I wish I were Wall-E

I just got through watching Wall-E on my comp, it's a great movie, but it made me really sad, I'm an emotionally destroyed person, I know I'll never have a relationship where I find true love like that.
All of my past friendships have been with people who either liked me to hang around because I was funny, or someone who just wanted to use me (I used to shower my friends with gifts and money, it was one way I showed my love).
I've been through some things my entire life that have accumulated to destroying my ability to love, but I feel like it's still in there somewhere, I've dedicated my life to not having friends, to becoming a hermit, I don't want to have a relationship full of lies.

I know one major contribution to my being single is the fact that I'm fat and ugly, if I got rid of the fat, I'd still be ugly, I've had girlfriends before, but I feel they were just with me because of the things I gave them.



I'm not looking for advice or help or anything, I just needed to get it out, also, am I the only one like this? Is anyone else experiencing this?

-Lahara

reply to post by TheRandom1


You have to love yourself first. If you can get yourself to a place where you are happy with yourself, others will be too.

Good luck. I have felt similar despair in my life as well.

Ugh man that sucks. I'm in the position where I have to watch the person i love destroy her life bit by bit hoping one day she will finally stop and forgive herself and let go of the bad things that happened to her.

It really hurts, almost every day is a struggle, almost everyday my heart feels like its being ripped apart but i stick in there in the hope that she will finally let go of the past. Love sucks but i still wouldn't change it, if I had the choice to not care about her i wouldn't take it, ill always love her.

On topic (kind of) I used to think i was ugly, never quite fit in, had my friends but always a bit of a loner tbh. But then someone said i was cute you know, that pretty much said to me theres always someone out there who cares, someone who thinks you look great, someone who loves you.

Karlhungis is right though, you need to love yourself first, and be happy with yourself and if your not if theres something you dont like then you should change it, in the end only you can change the things you dont like.

Someday someone will love you for who you are... WOW that sounds really cliche and gay but it's true I think. Don't worry we all want to be Wall-E or someone else sometimes, especially when the reality of things brings us so low sometimes that it seems like the only thing to do is lay in bed and not get up.

P.S. Don't buy people things anymore. Spend it on yourself and making YOU happy.

Originally posted by Edn
Ugh man that sucks. I'm in the position where I have to watch the person i love destroy her life bit by bit hoping one day she will finally stop and forgive herself and let go of the bad things that happened to her.

It really hurts, almost every day is a struggle, almost everyday my heart feels like its being ripped apart but i stick in there in the hope that she will finally let go of the past. Love sucks but i still wouldn't change it, if I had the choice to not care about her i wouldn't take it, ill always love her.

This sounds like the exact same situation I found myself in recently. It's hard to watch someone that you love destroy themselves only because they don't realize they have the power to change their reality.

On the flip side I drove myself nuts trying to help her and, I think I knew this but was in denial, that I could do nothing for her until she helped herself.

This put such an emotional strain on me and eventually the friendship had to end for my own sake. Our relationship decayed to the point that we both knew we had to part ways.

I just watched this the other day and it made me cry almost through the whole movie! It was so cute and yet so sad. Oh the end I had tears coming down my face. My best friend called and laughed at me but then she watched it felt the same way. It was a movie IMO about love and realizing you are not alone and that there is someone out there for you, you just need to open your eyes in a sense...or at least that is how I saw it.

Im a 25 yr old guy and even I cried watching WALL-E (no shame as I love the movie anyway.)