reply to post by butterflycatcher
It depends of the speed at which I am reading. I can scan things can get just the words coming into my head and being interpreted. Mostly though, I
hear the sounds of the words at a very high rate of speed, but not with anyone's voice. No particularities to the voice, just the sounds of the
words, and too fast to ever be pronounced correctly by a human. Almost like a computer on fast forward.
Now at times I'll go into a trance while reading and only the raw data gets in. At such times, once I come out of it, I know I have been reading, but
the memory of the act of reading is not there. Also in this trance my own inner ideas from under the surface bubble up and mix in with what I am
reading so they're both coming in at once, but separated as to which was which.
Now I remember the interesting case of a woman named Jessica interviewed by Project Camelot. She said that when she's reading anything, it's like an
inner voice or spirit is reading for her, interpreting, adding notes and commentary, and THEN giving it to her conscious mind. I resonated highly with
this experience when I heard it, but this has really only happened to me a few times in my life, all recently. I think it's a higher, more
trance-like form of what I can only sometimes do. So I think if I work at it, I might be able to reach that state.
Incidentally, when someone is talking to me in life, some part of my mind is seeing all their words, displaying them as a sentence, with spelling and
punctuation, and delivering it to the conscious that way. So if you turn to me and say "Yo Don, what's up?" a piece in the back of mind mind is
seeing this as if it were reading a book. And the sound is always saved. My consciousness is leaning more toward sound and less toward vision than
most people, so whenever a person talks to me, the sound file is saved. So I can go back and repeat it weeks or months later (but not usually years)
with the same inflections and such as you had originally put in. I guess at some point it just became important to save that data. I didn't have any
friends as a child or really talk to anyone much. Or maybe it's because as a youth I so often related to people through MUDs and through books? Also
words are just of a very paramount importance in my mind in general.
So hey, that was a lot of data, I hope it helped. And kudos for the idea. I think this will be a very interesting thread.
Edit: Just wanted to add, when I
think it's actual vocal words, but again with no particular voices. No tone, inflection, anything remotely
human like that. But the sounds of sounding out the words are still there. And often many overrunning each other. I think there are probably at least
two, often three series of thoughts going through my head at any one moment. Like, one of them will be silent, raw data, one will be just the faint
quiet, toneless whispers of some words I was thinking about, and one I will be actually almost
listening to and will have the words all sounded
out and with image pictures, videos or whatever comes to mind. I guess they usually call that the conscious mind? But it's not the only one, it's
just like twice as loud as the others.
It took me about 25 years of life to really start thinking about this and for me to realize that when people heard "voices " in their head in the
past it may not have been like they show on TV with the actual human voices. It really could just have been ideas that didn't
seem like their
own.
Which led me to the idea that I then, have "voices" in my head too, and so I might be crazy. But crazy is just a word for anything outside the
comfort bubble, and so I decided that "crazy" is everything I ever wanted to be.
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