter how frightening the experience can be. I wake up to reality, and not to some different layers of sleep. I recovered and learnt enough. Each time such paralysis happens, I do the same, and gradually, over the years, I had never suffered from it, no matter how fatigue I can ever put myself in the real world.

Within the spiritual realm, we are gradually understanding with small steps on how the mind works. They are receptive of EMP signals as well as giving off such signals as proven by science and by recently german scientists who made the mind create words on a computer screen just by thoughts, hooked up to an interface alone.

We are a civilisation of mere thousands of years, and it would be foolish to believe that we are the only civilisation in the Universe, for the Universe is billions of years if not trillions of years in Earth years term and that civilisations that exists only at the same point of time as us. They may had been far more advance than us, and the EMP field, which only we mankind in this generation is discovering, is a way such beings are using to either help or hinder us.

Thus, in order that you may be helped, perhaps you may want to seek and take that 'leap of faith' on higher powers than yourself. Our Creator has many names and comes in many forms throughout our civilisation, across geological barriers, stage of developement and traditions. Try acknowledging Him in your terms on the basis of free will that we humans, whom are only His children and may your paralysis be stopped. No father would abandon his child, more so the powerful Being whom created all.

And when you had recovered, do spread the word, but only on your free will. to help others I do not know how long more I will be allowed to live, but I am not important. What I had said had only been words past down from awakened generations eons past.

We can win this spirtual fight easily through beliefs and faith, and then focus on the mortal fight for humanity, which is more vital, as those whom surrendered to twisted EMP fields are far more dangerous to mankind. But we only need to care for our loved ones and the fight will be won, for your loved ones, whom are your family, relatives and friends are related to every human race.

Good Luck, take care, and may you succeed. Have courage, Me and many others, even though strangers, will be with you, for we the awakened care. Take care and cheers! :-)

Mhmm.... you lost me XD. Completely lost me as does my mother when she goes ranting about the apparent god >,> I only know of a few different gods in the astral realm, and even then I have yet to meet or see that one god whom you speak of. That and if this paralysis occurs again I will just be ready with my meditating rituals I use to control and harness my anger and emotions. Thank you very much for your concern and for trying to help me. Good luck in your quest though and don't die >,> Dieing if you can avoid it is courage. Letting that overcome you shows weakness.

someone once told me that calling on jesus would make you snap out of sleep paralysis. I tried it and it worked... a couple of times, making me certain there was something to it... then I tried it again and it persisted. I mean really persisted. I think it might give you courage and strength but i don't think it's just going to work like magic. It's like saying that if you pray hard enough, no one will ever die. That's not true and God will let it happen and maybe God also lets sleep paralysis happen. maybe there is a reason... something to think about.


On a completely different note... I am out of sorts. I'm going to have to do something about it. not sure what. I get negative vibes from people today which makes me think I did something wrong. Now I feel the negativity inside me. It seems I don't have much of a reason but I am downright pissed off. I'm not sure what to do about it but it will be processed one way or the other and I'm concerned that I'm going to re-project this negativity and look like there is something #ing wrong with me even though it seems to be coming from other people. I have absolutely no idea how to externalize it. If I don't externalize it, it will still show... it will show even more than if I just started being a bitch to everyone. If I hide it, even if I put forth the best possible effort to do just that... it will show... it will show- it will show- it will show!... and it will confuse. I'm #ing mad and I don't know what to do.

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So what can you do to not let it show? Can you make the conscious decision to regulate yourself and your emotions enough to not let it show? Will you? Only you can control that. Let us know please!

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If there is anything I can do to help with the project, please let me know. My vacation is over, but I am online anyway when I am off usually, so I have some time.

So, you all know that I have had encounters with something on and off again while I sleep. It has been a while now, but it happened again last night. I was in a dream that involved a place I have visited several times in my dreams, though I have never physically been there. I laid down to sleep in the dream and was blanketed from behind by something that was heavy and felt very dark to me. I kept saying in the dream, I can't breathe, I can't breathe, and it was true, I was suffocating from the weight and the darkness of it. As soon as I realized it was truly happening and that I wasn't breathing, I, both in the dream and in reality, made myself stop and take a deep breath. Then another and another until the panic passed and I was breathing normally again. The pressure lifted from me and the darkness disappeared and I opened my eyes to see the dawn in this reality. I felt triumphant and powerful, and I felt that I accomplished something important. I controlled the situation entirely, as soon as I realized what was going on. Within five minutes, I was back asleep, without the amulet, and nothing else happened, other than that I returned to the place I was in before and finished up the dream. If TS or Seeker or GM has any idea what this thing is that keeps testing me, I would appreciate some insight. Sometimes it looks demonic as I have written here, and other times, like last night, it is a dark heavy presence. Does that sound familiar to you? And for the sleep paralysis folks, it wasn't. I was thrashing like a caged animal. I could move just fine, just couldn't get it off of me until I controlled myself.

