bad vibes this week, unusual for me. how to shake it?

So this summer and especially this last month i've bene on such a natural high, never felt a more amazing love.. just been so content and my love and positivity had been addicting to everyone around me.. raelly in control with my emotions and i chose love.. that amazing beautiful love that is out of control and makes you talk to and greet strangers and fills you with confidence. that love that changes peoples bad moods by them just being near yourself... that love that enables you to give the best advice... I really had forgot how to be depressed.

but this last week something has been bugging me. luckily it hasn't lasted the whole day and parts of the day i reclaimed my emotions and felt the love and happiness again.. this summer i been practicing switching out of negative thoughts and stopping myself before even completing negative thoughts but this last week it has been a bit more difficult.. some of you might say, oh you cant exp the good or know what it is without feeling the bad, but i felt bad before and i'm just saying that this whole month and most of the summer i been able to keep the supreme high love feeling. i dunno... i cant snap out of this one because i cannot understand what is bringing these emotions on, and its frusturating... its like i lost my vibe again.. i know it will come back, that is a fact, i just want to enduce it sooner then later. or is it truly out of control?

any thoughts?

explore my thoughts a bit more on my youtube.com/hautmess

no this isnt a promo for my youtube but i explain a lot of my feelings there, maybe it might give u some clues to what advice i would need at this point in my now.


PS: sorry for spelling mistakes but i aint writing no essay or anything here.

[edit on 1-10-2009 by hautmess]

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You know, I've been actually feeling that too this past week. The weathers just looked ugly the past few days. It was just gray and dark. I don't know, but I had a feeling of it just being ominous or something. It doesn't make a lot of sense, but that's the only way I can describe it in words. I've talked to a couple people and they've been feeling the same sort of thing this past week as well. Something seemed off balance in a way. I was quite happy this summer and tried to spread some positivity whenever I could and I've felt those highs that you were talking about, but it seems like that's slowly going away for the time being. People on here have been saying that for a while now though, so I would still take it with a grain of salt and continue to live your life trying to be happy and positive. When you've lost that, they've already won. They don't even have to lift a finger.

I hear you. I also have been attending more intensly to ridding myself of negativity.

Yesterday was especially bad as I could not relax and meditate properly. I felt like I was being poked by millions of needles from the inside. I was agitated more than usual. For the past week there would always be severe disturbances that I had to attend to-- phone calls, cat knocking things over, etc. Now, today I feel a bit sick. I'll survive though. I figure it is just part of my personal tribulation.

It seems that perhaps others are on a similar timeline with this.

When meditating yesterday, after I increased my resolve manyfold, I heard a voice say, "Ok, let's get out of here."

Hmmm...

I think we're all feeling this to some extent. Everyone in our home has been snappish and fatigued. We're all fairly sensitive people, all have some form of extrasensory perception.

This week though I've felt quite a lot of pain in my major and minor chakras as well as in a lot of my acupuncture points, which are also really chakras too. These pains start on the left side and progress around to the right and seemingly exit the toes on my right foot over the course of the day. Anyone else notice similar?

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Maybe it was about earthquakes and the tsunami?

I had dreams the night before it happened.

But keep on enjoying your life.

I don't know. I have experienced this lately. I've just tried to sort out whatever was bothering me. Things will happen. Life will change. You really have to make the best out of your life. You shouldn't be so focused on what other people think of you. Just try to enjoy life how you feel want to. I think once you get back to the swing of things you'll get start enjoying things again.

I'll stop short of saying that I enjoy being in depressive moods (ok, maybe I enjoy it a little ), but I've at least grown to accept the feeling.

The feeling is mostly in your gut... You may think negative things, but the source of it seems to be that circling/draining/sinking feeling in your gut... no?.....

Don't be attached to happiness too much. It comes and goes. But you can always be content. Which is just, being. Enjoying the experience, of what it feels like to be alive. When I'm depressed, I like to think of stars in the dark depths of space, lonely and crying out through space, shining on alone. I don't know what that does, but it's a pretty thought and it resonates with me.

Everything is part of God, including feeling depressed. God is the master of depression, feels it worse than anything else, but always embraces it and lets it be, because here it still is, in this creation! It is a tough thing to realize and accept, but once you do, it is a source of infinite strength. You are become a rock.

so it wasn't just me and my acquaintances, right?
This week has been so weird, i haven't had any dream! I'm not resting properly and everything is going insanely bad, not only with my life but with everybody. I have a weird "gut feeling" too.

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Ok.... I need to clarify...

Are you feeling depressed OR are you speaking about another sensation?

I ask as my reply would differ from depression to being "out of tune"... you do make a great point about changing your perspective on goals.

Everyone is bipolar to some degree.
Don't worry about a thing.
It's either all good or all bad,but we have computers so we are the elite!

