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I'll try to summarize. It started when I was 8 after I gotten molested by a cousin...this fact I admitted to the psychiartrist. When I was young, all that happened is that my movement would be restricted and some pain. At that age, I thought it was aliens. Once I became an adult, the sexual aspects came. I'll tell you play by play what happens.
I'm lying down about to go to sleep. Suddenly my body begans to tingle and i feel as if im levitating. My body is thrown into a spinning like motion then returned to wherever im laying. I began to feel like someone is squeezing me. THough this happens on various parts of my body, it tends to mostly be on my left lower side. Then I am aware of the entity. Normally I don't notice a smell but sometimes there is a faint odor of something I cant explain. It isn't a pleasant smell but not overwhelming bad. My body is touched as my side throbs with pain. I've never seen it, that I recall at the moment but I know it is a man. I am frozen and cannot speak but can communicate through telepathy. He speaks in an unknown language but somehow I understand. He may attempt intercourse or not. SOmetimes he's just there holding me in a tight embrace. I don't normally feel suffocated or like im choking just pain. sometimes it's so severe, it's persists through complete conciousness. I went to the doctor to make sure I didn't have anything going on in that particular part of my body. My eyes are open, I can hear and I watch TV to validate what is happening...Now the suggestion of video tape seems more helpful. This I will try tonight. I pray when this happens, sometimes giving results and other times seeming to cause anger and resulting in more pain for me. As far as the sexual aspect of it, it feels pretty much like actual sex except sometimes the 'penis' is really cold and heavy, or really hot. I have woken up with bruises and scratches that my boyfriend has bore witness to. When these attacks occur, I find that I'm exhausted even after 8 hours of sleep. I left a longer version of this on another thread, but that's it in a nutshell. Hope it helps you to understand! Thank youreply to post by gimme_some_truth

He's going to come and bless my home. I guess we'll go from there.reply to post by HankMcCoy

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No worries. I know what you are experiencing. They are familiars. Disembodied souls. I know people will think your nuts, but you have support. I have one pressing into my left side 24 hours a day.

All mine says is "Put away your sinfull nature"...

Message me if you'd like to talk.

Peace

Thank you so much! Someone else had suggested familars to me before but I didn't know what they were. Do you know there purpose and why they cause pain? If so please let me know and thank you again.reply to post by letthereaderunderstand

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what kind of pain? forgive me I didn't read the other post. The squeezing I know, but mine only cause pain when they "stick" me.

Just the squeezing in my side or the sharp pain i get in my spine. When you say 'stick' I think I know what you mean and it happens to me. The thing that bothers me the most is that the squeezing pain often persists through my total concious state. See during these attacks or whatever, I'm concious but it's a subdued conciousness. The only way I know Im not asleep is that I don't have to ask myself am i asleep, (therefore knowing I am) and I watch the television. It's the only way I really keep track and was able to prove I wasnt alseep.reply to post by letthereaderunderstand

Originally posted by Jheysoda
Just the squeezing in my side or the sharp pain i get in my spine. When you say 'stick' I think I know what you mean and it happens to me. The thing that bothers me the most is that the squeezing pain often persists through my total concious state. See during these attacks or whatever, I'm concious but it's a subdued conciousness. The only way I know Im not asleep is that I don't have to ask myself am i asleep, (therefore knowing I am) and I watch the television. It's the only way I really keep track and was able to prove I wasnt alseep.reply to post by letthereaderunderstand

 

Exactly. It's trying to penetrate your lymph. That is a gate to your body. Imagine the temple. Your lymph are the pearly gates.

"When a spirit comes out of a person, it goes through dry and lonely places"

Is it many voices or just one? There are many around me. Are you by chance the last in line of your family? I mean. Are you the last descended in your family, so that if you don't have children your name is done?

I in fact have five children. There are three entites that I distinguish, two that talk. The one I spoke of has a smooth, even voice. The other a raspy, pitchy voice that scares the hell out of me. The latter also seems more evil if that makes sense. I do come from a famliy of clarivoyants if that helps at all.reply to post by letthereaderunderstand

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Ok. Do they ever identify themselves? I'm sure you've used the name of Jesus to no avail although, they don't like that name.

Mine are mixed also. One is always with me and encouraging me. Most are very mad and mean. Also, inside and outside. The mean ones are outside and only communicate using my left side and ear.

The ones I've experienced, have also had sex with me or given me the sensation of it. They also spit on me (i will be siting on the couch and spit will fly out of no where....I hope it's only spit).

Are your's only negative?

No. Actually, (for the sake of this post I will call them the 'good' guy and the 'bad' guy) the good guy is usually very gentle. Last night I asked him why he hurt me, (the conversation is at the beginning of this thread) and he said it was because I was trying to leave the relationship. They never identify themselves and the sexual experience between the two is different. The 'good guy' is gentle and aims to please, or though it would seem. The 'bad' guy is always rough and causes me pain. You're right, praying has little or no effect and sometimes this angers them. More embarrasing is when I was praying during an episode with the 'good' guy and I climaxed. He laughed, said something I don't remember and it made me feel like #. When i asked about the others, he just said "They don't matter, I was here first." Oddly enough, if I have sex in RL they don't bother me. I find that fascinating. When i come out of the trance, my heart is racing and I have to get up and move around. If I don't, I slip right back into the trance and they do not like it when you leave prematurily. Last night and for the first time, the 'good' guy kissed me. Felt just like a real kiss except left a sort of metalic taste behind. I could hear him laughing I was wondering how that was possible. The laugh isn't sinister, just like a teasing laugh. When I asked him to leave forever, more pain came and I got pissed off. I started cussing at him telepathicaly and somehow was pulled out of the trance. I made sure not to lay back down right away in fear of his vengance. This has been a difficult road for me and it's easy for people to be skeptical when they have never experienced such phenomena. I really appreciate you listening and talking with me. It really helps!