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Chaos - It's a difficult thing to deal with internally when other's anger gets redistributed to you. I hate it myself. Ok, I know this sounds silly and you may even have people look at you and laugh a little BUT I sing when I am dealing with this. I don't just sing, I sing as loud as I want and dance. It's a way to get out all that extra energy and I see it as a way to get it out without all the negativity that it was brought in with. I hope it helps. It ertainly can't hurt to try. I hope you feel better soon and sending you good energy your way.

Originally posted by Tragic
reply to post by ChaosMagician

 

Chaos - It's a difficult thing to deal with internally when other's anger gets redistributed to you. I hate it myself. Ok, I know this sounds silly and you may even have people look at you and laugh a little BUT I sing when I am dealing with this. I don't just sing, I sing as loud as I want and dance. It's a way to get out all that extra energy and I see it as a way to get it out without all the negativity that it was brought in with. I hope it helps. It ertainly can't hurt to try. I hope you feel better soon and sending you good energy your way.

You know, I like to sing... and i got home early and was planning on doing just that, that is before the lingering suspicions lately that something was wrong... actually was something wrong.
I came home in plenty of time to do just that, but at that point... I didn't feel like it at all. I didn't feel like doing anything. I felt drained and discouraged because I thought everything was going well but some people are not so easy to read. I'm usually able to read most people but there are particulars around me that seem to want to hide things really really bad... and I can't understand why. I feel as though that what I'm reading is suspicion of me. That is all I can make it out to be and I am disappointed because it might cause problems just when I thought things were looking up. I'm afraid the situation now will completely collapse and that will be very disappointing.
Thank you for your kind words and positive thoughts. It is what I need right now.

As for controlling it, to the above poster whose name I won't yet try to spell at this point.... I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve. The more I try to control a negative emotion the more I feel wrinkles in my brow. the more I try to relax the ridges in my brow, the more distant I become and the more obvious it is that I am trying to control something. I am in complete control of my actions, but I am extremely easy to read as far as emotions are concerned.... but when others don't know me and they can clearly read that something is wrong, they might not ask. they may assume I am plotting or pitting against them when al I'm trying to do is sort the situation out or control it until it sorts itself out. i don't want people walking around with the wrong idea but it seems so often they do... they read me but they have no idea what I'm thinking. I could be happy but they have no idea why. if they are not the type to ask (and believe me, these do NOT seem to be the type to ask)... I don't know. I don't know what's going to happen now. At all. I just like a tad more communication then not speaking at all. I hate that. When I get stand offish towards others, I know exactly what it means... and it's not good at all. It's not the way i am... but it is the way I have been towards others in the same vicinity. Same company. I'm sure others know me strictly by that behavior but those people should be certain that they have done something to make me act that way toward them... because my feelings on it are that they have. they absolutely were deserving of my cold shoulder in times past and there should be no mistake about it. i can only assume that when someone gives a cold shoulder, it means something... right?

so what have I done? what did I do wrong?... it's the only logical question I can come up with to ask them.

My daily meditations help but i'm 16 and my highschool is so full of ignorance, everywhere around me I see inflated ego's stupidity and ignorance, they could tell you who's going out with who and who did what at a party, but they couldn't tell you one thing that happened in the news, none of our politicians, or the name of our vice president.

I didn't read everything, but usually when I'm angry I come to my room, close the door and open Ultrastar and play. Ultrastar because I don't own any console but I also go to my best friend to play MY singstars and OUR Rockband 3 (we buy games 50-50). Then, I sing my lungs out till I'm happy again, and go outside. If I can't come to my home or go to my best friend's, I just put my earphones on and start to walk, singing out loud from nowhee to nowhere, then take a bus and come back home.

I freaking love to sing, my dad's a singer, also his brothers and my brothers. I never had former singing lessons, just some practise at school's chorus... some pleople says I have a pretty good voice, I don't like it too much because it doesn't works for te songs I like. I always sound too antsy and happy when singing... even sad songs!. Sometimes I also think I sing like one of the Bee Gees but people tells me I sing like Amy Lee from Evanescence... thing that I doubt.

In a paralell universe I'm a singer, there's no doubt on that! hahahaha

Nobody else paid attention to the weird symbol I posted yesterday :'(... halp please T_T!?

-Cags