posted on May, 29 2009 @ 01:30 AM
Not really sure to post this but feel free to move, sorry if it's the wrong subforum.
I've been a lurker on ATS since 2005, i've read a lot of threads here though I haven't really said much myself.
One of the things I think most people can agree with is that we all know someone/something is controlling our daily lives or has some sort of
"influence" on our government.
We cannot all come to a conclusion as the New World Order ranges from the Anti-Christ to the Zionist/Jewish conspiracy, Alien conspiracy, Illuminati,
UN, etc. etc. etc.
Even since I was a child, I knew something was wrong with our government and the authoritarian government. My dad was big into conspiracy and
survivalism. He was born into a Jewish family who thought he was a radical and being paranoid, his own family ended up betraying him in the end.
My dad was accused of a sex crime in 96 which resulted in the police coming to our home and he ended up barricading himself in the house with his
guns, after about an hour, the police had talked him out of it, imprisoned him and charged him with a felony. All his guns were destroyed.
DCFS wanted my testimony and I told them no to everything they asked me (as I was a child at the time).
My father ended up living a pretty horrible life, lost his job making 90,000 a year for a large drug corporation (Abbot labs) downtown in Chicago and
ended up committing suicide in March 2003.
I didn't really realize it until the Iraq war happened at the time (near my fathers death) which kind of gave me a wakeup call that something was
really suspicious about the fact we were going to war and made me question pretty much everything I had thought about our government.
Unfortunately, there are many groups I have tried to associate with and I don't know their true agenda. I've taken part in a few groups that believe
9/11 was a inside job and on occasion, this attracts other people from Neo Nazi groups or nationalist groups.
While I may have Jewish background from my dads side, I do not consider myself Jewish as my mother was German. It does make me a bit worried though
with some of the groups saying that they want to throw out the Zionists and then also include "Jews" in the description or state that a racial holy
war is required to cleanse America in the coming civil war.
I realize there is a problem and we all have a common enemy, but who exactly is the enemy? Where do I fit into all of this, when the SHTF, am I
screwed and on the target of the groups who oppose the federal government? I oppose the federal government and it's power as much as anyone else and
I'm a bit concerned what to do when the time comes.