Defiant

You may beat me down. Strip me of my dignity and pride. Leave me naked and cold in the darkness, I will not relent. I will not give up.

Cast me into the abyss and close the gate upon my skull. Crush me into oblivion.

I will remain defiant. Kill and take all those I love, pass pain unto my heart.

I will never give up.

It is not that I dont feel pain. It is not that the wounds dont reach me.

I am human, very human. I will simply defy all of it because one must. I will carry the weight, I will hold it down.

Plot against me. Send me to my demise.

I died long ago. Back when my innocence meant something. I am long dead since the days of my purity...

I dont care if I am worthy. I dont care if I have your love and respect.

My pain is my virtue. My agony and languish are pure. They sustain me.

Some people never learn.

a reply to: intrptr

What is there to learn, if knowledge is subjective?

originally posted by: swanne
a reply to: intrptr

What is there to learn, if knowledge is subjective?

Learning more by experience than knowledge.

a reply to: intrptr

Maybe its an heroic act on his subjective part, but the way i see it.. Its a egocentric view still within the boundaries of instincts.. Fear is always instinct, love removes that..

So i guess he failed.. Well i have the popcorn bowl ready in case he cant get up... Please share every thought..

a reply to: intrptr

You mean, wisdom.

a reply to: intrptr

order is only an illusion we justify. Life is chaos.

Suffering is our struggle to accept that.

I am far beyond any lesson you could possibly teach.

Behind or ahead, thats your quantitative measure still within that illusion and justification.

I know where I stand. I know my limits and how to overcome.

Do you, oh great sage of sterile comfort and hopeful "wisdom"?

And maybe I did fail, I never pretended to try and be like those that huddle around a lightning strike in the rain. I make my own fire in the dark of the night.

originally posted by: swanne
a reply to: intrptr

You mean, wisdom.

Thats different. Wisdom is closer to discernment, a gift from outside.
Knowledge from experience is pounding nails straight with a hammer. You cant be told how to do that, you have to learn from experience.

a reply to: tadaman

order is only an illusion we justify. Life is chaos.

Thats like saying its always stormy outside. There are calm days too.

Your experience may be different, though. Sorry if your life is always chaotic.

a reply to: intrptr

no its like saying that there will always be storms no matter how sunny it is today.

I am sorry if your life stopped surprising you with challenges. How perfectly awful.

Remember what you said about experience...

either way, no beef. I am just saying I would rather defy the storm, even foolishly.

Be the sun in the darkness, be the void in the light.

Especially if you can be what defines it.

a reply to: tadaman

Be the sun in the darkness, be the void in the light.

Whatever that means.

I'l rage against the machine.

a reply to: intrptr

sounds like fun.

dont let the man hold your hand.