reply to post by Paul_Richard
Thank you for responding, Paul_Richard.
As mentioned, the exorcism (and subsequent attempted 'take over' by what felt like an amalgamation of entities, plus the threat from the cloaked
entity) occurred in the early 80s ... 20-odd years ago now.
For the past 10 years approx., we've been living in the city. It's coincided with widespread Chemtrail activity in this area and reduced food and
water quality generally (irradiated, GM foods, etc.) It's also coincided with daily computer use on my part, which rightly or not, I still consider
to be detrimental to health. City living has meant greatly reduced exercise, despite my walking at least one kilometre daily, active gardening, etc.
About ten years ago also, I began suffering what may be arthritis, plus high blood pressure in place of lifelong low, insomnia, debilitating cramps,
etc. .. all in place of previous good health generally.
Coinciding with the move to the city and general reduction in health and commencement of computer useage, etc., has been a virtual cessation of the
paranormal activity that had previously blighted my life.
I'm grateful for the virtual end to the paranormal activity, incidentally. I was never a 'dabbler': never sought the paranormal (it was always
spontaneous) and didn't enjoy or welcome it. It commenced in early childhood but occurred only infrequently -- until we bought the house in which
the events detailed in my previous posts, took place. The number of pararnormal incidents greatly reduced after we sold that house.
It was definitely the house which was the catalyst. Not old or spooky .. just the opposite in fact ... but it had either been built on a site with a
history (ancient obviously, because the land was 'reclaimed' and had never been built on before) --- or one or more previous tenants had created a
'history'. Only after we'd purchased the house did we learn from the police that two people who'd lived in it prior to us, had been murdered in
mysterious circumstances which have never been solved (not murdered in the house though, thankfully).
Which is just another reason I found your posts to be fascinating and illuminating. You mentioned a 'collection' of base spirits/entities joining
forces in order to gain power or strength. I don't remember anyone, in anything I've read, who's offered this explanation ... yet it confirms my
own suspicions, particularly in relation to whatever that house harboured.
We'd bought what we believed to be a cheerful, wholesome family home. If I'd suspected otherwise, we would never have even considered it. So when
I walked through the door on the day we moved in to discover what I 'saw' (not my physical eyes, obviously) as a grey 'cloud' or 'bubble' of
what seemed or felt to me like a group of malignant personalities, extending down from the high raked ceiling ... it wasn't because I was looking
for drama or the supernatural. I was shocked, disorientated. If I could, I would have walked out, slammed the door and cancelled the purchase.
From the outset, in relation to the house we bought, I believed the malignant presence to be comprised of multiple personalities .. a 'group' thing.
I 'saw' and felt the 'group' in a specific location in that house and as the years passed, virtually every supernatural occurrence was based in
that specific location. And as I later learned, I was not the only member of our household to be aware of it .. although I didn't learn this until
long after we'd sold the place and moved. While we lived there, I hid my awareness from my family. Thought I was the only one who knew.
You raised another matter I've never read in any forum or book, when you advocated challenging the 'group entities'.
Challenge them ! Me? Ordinary-me would quake at the mere thought. So you may be amused to hear that when I (ordinary, clueless, completely
unprepared) first entered that house to discover .. to my own shock, fear and dismay .. that a 'group presence' was radiating hostility etc. and
'hanging' in a cloud from the ceiling ... I released (totally unaware I was doing it, or how I was doing it !) a sort of inner-Superperson ! I
didn't even know I had one ! Or that they exist !
The Superperson assessed the situation very swiftly .. in seconds. Then, sounding very strong and meaningful .. it told the cloud of group presences
to get out. That this was OUR house now and we weren't leaving. They (the group) would.
All of this took place while 'ordinary me' was chattering reassuringly to the children, who for some reason didn't seem to like our new house,
despite their earlier excitement. So I was in two minds at once: ordinary parent *and* this unsuspected warrior Superperson who'd arrived suddenly
on the scene. But the Superperson was 'me' as much as the flesh and blood version. I knew/know it was 'me' (or an element of me) because it came
out of me .. sounded (to my inner ear, because of course it didn't use a physically-audible voice) like 'me' and 'felt' like me. It 'was' me,
but was a side to me I'd never met before, consciously at least. I don't know where it ordinarily resides, either. That's the first and only time
I've ever observed it in 'independent' action that way. Most of the time, I feel 'integrated' .. just the 'one me'. And the Superperson
usually manifests (I suppose) as 'inner sense' or 'sixth sense', 'intuition', etc.
I (consciously and otherwise) kept up a determined front against the 'group presence'. But the group presence didn't leave, although it backed off
a little compared to that first encounter. It didn't feel like 'one'. It felt like a group. But you're the only person who's ever suggested
this possibility, so thank you for the confirmation after all these years.
Occasionally, it would try to 'take me over' and always in that one specific location within the house that I've mentioned (a hallway and radiating
outwards) .. usually when I was vacuuming the carpet. I've thought about that, obviously, and have reached the conclusion it's because vacuuming
is repetitive .. the sound itself is monotonous ... a 'back and forth' pitch ... all condusive to a sort of 'hypnotic' or even altered, daydreamy
'state'. Happens with me, anyway.
I used to have a real fight on my hands during those vacuuming the hallway attempted 'take overs'. Have posted about it elsewhere, no room here.
Suffice to say, that while I was fighting to withstand the presences, I was aware .. even at conscious level .. that there was more than 'one'
involved. I suspect my mind withholds a lot from me, learned/known at superconscious level. And that's fine. I'm glad it's withheld.
When I went back into the memory of the possession of another person which I'd witnessed as a child of 12 (desribed in above posts) I believe I
endangered myself. The experience had damaged me, I believe. My mind had locked that memory away for years. I should not have 're-remembered'
that incident with such accuracy. I only did so in order to write an accurate account of it for the exorcist.
In returning to that memory, I believe I 'opened' myself. Because what I did was 're-live' seeing that possessing entity. And the memory still
had immense power because it was linked to what I suspect may be a 'damaged section' in the mind's protective shield -- same damage the experience
caused in the first place. It allowed the house's opportunistic group-presences to attack me while my defenses were down. It was their chance and
they nearly won. The fact I'm clearly mediumistic to a degree must have made me a natural target. Others may be impervious to them. I thank God
for saving me.
But the later entity .. the one which said, after the exorcism:
'You've got/gotten rid of the rest of them. Now you have me to deal with ?'
This is of concern to me. What is your advice, please? Should I be concerned ?
Many thanks