posted on Jul, 5 2015 @ 12:12 AM
Thank you for all of the responses. The funeral was actually today. I had prepared the post the night before and was so spent, i must have fallen
asleep prior to actually posting it. I awoke this morning realizing this and posted anyway "as is" since I didn't have it in me to correct at the
time. I told my son this morning and answered (still answering, lol) alot of questions Like "why does God want us to die?" He initially said he
wanted to go but as things turned out, he got caught up playing with Grandma who had stopped "to visit" and I went ahead and left with the plan that
we would go visit the gravesite later. When i returned, he asked as to my whereabouts so I told him the truth (which even i was not expecting, but
behind % 100%): "We had part of the funeral in the church and the burial was postponed because a doctor is going to look at Rodney closely to see
exactly what was the cause of his death. SO, my son will be going with me to the cemetery when the burial happens. His daughter requested an autopsy
secondary to his passing after being discharged from the ER "to go home," but not the one expected so soon. It simply doesn't seem like it should
have been his time. The ceremony I attended solo did allow me to grieve without any thought of responsibility and without any restraint or urge to
compose myself. If my son had persisted upon my leaving the house that he go too, his clothes were out and ready...so I left the possibility open
anyway for my son to go, I just didn't bring it up again figuring he'd speak up to ensure he didn't miss anything (which he is known for doing, kid
doesn't miss much!). Thanks again for the responses. To my best friend, Rodney, i love you man and consider myself lucky to have known you for so
long...you will be forever missed.