I don't care what it is or if its the "good guy" or "bad guy", or if they are demons or hallucinations. It is clear that you have *something* controlling your life, and when you try to assert yourself to gain back control it causes pain. It could be mental- sure sounds like it, considering you have a sexual assault in your past and these visitations have a sexual nature. I advise you to do a lot more research on psychosis created by child sexual abuse. I don't dismiss ghosts and demons and other entities, but the fact you had childhood trauma and the apparent connection to your "friends" is sending up a lot of red flags in my opinion. Maybe your pastor's treatment can help you psychologically, as well. I just hope you are not putting all of your eggs in the paranormal basket. I wish you luck and success.

BTW- you say you have 5 children- are you in your early thirties/mid thirties maybe? Male or female? I got the impression female. Thanks.

OP –

Thanks for sharing your story.

I really hope that having the pastor bless your house will free you, and that you will let us know either way.

I am wondering – you say this started happening when you were 8. Have you lived in the same house since then? If not, do these entities move with you? Has there been any significant period of time during which this did not happen?

I think all these questions could help shed light on what's going on.

i have been attacked three times by these enitities, the first was in a party (i know can you imagine it) it starts by throwing up an immense build up of fear,

however the poster that said you have a part of you that wants it is right, you give it the entry piont.

as for talking to your pastor, three times this thing tried to take me, and three times i rebuked it and sent it flying, theres power in the name of jesus,

and im not talking about saying his name like a spell, im talking about relationship. theres no power without relationship.

light cannot dwell with the darkness jesus said, get rid of these enitities and get right with jesus.

dont play games with God, hes not just a word, hes a person.

Originally posted by raven bombshell
It could be mental- sure sounds like it, considering you have a sexual assault in your past and these visitations have a sexual nature. I advise you to do a lot more research on psychosis created by child sexual abuse.

I think this is the best advise and I agree with the rest of Raven's post too.

To add a further suggestion, are you completely sure you can trust the person(s) you have slept with?

Or have you ever been in an abusive relationship? It's possible that some victims of abuse have been mis-treated in ways that they are not consciously aware of.

I'm sorry to make a suggestion that may be distressing to you, but it would be worth investigating.

In some ways I'd probably prefer to think of a demon attacking you than the alternative I've suggested, but I suspect if this problem has a 'human' root it will be easier to deal with.

LOL, O- REALLY?

WELL THE TOOTH FAIRY VISITED ME LASTNIGHT AGAIN.

Sorry - he's not worth it.

[edit on 8-11-2008 by berenike]

Interesting thread, with many, many different possibilities as to cause. As you've said there had been abuse in your past, it would seem obvious that psychological problems would be a leading candidate. Followed closely by a physical medical condition of some sort. I hope you continue to look to those two fields for an answer, whether you choose to explore more paranormal causes... or not. I for one won't dismiss the paranormal out of hand as I've had my own experiences I can't explain.

As far as paranormal causes?.... well from what you've posted I could see an argument made for many different causes... anything from some sort of alien abduction experience... to demonic possession.... ghosts/spirits... and most other paranormal things in between... or further towards the fringe for that matter. Really the only limit on these possibilities is the scope of your imagination. Which really isn't all that helpful with determining a cause... so maybe the way to go is to try and eliminate possibilities?

You've said you can communicate with these entities... ask questions... and sometimes get answers. The most obvious question, to me anyway, before Who? Why? or How many,.... would be What are you? If you can determine that answer, it might lead you to some sort of solution.

You've also stated that there is a part of you that may welcome these experiences... or at least some aspects of them? So maybe any attempt to bring these experiences to an end ... through prayer... sheer force of will... or whatever other label you'd care to apply.... are sort of self sabotaged before you've even tried? If you're not fully committed to stopping them I'd say you're bound to have them continue.

Anyways, those are just some of my thoughts on this... sorry if they rambled

GL.... Peace

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Too bad it wasn't the Empathy Fairy or the Brain Fairy or the Common Courtesy Fairy.

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I never made a diagnosis. I said he fits the text book definition of schizophrenia. This doesn't necessarily mean s/he has schizophrenia. For all I know s/he may be having a truly paranormal experience. It is unlikely though as there seems to be psychological and physical distress in this situation. All I am saying is that it is unreasonable to jump to the explanation that this is a succubus or what have you. Especially if said account happens during sleep paralysis as stated by the OP.

You mentioned that you were in a trance and you should of began preying. This is very interesting because it aligns with my own person beliefs assuming your talking about an alien encounter. My question is this, these encounters, are they like a dream state or does this being seem real as day? You mentioned that you should of began preying, hinting that you believe it to be spiritual in nature, what do you believe these beings to be in nature? Aliens, demons, or unknown?

I've had similar experience, my immediate gut feeling was what appeared to be aliens were actually demons. Being brought up in a Christian house hold I started to rebuke these beings, low and behold they scattered like leafs being blown through the wind.

So I'd encourage you if this happens again, I'd advise you to prey.