posted on Jun, 30 2011 @ 08:52 PM
Hello all, I know some of you have seen my post from a while back but for those who haven't, let me give a little back ground. I have been back from
over seas for a little over a year now. When I came back, I was a complete wreck. I was drinking around a fifth and pint a night of Crown Royal as
well as scaring everyone around me. Around December I finally had enough of living. I loaded my pistol put it to my head in front of the girl I was
with and pulled the trigger. My gun did not discharge and to this day we have no clue why.
After this occured I went to the ER the next day and told them what had happened and conveniently left out the gun part. I stated that I needed help
with alcohol abuse and informed them what all has gone on. Long story short I started attending AA meetings and seeing a psychiatrist as well as a
subtance abuse counselor. I was put on Wellbutrin and Effexor.
A month or so ago I decided to come off my medicine. I have been sober since January and love who I am now. I figured why not? I came off my medicine
and a month later I actually feel better than I did while on it. The whole time I was on medication I felt tired and passive. I believe at the time I
needed it, but now I am better without it. It is amazing how many friends and family members as well as my Psychiatrist, tell me I need to stay on it.
They also still believe I am doing wonderful even though I have stopped taking it. Although they dont know this.