overwhelmed with unity

ATS, Hello to all the weaver's!

I was'nt planning on doing an introduction but I feel the need to write to the like minds here.

Today (feb 8th) is my Birthday, my 19th to be exact!
A little background on myself:
born in '91 I was conceived into the material world
Such a place I thought nothing untill..
progressively my eyes were opened and paths I walked down and people i would converse with began to Unravel a new truth.
This past year (09) help intense revaltions and following upto last night thigs started to line up..
I was focused on the pineal gland after a member had posted about the pineal gland and i made a short post on how i was experienceing " strange occounces" in my reality.. (feeling of not being?)
Anyhow im trying to rush to this so im sorry that i dont make much sence, i've been sobbing allday...

My head hit the pillow last night, im thinking about how I have to get upto work and Life's drag.. I was not really that close to sleeping nor was I very relaxed..
without warning my crown chakra started beating.. (This i have never felt before aside from slight twitches i would get when practicing Chakra warm ups) Never before....
It would best be described by me as an old film real projecting turning on 'Dud....dud...dud..dud.du.du.dududududududud" as it speeds up and the beat exalerhates to an thumping pulse, there was no denying it, you know once its happend!
I resisted from the "fright" and held myself in there for all of one minute, it reached a point of intencity where coulor formed and pictures and thought started to evolve, I have a memry of seeing eqyption hieroglyhs as the eye of Ra showed himself the whole time in the background,
I also have a memeory of pictures of four people in a row (much like a small faimily tree all of them from what i can memorize as male, though i have the feeling the picture was alot bigger I can remeber one of the bearded faces paticualy, medieval in dressage from what I could makeout)
I felt the need to return as I knew I have opened "The Door" Im having great trouble taking about it or putting it into words but i came back through the Womb and i had the sensation of being born again, Im still in shock and awoke confused and crying.. Im so lucky i still live at home and have my mother here, I had to call her and she came and comforted me, Im so glad she has this understanding to..
I have to leave it at that for now, I still feel exausted!
Thanks for the help.. I know someone was there with me..

(sorry for the grammer etc.. but im sure if its happend to you and you wernt expecting it you'll know where im at)

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Welcome!!

If you have any questions, just message me.


Born in 91? Happy bday!
In 91 I was rocking out to Nirvana, discovering who I was, and being very nervous about Junior High!

reply to post by InertiaZero


thanks alot friend, Its just so scary when u realise this new state of concious.. Its especially hard to goto work when I see my friend carrying on none the wiser.. im afflicted with almost complete confusion to now know, I am in the Matrix haha
my journey has just began..

Welcome to the jungle.

Just please remember that we all have seperate paths on this great journey we call life. Many forget that.


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reply to post by Watcher-In-The-Shadows



ahh yes, i have only recently in the past week discorved the laws of free will... I must obide!
I can only now see how important these more metaphysical rules are.

but seriously i feel as though my life before this (important because it's led to this ofcourse) was just a joke,, a big fat lie.. i've taken the red pill and theres no going back!!

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reply to post by paine


Welcome sir! It will get better. Remain compassionate for those who have yet to awaken to the beauty of life. They will come around in time; even if it's after they leave this life. Such is the nature of reality. All in due time.

reply to post by paine


Hi, Paine,

Welcome!

Well, I think what you are experiencing is called "Spiritual Emergency."

The same thing happened to me over and over again...I didn't know what was going on....terrified the daylights out of me....my moods were going up and down, up an down....

I ended up checking myself into a mental hospital because I thought I was going crazy. So did the doctors. They diagnosed me with bipolar and put me on meds, but nothing worked. I kept trying to tell them about my mystical experiences, but nobody believed me.

Finally, I started doing hypnosis, homeopathy, hypnotherapy, and that worked.

What I really wish I had, though, back then, was a copy of the book called "Spiritual Emergnecy" by Dr. Stanislof Grof, a psychiatrist who specializes in spiritual emergency.

There are basically 8 or 9 different types of spiritual emergencies that he describes in the book, and when I read it, I recognized that I had had about 5 or 6 of them. I always said I wished I had that book when I was going through what I was going through, but at least I found it in 2007.

I highly recommend buying the book on Amazon.com. It will at least help you understand what might be happening to you.

Of course, if you feel that your life is in danger, go to the ER or call a doctor. but if you are just confused and don't understand what's happening to you, and think you might be experiencing a psychic awakening or a spiritual awakening gone awry, I'd start by reading this book.

Homeopathy can also help with spiritual emergency....there are quite a few remedies that can be used for spiritual emergency, although I would recommend seeing a certified homeopath for that.

Hope that helps....

reply to post by nikiano


Thank you very much for these words and i will check the book out.
I have a close friend to me who has the same problem, he's coming up 30 and they diagnosed him with bi-polar years ago and gave him all the meds which never really worked, it's hard to watch his great potential quashed by the script drugs..
I will looke at homepathy to. there is lots of times in life i have let addiction get the better of me already so i would like to try not consult a doctor.. if it wasnt for my mothor i would already be in the health system after this, but my soul/sprit is just squiting its eyes open by the feel of it

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reply to post by nikiano


ah yes my friend, I have a start atleast..

www.spiritualemergence.org.au...

the bottom of the page defines emergence and emgency...
I am definatly in an emergency

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