It Begins

originally posted by: Iamthatbish
a reply to: ChesterJohn
When I was a teenybopper I had a Bible that had the Scripture and what it meant on the same page. Its not that difficult to find.

yeah but then you are being spoon fed someone else's study and it could be wrong. It takes years to get to understand the AV Bible and it also takes a right heart. I approach it not looking for mistakes but Truth. I literally tell God show me truth,

And you know what, he does.

originally posted by: qmantoo
It is not God talking to you, that is almost certain. It might be some entitiy trying to give you some speel and I feel you need to be wary about the quality of what you reeive. Question, examine the source, examine the motive, and determine if the motive is control - either now or in the future.

Those who know how to manipulate our energy fields can send us messages we interpret as "meaningful". Easy to get drawn into this kind of thinking. If I wanted to play with someone, I could think up all kinds of wise phrases to send them and get the recipient looking to me for guidance and wise counsel. Then I have got you.

I feel the real deal can only be found by going within and then knowing the quality of the communication. A wise man does not try to convert the world but supports others in their search for the truth which is an individual journey and very different for each of us. The Universe has its own right timing so epiphanies come when the person experiencing them is ready.

You nor I can relate intellectually, emotionally or spiritually to an inanimate universe. and an inanimate Universe cannot relate at all to anyone or anything.

The one we seek is the one who created the Universe. He is the one with all truth. And when he stood in front of one of the most powerful men of his day he told him straight out, "I am Truth". And all the leader could do was say, "what is truth?"

One thing X-files had right and stated it so in every episode was this, "The Truth is out there." If you find him before you die you will have a choice to make. If you die before you find him, you will stand before him and know the truth.

originally posted by: dashen
You are looking for Nothing.
Hope you find what you're looking for.

On the first reading of your post, I thought it was an attempt to rile me to anger and elicit a negative response. I viewed your message as a dismissive gesture intent on ridicule and veiled in humor. Then I read it again.

Even though I am addicted to input, I have not limited myself in my quest. All knowledge I find stimulating. Something as simple as, "How do you pronounce a word?" Is just as interesting to me as "The String theory". A search for answers, sets you on a path that has no end. Yet every beginning comes attached to an end, even if it is only temporary, or a fork in the road.

In truth, I feel I am looking for everything, but everything originated from a single thing, and a single started from nothing; so the source was indeed formed from that which came before all things, and we have chosen to call that thing nothing. So in many ways you are correct. A search for the core, the source, would eventually lead to nothing, as it is from nothing that it begins.

originally posted by: Iamthatbish
a reply to: dashen
Am I confused or this person can't look because if they discover something they will have aquired knowledge?

I think i understand your confusion. The thought that popped in my head did not appear to me as a voice, like someone speaking to me. It seemed more as if I was recalling a remembrance, like something I had read. It also confused me, so much, that I stopped on my way out of my bedroom and sat on the edge of the chair. I  awakened earlier than usual, so I wasn't in a rush, which is highly unusual.

I usually start my day the minute my feet hit the floor, and I usually hit the floor running. It is a characteristic left over from my earlier days when I had to be the best that I could be, for those that meant the most to me in my life. I am one of those people that requires motivation, a purpose to get out the bed in the morning. I didn't read the book a purpose driven life, but I am sure somewhere in it was most likely a whole chapter that probably described my life. My children have left the nest. My mother is still with me, and I have an old feral cat I rescued at around 3 weeks of age, according to the vet, and two rescued Rhodesian Ridgebacks. My responsibilities have greatly reduced, as while my crits can be quite demanding, neither them nor my Mother require much more than time, love and attention. They give me purpose and my joy comes from creating their joy and watching them smile. My Mother is constantly scolding me for what she terms as 'spoiling' them, and I do, but I am honest enough with myself to know that it is a selfish act. I spoil them because it pleases them and being able to share their happiness and joy, pleases me.

My thirst for input isn't new. I can remember anxiously awaiting the trip to the grocery store each month, hoping the next book in the encyclopedia set would be available, and that my Mom would have enough money left over to purchase it. If my dream came true and we left the store with my cherished gift, I would spend the whole near 45 minute ride back home with my face in the book, trying to gather up as much of the information as I could. I wasn't searching for anything specific bit of information. I was just consuming what information was on the pages. I never stopped once to question if the information was true, or even valid. It wasn't a quest for truth, it was a quest for input. I didn't realize this until the thought arrived. As I pondered the words and what was said, the actually meaning seemed to branch out in many directions.

"The source is the fruit and if consumed will bring death, pain and misery." "Sourcery is the never ending search for the fruit." "The fruit that once bitten, will drop its seeds and spread with ease, even if the fruit is not consumed." "Heaven is beyond all reach because it requires a pure heart, which can never be achieved in a mind that carries the seeds of the source."

The first thing I realized was the words that were presented in the thought, were words that I could see, more than hear. I remembered thinking how odd the word 'sourcery' looked, and quickly realized it was 'not' a misspelling. I realized right away that it was referring to the magic and the addiction, my addiction, to input. I am still pondering on this idea. It seems the moment I think I understand all of it, another price falls off and steers my mind towards another possible meaning, another possible message. While I am no longer confused about the thought, it does continue to create more thoughts. It in itself has become a fruit with many seeds. It, for me, has carried my mind in numerous directions in an attempt to understanding. An unprovoked and unsolicited thought, simple yet cryptic, and fuel for my addiction for input, creating more paths from which to begin.