This may not be relevent, but I have found of late that there is much to be said about understanding that the alignment of the planets do have a somewhat significant effect on us. If, like me, you feel that you are a part of a larger living organism, then it makes sense that these massive bodies will have a pull on you, think for example how we are made up mostly of water and that as the moon affects the tides, then it too must have an impact on our own water content. There have been a number of powerful alignments and conjunctions over the summer that have, according to those who study these things, had a very positive effect on us, but those alignments are constantly shifting and from time to time, you can feel the changes being rung, however well you maintain your inner or psychological balance you still may need to make adjustments to accommodate those changes.

Additionally, I use the lesson of the Compassionate Heart daily, drawing in negativity and expelling positivity, it is by no means fail safe, but it is active and for me, through what has been a difficult time, hugely helpful.

I hope you regain your balance soon.

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It could very well have something to do with the alignment of the planets, the moon, etc. I go through cycles myself and even with all the meditating I try to do I still get in mental ruts. Im not even having a terrible day, nothing has really gone "wrong" but there is just a weird feeling in my gut.

I figured out why this happens to me and what I do works for me 99% of the time. What your feeling is solely biological. It has nothing to do with who you are. If you can stop yourself from labeling the bodily reaction as a "bad" thing, you change everything. Become aware of the feeling in your body. Feel it for what it is. The mind likes to put labels on it and say "oh this must be depression, I am feeling just awful".....and you will.

If you can do this...problem solved. Now the good news. When I or others I have helped get this feeling, it actually turns out to be a good thing because what follows this feeling is usually a great change or shift in awareness. I know its cliche, but look of the silver lining in everything you do. This feeling of greif is usually followed by something transforming if you can find it. If you keep labeling and get down on yourself you could end up staying in that funk for a lot longer than you would like.

Look for that lesson to be learned, or that situation to be great, or a change that needs to take place in your life and GO FOR IT. Your body is telling you something, you just need to listen carefully and not label it as good or bad...it just is. Are you up for the challenge?

Originally posted by bringthelight
I figured out why this happens to me and what I do works for me 99% of the time. What your feeling is solely biological. It has nothing to do with who you are. If you can stop yourself from labeling the bodily reaction as a "bad" thing, you change everything.

Exactly, which is what I did. Actually the first Buddhist meditation I ever tried was a meditation for depression, that you just focus all of your awareness upon the feeling of being depressed, learn how it feels, and then learn to accept it as a natural part of being human.

The monkey mind is always darting from here to there to avoid the sensation of being depressed. It says, "I'm bored," "there is nothing to do," "no one wants to be with me," "no one likes me," and darts back and forth between those and other classic depressive thoughts. Not because any of it is true, useful information, or anything like that. But because in a depressed state, unless YOU take reigns of your awareness and thoughts/mind, your BODY (and thus the biological/chemical feeling of depression) takes its own reign over YOU.

Become aware of the feeling in your body. Feel it for what it is. The mind likes to put labels on it and say "oh this must be depression, I am feeling just awful".....and you will.

Exactly. Don't think those things. It's your depression doing the thinking, not you. Which may sound odd at first but never when you consider your body is actually made up of billions/trillions of separate parts. Much of what your body does is automatic chemistry and you have to get around it however you can.

I also 100% agree that depression is the pre-cursor to spiritual advancement. It's an opportunity to fine-tune the things in your life that bring you suffering. Ie to cut them out. Attachment brings suffering. "Detachment" brings... well, detachment.

Maybe you should look into your diet. there may very well be something in your diet that is giving you highs and lows. Check the chemical contents in what ever you eat or drink.

THANK YOU for your replies! I just read them all today and I must add that EVERYONE i talked with over this last weekend was also having a bad week and a lot of people are glad it is over..

I could only think that it must of been some kinda of planetary alignment or a major issue withing humanity's mind. The comment about the tsunami gave me a eureka moment. It could of possibly been a combination of the two.. or somethign else all together.

I never fully came to a conclusion on what was throwing my vibe off but, I regained my happiness over the weekend and things have felt back to normal and less rocky as they had been that week. The full moon was amazing and the weather had cleared up and the sun was shining and still has been until today.


When i was in the funk last week, I had to get out and converse with friends about it and the more i did it the more points of views other then my own came to me.

One friend reminded me that its not all about me, and that possibly i may have had to be in a funk to teach other people around me something else. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and the system of the universe and all creation as a whole knows what it is doing for the most part. And writing this now i'm starting to think that feelings and thoughts are more separate as then are whole.. It must be possible to be content with being while feeling depressed or down. Kinda like a tatoo.. Your experience the pain but thinking about the result, and that is what i think i learned over this last funk spell.. Needless to say the