posted on Dec, 10 2008 @ 01:17 PM
Dear friend,
I will copy some of what I have already told you privately and put it here as well for all to see.
First I need to mention that this relates to a past incarnation of myself as the apostle you've come to know as Thomas.
Regarding my life as Thomas, when I was him, I knew Jesus and he was considered a great spiritual leader and he was what you call a grandmaster of a
secret Order back then teaching the spiritual and occult arts for enlightenment and spiritual ascension. The 12 disciples were also grandmasters of 12
other orders, or lodges as it is often referred to, which was part of spreading the same truth as that of Jesus. In other words, at the time Jesus was
an Essene and he incorporated some of the teachings of the Essenes into his own work. Thomas lived a long and good life and became an old man before
passing on, and he was close to Jesus. He and other disciples and people close to him were the ones who took care of him after the crucifixion , he
did not die on the cross, instead he was wounded and taken down and the cave which is spoken about was in reality one of the areas of the Essenes
which functioned as a place to take care of the sick and wounded, and the Essenes helped Jesus recover. He did marry, he got children, and he
continued his work after until he became an old man - he traveled around in the world to teach as well as learn, and became a very wise and
enlightened man. The so called resurrection was simply a misunderstanding, as he had not died in the first place, thus also the reason he appeared
with the wounds - if he was in spirit form he would not have had any wounds, he was physical and alive though injured.
Indeed he traveled around and gathered knowledge and insights from many different belief systems and philosophies. He traveled the world, among other
places he studied in esoteric orders of the days in places such as Egypt, as well as India and Tibet. These are the years that are uncounted for in
the Bible, the time before he became known as the great man he became. He was a gifted spiritual teacher, as a result of decades of studies and
practices of various occult and spiritual systems, and this lead to him designing his own system of teaching and belief system which he passed on and
spread through the world by his disciples and other people.
Did you ever read the Gospel of St Thomas? It is one of the few documents left from the time, which has not been perverted or changed as much through
time as the bible as it was more recently discovered and thus is not a part of the Bible. It is one of the more important text, and the closest you
will get to the words of Jesus himself.
A lot of things can be said about these times, it is certainly not a short story, but I hope this sums up the very basic. Regarding Judas he did not
betray Jesus at all - in fact Jesus was well known in those times and all of the governments knew who he was, the Romans did not need anyone to point
him out as it would be rather obvious who he was and finding him would not be difficult.
Regarding myself, I was not "told" anything by anyone, it has been my own experience through many incarnations, and my connection with the True
Self, God as you would call it, which is The All - and we are all One and God, though many things could be said about that alone.
As I've mentioned earlier the Bible is extremely corrupted and very far from the truth.
Where Jesus is now, I do not know, I am currently not in contact with him just as I am not with countless other friends from previous lives.
When it comes to God, the one you call God in any case, as the Creator of Man, indeed he is a lesser god, to call it that, and a deceiver - even a
self-deceiver whom believes himself to be the true God. This God, is not the same as what is called a demiurge, as the demiurge is the creator of the
whole of the physical existence, yet this God I am speaking of now is only related to a small portion of the physical existence and what you can call
the Creator of Man, as Man is today. He created the human race to be his slaves, although "altered" the human race would be more appropriate than
"created". He put in place an extremely complex and brilliant system to make sure people would stay in his Prison as his Slaves, on many levels,
including the astral planes and after-life. He is also responsible for the reincarnation process, which keeps people trapped here on the physical
world. He put in place Programs of the Mind of the people, as well as their Astral Bodies and Physical Bodies, which have Man forget his true self,
and become a robot, a programmed being, living his life out through a pre-chosen "destiny", where he still may see himself as Free and Independent
he is not. This illusion he created surrounding Man, and being part of Man, is very vast and enfolds itself unto many levels of existence, as
mentioned the Physical World, Astral Planes, the Soul, the Mind and so on.
It is however possible to override this programming and become more in touch with ones true self again, the All, and once again understand ones
reality. Even most so called enlightened people, and ascended masters, and etc are also trapped in the illusion though believing they are experiencing
their "true self" or the connection with the "Divine" yet in reality they are just living in accordance with the Program that have been put in
place to deceive them, and making them believe they have reached such levels of understanding and development.
When someone connect with The All, which you can call the True God, the Ultimate Source, the deceit and illusions will flow away like water down a
hill, and everything will be revealed and all will be known. This is possible to achieve even in physical form as there is no actual disconnection
between Man, the Divine, and God - all and everyone and everything is always connected, but the connection is clouded by deceit and people are not
aware of this connection they share.
The Higher Soul and the Oneness I have spoken about earlier in some of my posts are part of this process towards self-realization of ones True Being,
which is being a Fragment of the All - God - The Ultimate Source.
And this True Being, The All, is not something you need to look after externally like it is some outside entity or existence which is not part of
yourself. The All is always within you and everywhere, it IS You.
IX-777