posted on Oct, 6 2003 @ 05:17 PM
You have every right to disagree with my personal 'awakening' as it is a huge world with many souls and therefore not everyone will have the same
awakening.
My awakening is based on my life/lives, my karma my subconscious, my brain even. It is all about me, but does not necessarily involve just me. Let me
give an example as it would be easier to understand by way of example.
A soul was born for the first time,new to the world..naked and innocent. Something changes them or forms them to that first life, perhaps a trauma?
Maybe they became greedy and consumed only in wealth and material gain? Maybe they became extremely religious, a monk even? The list starts there but
could go on forever.
Let's say they became a monk and consumed their every waking moment in life with prayer, worship spiritual knowlege to form a closeness with God,
never to betray or not intending anyway, but something happens and they lose their faith, but it's too late to find it again or backtrack where it
was even lost, if they ever truly possessed it in the first place..they are old and possibly bitter longing to regain what was lost. Their physical
body withers away but the soul of the bitter man remains and moves into a new life, now clothed and questioning, confused perhaps. He is born into a
family that is poor, maybe ignorant and even blaming with little faith. He recognizes this feeling from somewhere deep within his subconscious but
doesn't understand why or how. He spends his days longing to find justice in this world of material power and is saddened by the life that was chosen
for him. He prays to a god who never seems to listen, his heart breaks for the self pitty he feels but he moves on and tries to better his life and
contort it with what he has, but in his gut the questions are still there haunting him daily..from a past man who had everything and lost it all.
He dies again and is reborn a 3rd time to a wealthy and even prominant family with good standards and morals, but there is something different about
this family and his take on it, he is born in an unfamiliar setting a different country where they worship false gods, unlike the true God he vaguely
recalls in his soul, but he must follow his family and countries ways for it is his duity..
meanwhile..God is seeing this man he gave into a world not so long ago and the different lives and changes the man is living He is saddened that this
man who possessed such faith has given in because of the world and the vastly different scenerios of his lives..so he intervenes unnoticed..and the
man dies young and now even more questioning of a life that ended so abruptly.
His following 200 lives are meaningless as far as his spirit is concerned but he feels the grief so great from somewhere deep inside each consecutive
life that he lives and experiences, infact the grief is growing inside him and he can no longer stop thinking about it, it is coming into view within
him somewhere, and he must confront it and seek answers somewhere, so he starts to pray and build a bond that was lost long ago, he starts to somewhat
recall something lingering there that was unclosed..He is born again and this time he is directly confronted with all of his lives and most
importantly his first sway from his own personal spiritual growth and of course all the consecutive sways as well..He is a priest very holy and
devoted but something dark lives inside him and he knows in order for progression he must be confronted with it..so he prays for an awakening of it,
to be faced with it so he can settle it for once and for all..so he is faced with the darkness perhaps he is losing faith once again due to the church
or even lust for a woman. But he recognizes the familiarness of the situation and reconciles it for good. No matter what comes his way he never loses
his faith this time and he dies and moves on into a life of discovery and awakening because he prepared the path for this moment or life..it becomes
his awakening, his remembering of things he did and things he must settle and face..the untruths, unjusts, the sacrifices, the greed, whatever the
case may be for HIS personal awakening to completion..and this is his journey and it is only beginning yet it is full as you can see.. he feels his
soul coming alive and gaining control over the brain all the knowledge in his soul is coming forth and making contact with the brain, he needs to
understand this to realize what is happening and to gain what is his purpose in life as a whole..and the story goes on
That was REALLY long and I'm sorry to get carried away but I needed to make my point, and I surely hope I have.
For one mans journey will never be the same as anothers, but ultimately they ride beside eachother for the true purpose of existance, finding God and
becoming one with Him once more in their personal way.
Magestica