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Originally posted by MrUncreated
reply to post by robhines
I am delusional, confused and agitated nearly all of the time. You left out the part about suicidal thoughts. Every other day it seems I am wrestling with myself so that I don't kill myself, after all. I have tried meditation, but I cannot break free. I envy you spiritual types, really.
Originally posted by robhines
Delusion makes you confused >
Confusion makes you stressed >
Awareness = Awakeness.
Originally posted by greyer
Originally posted by robhines
Delusion makes you confused >
Confusion makes you stressed >
Awareness = Awakeness.
The reason why being 'awake' makes me confused is because I believe in immortal souls. Possibly being awake may let someone learn to talk magically, basically anything he or she says will happen.
edit on 1-6-2012 by greyer because: (no reason given)
Originally posted by robhines
Being awake as far as I can tell would also give the awareness that there's checks and balances in place all over so that that type of thing can't happen. A truly awakened person has no desire for that either in a manipulative sense as far as I can tell, and would have to let go of the temptation that type of thing brings or never truly awaken.
So for that you should also be referring to the anxiety > fear link, fear that results from delusion about having that type of power because there's a misconception about how things might really operate. Please note that I don't know any of this, it's just what I think is the case.
Btw I'm not trying to suggest any of this is easy either, unless you have a natural skill at this type of thing or you've worked at it a lot. I think it becomes easier eventually though because you get used to it from experience and have long since dropped a lot of the obstacles you used to deal with regularly. Either that or when those obstacles arise, you can get past them and let go of them again quickly.
Originally posted by greyer
So what I am to do with emotion?
Probably the best way of working with equanimity is to embrace our obstacles, to open to our challenges, whatever they may be. Obstacles test our balance and poise in life. We learn from life's situations so that we don't try to avoid, control, manipulate and contain every experience, but allow the possibility of just being with something, as it is, equanimously.
Now, this doesn’t mean you are cold like a statue to what goes on around you, far from it. The state of equanimity is one of compassion, not a feeling, feelings can be disturbed by outer circumstances. It is not an emotion, not a thought, all these can change moment to moment. Equanimity is a complete controlled composure under the tensions of life, a total grasp and embracing of the present moment from each moment to the next.
Originally posted by greyer
Thanks robhines, sometimes words as those are the actual relief. From what I am learning there are many psychological obstacles to becoming aware and awake which is why most probably just block it out mentally, it seems to be a journey in our mind so hopefully I will get past them quickly.
Originally posted by robhines
Just something I wanted to share to try and help. I haven't done this whole thing to its conclusion and sustained it, but I think I've managed it for certain amounts of time so I think it makes sense. I'm not pretending I'm fully awake, but that I've had moments where I've been able to see things clearly. Without meditation I don't think I'd have ever understood this like I do now :
Delusion makes you confused >
Confusion makes you stressed >
Stress makes you anxious and/or agitated >
Anxiety and/or agitation brings fear and anger >
Fear and anger bring about chaos and strip you of hope and confidence, whilst also causing problems for others.
To stop delusion, use your awareness and be unattached >
Being aware and unattached = Awake.
Awareness = Awakeness.
edit on 31-5-2012 by robhines because: added
Originally posted by MrUncreated
reply to post by robhines
I am delusional, confused and agitated nearly all of the time. You left out the part about suicidal thoughts. Every other day it seems I am wrestling with myself so that I don't kill myself, after all. I have tried meditation, but I cannot break free. I envy you spiritual types, really.
Originally posted by jiggerj
Wouldn't knowledge take care of 99% of this? Or, is this what is meant by awareness?
Originally posted by robhines
reply to post by greyer
Hi again, I don't think I need to help you with much, seems like you're getting it pretty well there. .
It doesn't magically get better all at once, and often you might think it's all fallen apart, but the next day it often makes more sense. It's really strange, much weirder than I can understand, but if you keep your focus things really do start to make sense. It's just a long process sometimes that involves a lot of hard work.
I guess that's what scares people so often, the amount of work you actually have to put into it, but it's not like you put in all the work and you're left empty handed every day/night, you can regularly see the results and you will do if you go at it in the right way, or in whatever way is best suited to you.
The way I see it personally is that it's the hardest task we have, so we really have to redefine who we are as we go along and put a lot into it, but the good thing is that even one good meditation can restore your mindset, so to speak, and remind you that you're on the right track. So yes, it's tough, but at the same time you kind of get instant feedback if you're doing it right, so it regularly works out not so bad at all.
edit : just one note - you said you thought that actions are associated with fear, I think it's that actions are associated with anything, it's just what mindset drives those actions. I think actions are actions, just like thoughts are thoughts, as far as I can tell, it's the intention behind both that determines whether they're good, bad, or neutral.