posted on Jul, 27 2005 @ 11:18 PM
I was in science class doing some work and I suddenly began hearing this voice...first it was moaning and then it evolved into this conversation with
a man.....I felt things around me...crushing me...it wasn't long ago...but this man was..dying....he was crushed by something and dying of enternal
bleeding.
Guy: Oh....oh god...please...I don't wanna die!!!
Me: What the hell??? Who are you?
Guy: Dear GOD...No please!!! Not yet! Please..don't take me now! At least let me see my family one more time!
Me: I'm not going to take you. I just want to know who you are.
Guy: Me? Wait...arn't you an angel? An angel of death?
Me: Um...I might be, I don't know...
Guy (incredulously): You don't KNOW!? Wait a minute--is this some...hell trick? Did I die and go to hell?
Me (appalled): NO! I am not a demon if that is what you were implying.
Guy: No, never...I'd never say you were a demon.
Me:Why?
Guy: You're too beautiful.
Me (Flattered): Me??
Guy (amused):Yeah...
Me:...
Guy:well....
Me:Why do you say you don't want to die?
Guy: Because I don't. Not like this. I...just fear death, I guess.
Me: Why do you fear death?
Guy: Why would you ask?...you don't fear death? I suppose you don't...being an angel and all....
Me: I'm not an angel...
Guy: Wha...no..nevermind..I don't want to know.
Guy: So, I'm going to die...I'm not as shocked now as I was.
Me: Why do you say that?
Guy:Because...I just don't.
Me:Oh...so why do you say you're going to die?
Guy: I'm trapped. I'm just gonna run out of air and die...can't you help me?
Me: No..not really. I'm sorry.
Guy(sad): Oh..thought so....does my family know I love them?
Me:Yes, of course they do.
Guy: My name is John, by the way.
Me (nod):Yes, and my name is Judia. I think I am your angel of death.
Guy: You just saw that?
Me: Hey...we aren't all seeing.
Guy: Obviously.
Me: I can leave you here.
John looks tried laying down and looks away.
Me: You still don't fear death, do you? Why are you so afraid?
Guy: What if I wasn't good enough in life? What if my name is not in that book? I don't wanna burn in hell.
Me: Oh, John...god would never be that mean to you. YOu are his child..we all are.
Guy (skeptical): Yeah...then why are there so many starving kids in africa and all those countries? Arn't they his kids too?
Me: Of course, John, but we choose our lives and that was their choice. They are learning...just like you and me.
Guy: You're learning?
Me: Of course.
Guy: Oh.
John is thinking....I can hear it....
Me: So, why do you have to sufficate...
John looks surprised.
Me: I can hear you, John...it was your choice.
Guy: I'm scared to die, judia.
Me: I know, John...we all are at some level.
John is sighing.
Guy: I was so stupid...why didn't I listen?
Me: It's a little late now to be thinking that, John.
Guy: I know.
Me: There is nothing to fear, John. It only hurts becaues you are resisting it. It's a wonderful thing...to die. Paradise is waiting...not
damnation.
Guy: How do you know?
Me: I've been there.
Guy: Oh...Do you think my family will be okay without me. I hope they know how much I love and miss them. I never told them enough how much I missed
them and loved them.
Me: I know...we all say this, John.
Guy: You seem unusually calm for being trapped by rocks.
Me: It does not bother me. I like the dark. I am with you so I am not alone.
Guy: Oh..yeah...you're not like me...So...you don't need to breath.
Me: I am sorry if I offend you.
Guy: lol No, you don't. I just really wish I was an angel right about now.
Me: Don't we all when we are going to die?
Guy(sad): You say that so...nonchalauntly...like it's not big thing to matter.
Me: It doesn't. You die and you go to heaven...hell is pretty much optional.
Guy: Really?
Me: Yes...of course, John. Would you send your child to damntion?
Guy: Of course not!!!
Me: Neither will the Father.
Guy: *sighing* It's getting harder to breath.
Me(sad): I know, John. Do you want to let go?
Guy: Not really, but it's getting painful.
I put my energy hand on his belly.
Me: It's okay, John. They know you love them. It's not a thing to fear--death.
Guy: Are you sure?
Me: Yes...it's time to go, John.
My hand passes into him a little and his eyes die out....
It was a really abnormal, but felt normal to me.