(DD) I can't see you, but I think I love you

It's the tenth day that I've been locked up here, and I'm still yet to have talked to someone. A rat visited my cell today, he just sat there, judging me with his big yellow eyes. I envy that rat, he can come and go from this cell as he pleases. Maybe you will meet this rat some day, or at least one of his brethren, free to roam the cell blocks as they choose, passing judgement upon those of us whom society has deemed 'unmutual'.


I fed the rat some of my bread today, he ran off with it and I heard squeaking noises coming from the wall. I think the rat is cheating on me. The rat is happy because he has others to socialise with. I want to be friends with the rat but he goes out and talks to other rats behind my back. If he can have friends to talk to, so can I. Will you be my friend?


I've been here almost two months now, and I've been so very lonely. Thinking about you, and how you have the world at your fingertips, has given me hope. I know that I will die soon, because another one died today, the african man that came in on the same day as myself. When they brought me in I was so confused, I didn't see why I should have been locked up. What goes on in my bedroom is my business, and shouldn't affect anyone else, so why did they lock me up in here if I wasn't hurting anybody? Oh well, at least I have the thought of you to keep me company.


I'm finding it hard to write now, the lesions on my arm have started to burst and bleed, it hurts, alot. That doesn't bother me though, because I know that you will be stronger, and that you will not have to suffer my fate, because I love you, and that will give you the strength to endure this prison.


They've stopped bringing me my food, I suppose they reckon I'm a lost cause. I don't care, because I know that when I'm gone, my love for you will still remain. As long as you stay strong, I know that I will have made a difference in this world.


Goodbye my friend whom I have never met, and will never get to see or touch, or smell, or hold close to me.
I love you, keep that with you, always.

I think this classifies as a 'dear diary', it's structured in a manner representing a time lapse of several months, but with no clear indication of the exact passing of time, which would truly represent a person imprisoned and incapable of correctly judging time's passing.

nrky, that was excellent. Scary as well. At first I thought it was modelled on POWs in a war, but then you go on to say that he was dragged out of his bedroom, so then it was 'Beirut,' but you didn't get picked up off the streets there for being unmutal.

So, where and when is this? A great entry, for sure.

This was a tribute to a scene in the V for Vendetta comic/graphic-novel (I denounce the movie, it was appalling).
I got the word 'unmutual' from the tv show 'The Prisoner'.
The letter I've paid tribute to is a major part of the story in v for vendetta, and is a very moving and liberating deus ex machina.
I'll post the spoiler further down in this post, so don't continue reading if you still want to see V for Vendetta.






***SPOILER WARNING*** DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN 'V FOR VENDETTA', OR IF YOU STILL WISH TO! YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!

In the comic 'v for vendetta', there's a plotline where V (the main character) is locked up by the 'government' (feudal warlord/gang in power) for being an undesirable citizen (gays, politicals, foreigners, blah blah blah) and put in an experimental concentration camp, where they test bio weapons on him and his cellmates. While locked in his cell, V finds a letter and it liberates him, giving him hope. The letter was written by an earlier tenant of the cell, and she was a lesbian, it talks about how she was taken by the militia and imprisoned for being gay. The letter progresses with the woman proclaiming her love for the person whom she's never going to meet (because she'll be dead soon from the bioweapon), and it's a very moving piece, (I humbly bow to the elegance and brilliance with which it was written.) The letter is introduced to the reader when Evey (the second main star of the comic) is put into a staged mock prison similar to the one V was put in, in order for her to experience the liberation of having rejected the oppression of torture and manipulation. The letter gives her hope to continue the fight and to refuse to reveal the whereabouts of V, to her 'captors' (who were really just dummies manipulated by V, and tape recorders).... it was all a test to prove her loyalty to the cause of anarchy and rejection. The original letter in the comic has a great feeling of rejection of oppression, and bling unconditional love in the face of unrelenting hatred.

If only I could do it justice by faring as well as the author of V for Vendetta had done before me. I'll get there one day.

Haha, unforunately I cannot read the second half of your post because I haven't seen the movie yet. Hmm, I suppose those are good places to get inspiration from, through I haven't actually seen the show Prisoner.

I'm considering putting in a DD entry, but perhaps not. There are a lot of good entries out there.

[edit on 2/6/2006 by watch_the_rocks]