posted on May, 25 2020 @ 03:32 AM
Back when I was in early grade school kids used to want to grow up and be Power Rangers, Pop Stars, and popular. Me? I wanted to be Batman! I
didn't just want to "WAM" and "BAM" people. I wanted to used my Sherlock Holmes Detective like abilities to find all the suspects and turn them into
the police! I grew up idolizing Batman until my junior high days and I mostly forgot about my old Hero. You can maybe thank George Clooney for
chasing me away from that idea haha
Some years later I found myself "In a tight spot". (Sorry, another Clooney reference) I was in a Juvenile Detention center. I had just got done
meeting with my attorney and my parents. It was a particularly hard farewell, I remember.. It was one of those moments where I felt complete utter
hopelessness. My life was in the hands of someone else. Anyway, I was being escorted out of visitation. The long walk down the corridor to the day
room took what felt like forever. I remember nearing the day room and noticing the lights were dimmed and all of the other inmates were crowded
around the Television that was mounted up on the concrete wall. The Staff patted me down and told me to go to my room for my supper but just as I
entered the room the beginning of Batman Begins played on the Television. You know.. that scene where It's got a silver filter to it, shows the WB
logo and then... BATS, with a subtle batman logo. Right then I instantly had chills and I forgot I was sad, or hungry, or that my life was in limbo
at that moment. It was like that idea that I had as a child was reborn again. I had something to look forward to, someone I could mold myself into.
I mean, hell... I was at my very weakest point in that little box on my concrete slab for months and months.. I tell the staff i'm not hungry and sit
down to the movie as if it were some kind of message meant for me at that moment in time.. The fellas chimed in on my intimate moment with the movie.
I remember to the other guys it was about the special effects and the action sequences.. but for me it was how Bruce Wayne became Batman. His
Metamorphosis. His ideology and the laws he created for himself. once again.. I wanted to be Batman! I had found that childhood flame that kept my
imagination alive and my dreams a possibility. I had found a confidence in myself through a fictional character. I was 16 at the time and this meant
the world to me.. In hindsight, it's that fantasy that probably kept my mind from coming apart in that cell.
To this day I still find inspiration in the Batman. Bruce Lee and Batman were my idols growing up.
it's been one lifetime for me since then.. I am now twice the age I was when Batman Begins released..
Life has certainly had it's ups and downs.. I'm not half the Batman I used to be. I've had my "Bane" so to speak. Back broken, lying in a cell
again, though this is more of a mental one. Back in "The pit" I suppose i'm just waiting for that time to Rise again.
A mental prison is far worse than an actual prison.
edit on 25-5-2020 by MadSeason313 because: minor spelling errors