What the heck has been up with me lately?

Hehe, because you're looking into a mirror - and the world is different in the mirror. When you look into a mirror, the only way to communicate with that person is by talking to yourself - and you don't learn anything new that you didn't already know before.

You must see yourself mentally, be able to look at yourself from your mind's eye. That's what's important. The person I see in the mirror doesn't look like me, and the person I hear on tape records doesn't sound like me. This is because the way my mind hears and sees itself is different from what is reflected back at me, because my mind is alive, and because the image in the mirror, and the sound on the tape recorder, is not alive.

Remember the phrase "do not point out the splinter in your neighbours eye, when you cannot see the log that is in your own". One of the things I like doing now is to change words from the bible into a modern version, to better get across what it's saying. This is saying "do not judge others until you judge yourself - if you were in their place you might have done the same". Whatever your position is, the best way to get through it is to talk with some good friends - even if that means they might find out things about you that you wish they hadn't.

Talking with us on the internet - it's too impersonal for us to necessarily be good judges of what you're going through.

Originally posted by Arkham
But one thing still confuses me. Why can I not see the soul in my own eyes?

I'm not sure I know what you mean, but remember, all we see is a construct of our own minds and as such, subjective. I have experience of depression [among other things], and I know too well that the way you feel affects the way you perceive, and indeed relate to the world around you.

The theory of mine for others. I knew some of the people before they looked like this. My thought is that at some point, their souls were set free. But their body cannot comprehend this. So it goes on through life, making decisions based on the bodys' memories of the soul. As for my own. I think it is because my soul, fills, so far unfulfilled or unaccepted to be human. But, I could be wrong. At some point, I should know.

Originally posted by Volatile
@Biggie Smalls

It is the universal law of attraction, look up on google.

yes i know i have read about this before and even watched that movie "The Secret" which I'm not sure was worth $5 but the message surely is...

ever hear of an organic portal ?

I'm no expert on this , but it
sounds like it could be , the same
or maybe a similar thing.

I'm not sure what to make
of your interpreting this
and your normal mode.

but if you feel ok , and not
like you are gonna lose it,
then perhaps you should take
note of this , when , where , who
and try not to get anxious about it
just see if anything becomes of this.
[ also let an understanding trusted
friend know what you are trying to do ]

I dunno what else to suggest
except , for more info on organic portals

this partial definition

In Gnosis, Mouravieff introduces the concept of two races of humanity. These are respectively called adamic and preadamic man. The Cassiopaeans have given the term Organic Portal to refer to preadamic man.

The difference between adamic and preadamic man is that preadamic man does not have an individuated soul. In all other respects, preadamic man is indistinguishable from adamic man. Preadamics do not have the so-called higher centers. If one attributes soul qualities to preadamic man, one is seeing a reflection of another's soul in the and mistaking it for the individuated soul of the preadamic.

found the above and more here ;

signs-
of-
the-
times.org