posted on Aug, 29 2011 @ 02:24 AM
I like to say I have no beliefs on this subject. Intellectually, I do not. Ther eis another part of me that has visions of things that I am more or
less aware of, but choose to ignore as likely false...... and yet they are always there, in the background, subconscious most times......
One of them is this vision that is rather large and I don't know if I could work it into a verbal explanation that communicates it well. I won't try
to get it all, but basically, I see life force as consciousness (general) that splits up into peices of "self consciousness", through a long process
of spiritual and physical evolution. This implies things like reincarnation, even from one species or life form to another.
This vision often has me percieving (and my intellect ignoring just as fast) entities all around us, in nature, that are lower on the ladder of self
consciousness.I guess similar to what people consider "elementals". flames of consciousness beginning their self consciousness separation, but not
yet separated enough to have an "I". They don't even yet identify much with the physical life forms they are attached to (plants, for example....)
and tend to "wander" from their form.
They slowly evolve to attaching to animal forms, and wander a bit less, beginning to be pulled into the experience through much sensorial stimulation,
and bodily reactions. They begin forming a sense of self even more when they incarnate in a domesticated animal- the identification with human forms
begins there, through contact and observation.
Then they begin experiences as humans where the sense of "I" grows, the incarnations starting with more socialized groupings of humans (less egos)
and slowly moving through bodies of those in more and more individualized societies (more ego, more separation).
I do not really see this as a hierarchial thing where the lower are bad, the higher good- it is experience only, and all are equal, in the end.
Consciousness experiences self other separation through traveling through all the colors of the rainbow!
On the other hand, there IS a verticle type hierarchy in a sense, in which a self consciousness learns lessons in power- one of them being the more
separated you are from the "all" the more responsibility you have vis-a-vis the lower realms. These lower entities are not demons, they are
like....our children. They are watchign us, moving through our bodies, mimicking us, as they are trying on self identity. They also can tend to group
around a strong self consciousnes, (really like groupies) as they seek to soak up that identity and power. They can be carrying out ones orders and
will as well, just in the way an admiring student will!
-This is the important part of the "responsibility" thing! They are watchign your thoughts as guides to what you will... so think about thigns you
don't want to happen? They don't know the difference! Focus on something you hate? They'll bring it to you! They only get the pictures, not the
intellectual judgements.
They also are not well famialiarized with self/other separation yet, so what you send out upon another in thought, they will eventually bring upon you
as well, only because they don't get the concept of you and the other being different and separate.
This can make them seem "evil" but they are no more evil than our two years old are that throw a toy and break it, or pull your hair because it is
pretty and they don't know it is attached to your head, or say a swear word because they hear us saying it all the time!
So, in summary with this, I think each of us might be a part of one huge source- consciousness, and following a path of separation and experience in
self-consciousness, and each of us has incarnated many times, in many different forms.
Ugh..... I know that sounds weird. My more rational part struggles with wanting to delete this. I just let that background part go and what it lets
out is rather strange. It may be completely off.
There is a story in my family that always gets brought up, that when I was a baby, I used to stay up all night in my crib laughing and babbling. It
went on so long, my mom called a psychic or medium or something, and she came to the house and walked into my room one night while I was doing this.
She came back out and told my parents I was "playing with as of yet unborn babies".
She walked back in and announced to the "babies" they had to leave, I needed to sleep now and could no longer play.
The story goes that I went straight to sleep and never did that again.
I don't remember this, of course, and it might be a silly myth from twisted memories, or perhaps my parents were just manipulated by that person. I
don't know. But there it is for whatever it is worth.