I'm living a memory and can't get out of it. Every day I wake up to it.

In the morning, I wake up to live the same memory over and over again.

I could say something/one keeps me in it. This memory is more like a bad dream.

I haven't found my way out since the start of it.

Am I having mental issues? It's annoying and sometimes bothering me. When I'm not bothered by it, it annoys me.

It has got me locked in. Someone needs to set me free.



It must forgive me.

Hmmm Groundhog day huh..
use it to your advantage....

Or Make a new more memorable one. to overwrite

Could be a glitch in the matrix, might be time to unplug

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Hi octopus,
I believe I understand. I sure do get the song reference...it's got meaning for me too.
I think you need to forgive yourself.
Easier said than done...but once you start thinking that way...it gets easier.
Give yourself the advice that you would give to someone you care about.

jacy

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I don't know as what some people see me? I think their view of myself is disturbing me and it might sound stupid but I think they like it, having the wrong idea about me. And they find pleasure in it since they know it disturbed me.

I yet have to find out who I truly am, maybe that will set me free.

But it's like it has power over me so I do the wrong things over and over again, keeping it alive. It's like I started to believe the lies about myself and made them reality. It's so sad when I look back. I feel like I have given up an accepted it to be this way. But it's not good. It's also like the weapons I use to defend myself were taken from me and used against me.

It's like they fooled me terribly. All I build up ends up being a lie. I have to start over again. They had power over me for such a long time.

oktopus
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I don't know as what some people see me? I think their view of myself is disturbing me and it might sound stupid but I think they like it, having the wrong idea about me. And they find pleasure in it since they know it disturbed me.

I yet have to find out who I truly am, maybe that will set me free.

But it's like it has power over me so I do the wrong things over and over again, keeping it alive. It's like I started to believe the lies about myself and made them reality. It's so sad when I look back. I feel like I have given up an accepted it to be this way. But it's not good. It's also like the weapons I use to defend myself were taken from me and used against me.

The very best thing you can do for yourself, is to stop worrying what others think of you. They probably do find pleasure in thinking what they do, because it makes them feel better about themselves. Usually people with low self-esteem do this.

It doesn't have any power over you, unless you allow it to. Whatever you believe, you create. If you think you're worthless, you will fulfill that destiny. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks...what affects you, is what you believe about yourself.
You don't need to defend yourself if you're innocent. Why bother?
Live will. Success is the best revenge.

jacy

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I know the feeling all too well !

I work on this daily myself. I wish you the best and hope you can find your way through it.

Some days I just grab a hold and take the ride. Others I'm exhausted because memories we can't let go of can tend to wipe us clean of all energy.

Ya just gota find a way... and you will...you will...

leolady

Think of the person you truly WANT to be. Keep it in mind every day, all day.

Be that person, for that is your true self. If you should err and be something else, identify what caused the divergence from your true path. Remove that stimulus from your life or learn to be unaffected by it.

You can be anything you want to be. No one has power over that unless you give it to them freely.

Well, if you believe in God, then this is what I do...

When I lay down to sleep at night, I ask Him to take these unwanted thoughts and stresses. I imagine them in a box and me handing them over. I say "please take care of all this for me because I don't want them anymore. I'm giving them to you to take care of. I trust that you will take care of this for me." (or whatever I need to say at the time)

Use your own words and imagination of course. But, as I do this, I can literally feel my tension going away! My muscles start to relax when I didn't even realize they were tensed up. And best of all, I quit thinking of and feeling these horrible things. I sleep peaceful, and wake up peaceful.

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Well, I can safely say that this is the first time that you've posted this thread here on ATS.

How can you be "locked in a memory" if you're able to change it, move forward, and do new things that weren't present in the previous incarnation?


~ Wandering Scribe

Unless I'm missunderstanding this sounds like post tramatic stress disorder.

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You're not the only one. Mine has me in such a bad place that it's hampered my ability to live. I merely exist. I have no clue how to get away or out of it. Don't let this happen to you. Because at the bottom, you'll find the ladder rotten through and each step you take only seems to land you back on your rear end.

It's called life so get one with yours.

here if u have antimalware, watch this!

videolinkz.us...

One technique to erase memories is to perform an exercise where you continually and repeatedly replay this memory in your mind. The important thing is that each time you replay it change something small in the visualization. Things like the color of someone shirt, where an object was placed, a small change in the words, order and series of events that are causing the troubles. As you progress further through this exercise start to make the changes bigger and more dramatic, louder and brighter color changes and more divergent series of events. Eventually the memory will blend out and dissolve so make sure you want to delete it before undertaking the exercises. You may need to undertake these exercise a few times for very strong, powerful and clear memories, but over time it is one option to manage them.

What seems to have ached so much is the broken trust, or the inability to gain any.

I don't get it....

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Don't cry victory to early