I am afraid of going to hell

But you do believe in Jesus, you just don't realize it because you have never had it confirmed that he is something real to believe in, but God is true and can be verified wither people believe it or not.

True is true and is not dependent upon outside judgment to be known or verified. It is self evident.

Start with the name of Jesus which is over every name. Why over every name? Because Jesus means "Self Existent Salvation". "His name was on their foreheads"...He is always the head as a budding flower always opening and stepping into "his time".

Remember, if it is not truth, which is before you every single day. It is not true.
Learn the names, they all mean something that is shed over Adam (mankind).

Life goes forward in the blood and is required to be alive. The family tree is the tree of life. If it stops with you, you've found hell. Non existence....Like you never existed. God dwells with the living and reigns over such. He is spirit and the air you breath. This is your season to be his likeness. Make it count.

Peace